I know
I shouldn't feel guilty for putting myself above you.
but lately, I've felt regretful
questioning my reasoning, my sanity, because I need you
(no)
I told you all my truth
everyone views her victim
to my crazy mind, that can't decide,
(you run when things aren't easy)
-and now I've begun to believe them.
I thought we could be friends
I apologized for your jealousy
made it all my fault (I should've known)
it was too easy.
Communication was key,
she said she got the memo
but she's been assuming things she doesn't know
and I've been feeling dreadful.
(stop)
I know she is affected by my actions,
believe me, I know too well,
and maybe this is me overthinking things,
after all I am sick in my head.
If only she knew the way you claw into my brain
(about her) everytime of everyday
I'm exhausted of the way you make me feel
Because one minute I feel just fine
and another I feel fried
im not free.
(you made her kryptonite to me,
but you are me
and this is more than just exhausting,
its deadly)
dealing w mental illnesses that cause you to toxically obsess over those you love, make interactions with them toxic to you. so so so fun!