I must not be alone In the struggle to say no Catching on my lips Stuck between my teeth Which turns to a yes Before I can think To not disappoint To please others I say yes Even though Yes is a bother
Cowards: Men who kick a woman(esp. after he's the 1 that drug her down). You'd never suspect it's the men with a good reputation around town. If they're true & through bad they don't fight only women but their fist are enough for anyone who angers them enough... he'll try to take anyone down. BUT it's a pure yellow-bellied coward sort that doesn't have what it takes to stand up to another, not for himself much less any other. Lowest **** of all cowards are the ones who kick her like she's a dog when she's on the ground, standing up over her like a tall tower, feeling proud with power. If or when it's found out then she deserved it all. Oh yeah, without a doubt especially if she's already been down the abuse pattern route. When he kills her; appears justified because they say, she should have gotten out before she died. But sure enough, it's a pure coward that'll kick a woman & tell her that he should stomp her brain's out. SCREAMING at her FORCING her to answer his questions when she's already too frightened to make a sound... knowing that no matter the answer she decides, it's just another excuse for him to slap her around, why? Because of course whatever answer will be a lie, I guess a coward must be able to predict it's a lie before any words ever have to come out, I guess she lied because she just wants to be slapped around.
lying is forcing back the ‘i love you’s on my tongue like im closing my eyes so hard i can only see black it’s feeling the giddiness of admiration and love for you and telling you i hate you it’s empty insults laced with adoration that i hope you won’t notice my love has become a lie again
it has been pushed far back and it’s reaching out again, hoping you’ll see it
i want to believe there will be a time for my love to be free when i can love you with my entire self and you will want that too
but for now it’s hiding for now it’s pain for now it’s pretending
Behind this smile I use to comfort others Lies a deep rooted pain Wherever I go Wherever I turn Without you This façade is going to burn Burning me up It’s my love for you Deep within my heart I know it’s truth You are no longer But lingering on in the depths of my Rebel Heart Darling I miss you I keep on smiling pretending not to see That even after you are gone with him You are still hurting me My love for you will burn me up I smelt my burning flesh I saw my rotting bones I saw my decay I still kept on smiling
My life as of last has been and eye opening, head first dive of exploration interrupted by one, sometimes two day long binges of unpleasant sobriety.
Three long years after writing the first stanza, The drugs still being explored This has led me to a more beautiful understanding of myself and my few remaining friends However it seems that I have taken a significant tumble down the socioeconomic ladder At least my writing has gotten neater No longer shaken by the withdrawal of a still desired drug
Alcohol has a way of calming and inspiring me Bringing forth the thoughts I cannot make into sound My few remaining friends cut down into a seemingly impossible smaller number I now awake in the night with cold sweats that interrupt my slumber.
Dreams of panic and anxiety, Now clouded with past faces. Personifications of things inside me Faces made of thoughts and feelings, Taking over occupied spaces Forcing out the beautiful and imaginative Subconscious taking charge, So the conscious may live.
Mama couldn't save me, daddy did so he couldn't raise me I'm still tripping off them hoes that played me Same ******* fronting on me when I had my baby It's crazy, and ****** say they made me Taking credit from my mama, **** amaze me How ****** talking down when I'm not around But every time I'm in the building, schhh, not a sound I line my haters up and clap them down That choppa have ***** dancing like he Bobby Brown I'm well-respected in my city, even out of town And don't ever tuck my chain *****, how that sound? How that look? We don't live by the book, we just live by the code A lot of ****** got exposed when feds came through They was dropping names too ****** say I changed up but I'm with the same crew I was always told to get the money and remain you Never let these ***** ****** tell you what you can't do Every time they said that I left, that was when I came through Range new, .38 special when the flame blew Just in case I gotta flame you What a feeling when them people tryna frame you Lock you in a cell when detain you Rather die before I go out working like I'm Django I'm gone...
This was from my student Bryan Tishobi... he's black. Hence why the N Word was used..... HE FORCED ME TO DO THIS OR HE'D SHOOT MY ***. Should I call the cops???
she lost her heart in things not persons she lost her soul in moments not humans
today everything came to an end they forced me to make a decison not asking about what I wanted and they didn't even realize all this dragged me more into the dark than I allready was
making a pact with the devil sounded like the best option maybe the only option I have left, maybe he can save me
thinking about the past always made me feel sick but tomorrow I will realize I am still living there, in the past
after a while they let me alone, with all my thoughts the light was dark and the room was empty, it was just me empty like my soul and dark like my heart
I need to take a break, to get away from this place for a while accepting who you are is a hard thing to do, but I will someone told me there is nothing wrong with being yourself and I hope the people around me will think I am good enough
because I am
and you don't even realize how bad you making me feel