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500 · Jan 2021
Read Me?
Påłpëbŕå Jan 2021
Dear Reader,

If you're still reading
this isn't poetry
must I tell you this
nor it is highly literary,
these thoughts
that I'm trying
to put into words
are born from crying
for the past hour
so **** silently
that no one could hear
how I suffer violently.
The point of this is
to tell you that
if any of you has
ever had:-
a starved stomach,
a broken heart,
an empty pocket,
a rough start,
a cheating spouse,
a failed attempt,
an abusive marriage,
a parent with contempt,
a chronic disease,
a severe accident,
a temper so short,
a frightening incident,
a bully so bad,
an addiction so strong,
a grief so shattering,
a relationship gone wrong,
a house too expensive,
a child you lost,
an unfulfilled dream,
an untrodden path of Frost,
a scar so ugly,
a few extra pounds,
a body too skinny,
a loved one inside the ground,
or anything/anyone that hurt you
putting you under depression's spell
I tell you,
that you've survived your own hell
so this makes you a hero
even if you're at level zero,
if you've got no one's care
I tell you, you're extremely rare.

Thanks For Reading.
I wrote this because I wanted someone to say this to me when I'd been crying, no one did.......so I thought- why wait for someone else when I've got myself?
472 · Feb 2021
:
Påłpëbŕå Feb 2021
:
everyday

I

betray

myself

this

way

by

trying

to

portray

­that

everything's

okay
somewhere, something's terribly wrong
451 · Jul 2021
yours|mine
Påłpëbŕå Jul 2021
i don't want much

just a moment to breathe you in

your silhouette to touch

not an inch more of skin

i don't long for your attention

i'm happy to see you happy

not an ounce of your affection

i want to let you be free

i am not after your best parts

just the ones you hide

the dark deep pieces of your heart

those i want you to in me confide

i am not aiming for your mind

just the glimpses of your thoughts

that have me so inclined

towards you in all sorts


i am that girl who can look at you all day long

but will never let these feelings prolong

for i can't look at you when you look at me

-i can't muster up the courage to be

~y o u r s
will it be fine
if i say that you're mine?
448 · Oct 2020
Writers Are
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2020
Writers are illusionists,
For they create imagery;
Imprisoned in their minds,
While setting the whole world free.

Writers are heros,
For they have superpowers;
Walking for miles before they sleep,
Only to shine like insomniac stars.

Writers are clowns,
For they can make you laugh;
Humouring you through their ironies,
Unveiling only their happy half.

Writers are divine,
For they can give life;
To the sun & the sea & the shore,
Calming and soothing all your strife!

Writers are deranged,
For they find poetry in all shapes;
From needles to knives,
They talk to these inani'mates'

Writers are intense,
For they feel too much;
Like mimosa of the plant kingdom,
Writing away about the slightest of touch.

Writers are deceptive,
For they are the best liars,
Exaggerating these simple sentences,
Helping you escape your monotonous quagmires.

Writers are humble-beings,
For they always are connected to their roots;
Building wonders from mere words,
To which the whole world ends up paying tributes!
This poem is for all the people who helped me learn so so much in such less time.

Thank you all!
444 · Sep 2022
fireflies
Påłpëbŕå Sep 2022
what are we if not blemishes in a masterpiece

growing and glowing through all that we receive

broken our are souls and dark our are hearts

yet we learn to be at peace with all our parts
we are like fireflies with unlimited illuminace because even after all the dark nights we still shine through all the blackness and i guess that's what makes us special
431 · Mar 2021
Palpebra
Påłpëbŕå Mar 2021
Sometimes I wish
I wasn't this strong,
allowed myself to
do something wrong,
could be whoever
could do whatever-
my heart thought
my brain sought,
but here I sit
with nothing
with nobody
line by line
writing down this tragedy.

Sometimes I wish
I could roam around
free, liberated and unbound,
be a little crazy
do some stupid stuff
say some badass things
call society's bluff,
but here I sit
with hidden handcuffs
that make me
someone far from me.

Sometimes I wish
on days like this
if I could
let loose a little
fall for a guy
fly to the sky
get a little high,
but I know I can't
why?
Because-
I wasn't brought up this way
I wasn't allowed to say-
all these things aloud and clear,
my life's dictated by fears
that wet my pillow with tears
turning my eyes red
a rebellion stirring in my head,
I wish I could
I know I should
but
I can't skid
for I am just
a closed eyelid.
Palpebra means 'eyelid' in Latin. It's my pseudonym. My real name means the same. I'm writing this one for myself. Why? Well, I need to unmask and be unfiltered somewhere, do I?
429 · Dec 2020
×
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2020
×
There are parts

of mine

that are

far from fine,

I hide them well

behind

a mask so pretty

concealing an ugly mind,

dark-dingy corners

where

I don't let in the

Sun's glare,

filthy and messy

with litters from past

devilish and doomed

been from the very start,

I'm twisted

inside-out

cold and unlovable

without a doubt.

But I keep

all this

to myself

like a kiss,

that's too *****

to share

like a secret

I bear

&

add

layer

after

layer

burying these

demons and evils

deeper and deeper

calming the

impending upheavals.
I'm Not Generalising
Just Realizing What's Wrong With Me In General?
424 · Apr 2021
this isn't peotry II
Påłpëbŕå Apr 2021
are you who
who am i
we're the same truth
bound by different lies
i'm lost without you

i admit it
412 · Sep 2021
too glam to give a damn
Påłpëbŕå Sep 2021
their eyes full of judgement
makes me lament
the loss of something that could be
at the cost of me being free

their words full of contempt
and the lack of tempt
makes me feel oh so guilty
since couldn't i bear his proximity

their hearts full of rage
place me in my mind's cage
where i can breathe
in my own hell do i seethe

their brains full of malicious stuff
that makes me tough
each day each hour
i realize i've come pretty far

so i exist the way i am
"too glam to give a ****"
my wildness can't be tamed
-a memory that can't be framed
my wildness can't be tamed cuz baby i'm a memory that can't be framed
409 · Jun 2021
trend-setter
Påłpëbŕå Jun 2021
you being right

doesn't prove me wrong

me being away doesn't

change where i belong

i maybe a result

of a rough ride

but that doesn't say

that i've got no pride

i am and will always be

better when dealt with bitter

i am different

cuz i am a trend-setter
i am who i am
404 · Mar 2021
Påłpëbŕå Mar 2021
I don't know
where did I
go wrong
or lie
why
did you leave
and what made you
believe
that I betrayed
when it was my life
I layed
for your eyes to see
that I'm not like any
but you were
like all
promising timers
while stopping our calls
happily choosing
a life without
my dullness my brokenness
my issues my doubts
you did not trust me
enough
but you took me for someone
who wasn't tough
so I write this verse
last blessing last curse
4 years of
confusion and control
calculatitive goals
I tell you this
I don't miss
you or your bookshelf-self
untitled ice-cube bonds
or anything else
our talks our walks
our texts our interests
my dull your bright
your voice my fight
my guilt my pride
your scars you hide.
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2020
Something weird happened today,

with my body talking all the way.

I heard a creak here

and then a squeak there-

my backbone said

nodding its head

"Keep me straight and clever.

For men may come and men may go

but I'll be there for you forever"

Then there was a sound so deep,

my gut roared in his sleep-

"Trust me, lady,  

I'm your well wisher.

I know plots when they turn shady"

Confused I wondered why

all of a sudden I

heard noises from within

only to feel my skin-

say out loud and clear,

"Oh woman! Now you see

don't let anyone get under me"

This made my heart

pump so **** fast,

that I had to press my palm

in order to keep it calm.

Yet he lubdubbed-

"Keep me safe,

but don't place me in a cage

I'm sure,

I can keep up with a little estrange"

Then to my utter surprise

as I closed my eyes,

thinking

only to start blinking

when I heard an unusual call,

my brain whispered,

"Dear Palpebra, I may not be the smartest of all!
; )
401 · Dec 2022
life
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2022
.
and our lives are so well
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e                                               r
t                                               a
r                                               f
a                                               t
t                    ­                           e
s                                               d
ew erehw dne syawla ew
.
it's a cycle
401 · May 2021
To Second Chances
Påłpëbŕå May 2021
Your pain could I feel
And mine was felt by you
We're a masterpiece
Put together by glue
Done damage
And all the moments been
The slate of our love
Can't be wiped clean
We fell
And then we rose
We walked miles
Before we were close
All the hurdles
We crossed
All the opportunities
We lost
Can we still make up?
Or we'll let
Come in between
The petty defects?
Where you cursed me
And I hurled abuses
When I couldn't see
Past through your excuses
Because we can
Never go back
But we can bury
All our old tracks
Start afresh
Be the same
For we're mere players
Of this brand new game!
Honestly, I don't believe in second chances. Then why did I write this? Because someone out there does.
398 · Dec 2024
new year's
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2024
with this year, i wish you good luck & prosperity
hope all the darkness that seemed like an eternity
vanishes from your life and you let the bright light
embrace your soul, for you life may no longer be a mere fight
but a chance to be happy and content
with people to love and sometimes vent
all you get is good and all you become is better
wanting to come true all your dreams, i pray letter by letter
may this year be full of life & not just a will to survive
may all your sorrows rest in 2024 and joy fills your twenty wenty-five
395 · Dec 2020
Dark Souls Bright Scars
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2020
The darkest of souls

have the brightest of scars.

Black as coal

dwelling in their mar.


Writing their pains

while choking on their cries,

revealing their brains

through poems for your eyes.


The darkest of souls

have the brightest of scars.

Black as coal

burning like stars.


Creating these arts

while surviving their hell,

gluing their broken hearts

by rhyming to a fare thee well.


The darkest of souls

have the brightest of scars.

Black as coal

poetry is their superpower.
We Don't Choose To Be Poets;
It's Poetry That Chooses Us.
386 · Jul 2021
damn me
Påłpëbŕå Jul 2021
i am preparing for the crash

like all my decisions this too is rash

i know how it'll end

yet every rule i bend

look at you and then down

staring at you i'm found

i try to shake it off

but then i see you standoff

turning all about

letting go of all my doubts

i just can't suppress this change

i know it's way too strange

i've never felt so alive before

maybe that's why i always want more

but I'm not built for this stuff

my past keeps me in handcuffs

i know it'll be the same

yet can't i seem to stop

i will always be lame

in my own head up caught
dear hormones
behave
385 · Nov 2021
miserably melodious
Påłpëbŕå Nov 2021
i love it when you're rough
i love it when you're sweet
for this time with you is enough
sweating under the sheets
you make me cry
you make me sigh
with a pleasure so deep
that i don't feel cheap
for wanting what belongs
to someone else's songs
like the lyrics you flow
making me glow
with your musical mind
that makes me blind
to her very existence
not an ounce of repentance
for having you inside me
lets me be oh so free
that i get high
on these sugary lies
of you being mine alone
until beeps your phone
tie me up and free my heart
it's you for whom my legs part
your voice gets me wet
your length in me sets
a rhythm that reaches its ******
leaving me lonely, lamenting & lax
376 · Apr 2021
Crucio
Påłpëbŕå Apr 2021
Your absence fills my heart

like an unclaimed piece of art,

you already knew

that I lacked hues

so

I

charged

U

for

theft

when

you

left

but you made me realize

how dull are my eyes

how muffled are my cries

how lame is my existence

how pointless is my persistence,

how far you are

when you still hold me close,

how easy I am

waiting to be the one you chose,

I know

in this world of "Hello"

all I'll ever be is "Crucio"

unlovable

&

unwanted

-a pretty little thing that'll

always remain haunted.
P.S. Neither have I watched nor read the Harry Potter Series.....

P.P.S. I really liked having you around. I'm sorry you will never be able to say the same about me. I really am a curse, a liability, a messed up personality.

the prettiest faces do hide the ugliest traces
375 · May 2021
Go Set Get
Påłpëbŕå May 2021
the only difference
between
who I am
&
who I've been
is
the image in my head
that said
I can be
whoever
I can do
whatever
&
if none of this
proves to be a bliss
I can reset
GO SET GET
whenever
&
however

after all
~
It's My Life
sometimes all we need is that exact moment when we realize that our life is ours alone

if today's not my day
that doesn't mean that I'll never find a way
I will
372 · Oct 2020
Criminals aren't born;
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2020
But brought-up.
They are the adopted children of boredom and free time.
Nothing.
371 · May 2022
🧡
Påłpëbŕå May 2022
i saw him fall for someone who wasn't me,
yet i wonder why everyone but him couldn't see?
so he found what i had discovered,
and today i sit back in my chair with my heart uncovered,
nothing like love can ever exist,
because love is nothing more than a chemicals' twist!
366 · Oct 2020
Man|Woman
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2020
When I caught him in bed with another woman; I asked him-Why?
He shrugged and said-"I am a warm-blooded man"
So I smashed his face and broke his nose; He asked me-Why?
I shrugged and said-"I am a cold-blooded woman"
One thing I always fail to understand is why do people cheat on their partners; If they can't be monogamous, then why do they even get into a relationship. Is loyalty so undesirable?
365 · Oct 2021
`
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2021
`
good ol' days
young ol' me
so far away
that i could sea
and simply be
completely free
the beach, the sea will always remind me of you
i hope you have a great life ahead a :)
you'll be missed!
Påłpëbŕå Aug 2023
and when there's silence inside your head
you choose to be at peace instead
because all your words that remain unsaid
are meant to be unheard instead
356 · Dec 2020
I'm Fine :)
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2020
My eyes

have dried

with the tears

I've cried.

And now

I'm hollow,

I've got nothing to give.

And now

I'm done,

I've got nothing to live.
I'm fine. Okay, if not completely at the moment, I will be, sometime later.
:)
351 · Sep 2020
Påłpëbŕå Sep 2020
He asked me- "Why are you still a ******?
I smiled and said- "I'm good at DIY"
.
..
...
The science of our body is such that it doesn't distinguish between ******* and ****** ******* since, the end result is the same.

Then why do we lust for people? Why do we look for mates even when we aren't planning to prove Darwin's Theory of Survival of the Fittest!
348 · May 2021
I Want You
Påłpëbŕå May 2021
PART I

warm a minute
the next you're cold
man you've got secrets
and a story untold
i try to look deeper
making my moves bold
letting my pupils dilate
and my want unfold
treat me like a princess
take me like i'm sold
you're not the monster
you think you are
just a broken soul
with stars in your scars
&
i want you
with all your shards
for you're worth the gamble
i'll show you all my cards


PART II

i love it when you're rough
but hate it when you act tough
i know you're strong
but being cold to me is wrong
i don't just open my legs for you
but i welcome you in my heart
taking inside all your hues
making a piece of art
you'd kissed many
but for me you were my first
like a fusion reaction
there were explosions of thirst
one **** led to another lick
and I kept wanting more and more
and before
I knew
I fell for you
for all
you are,
you were,
you'll ever be
i didn't just look at you
through you could i see
and still I want you
so much
that every touch
makes me crave
makes me brave
345 · Feb 2022
°
Påłpëbŕå Feb 2022
°
we are a bunch of broken souls

that cry for their unfulfilled goals

struggling and suffering

burning and buffering

from birth to death

a complete circle of breath

we live only to die tomorrow

we're happy only to feel sorrow

so why come into this world

when there's nothing we can do

to make it a better place for me and you

and waste a chaste life in haste

for our species will end

and come Darwin's fitter

till then we'll blend

in this world of gold and glitter
what's the point, eh?
339 · Jul 2021
i don't want to want you
Påłpëbŕå Jul 2021
why can't i let you go?
let things be like before
before....
i saw you standing there
of my interest- unaware
with your friends in deep talks
that made me pause my long walks
you're trouble knows my heart
yet seeing you makes it start
with a beat so profound
that it makes sounds
for you to notice me too
and exchange a word or few
but I battle with my brain
attraction is something to refrain
for all i've known is pain
and i can't go through it again
i try to kick you out of my mind
yet in the corners do I find
you lurking there in deep
making me want to keep
looking for you everyday
yet stay shut without a say
because i know this through
i ain't the one you'll want
so i want to not want you
because your ghost will forever haunt
me and my stupid senses
that are making me type these sentences
I've never faced temptation this strong............and like all other aspects of my life, I'm all alone in this. Why can't I just go back to being aloof? I don't want more mess in my already messed up life.
This is nothing, just stress + hormones = chemical imbalance. I'm not the "romance in real life" type, yeah? Moreover, I am unlovable! So why can't I let him go? Why am I dreaming of him? Why is he up here in my head when I clearly know that I'm not in his head too?
335 · Nov 2020
Us?
Påłpëbŕå Nov 2020
Us?
I created you with my art,

you immortalized me on your canvas,


channelising our broken hearts

to pour out the story of "us"


you dusted my shards

on the paintings you made;


I wrote you down on my cards

wording you in my shades,


we found each other

when we lost ourselves,


we are two books kept together

that belong to different shelves.
323 · Jun 2022
THE BEGINNING
Påłpëbŕå Jun 2022
is this the end then?
when did this happen?
what led me to this place
when all i can do is rest my case
for i have no fight left in me
and all the fight has left me
thus, sit here i at this hour
caressing all my scars
counting all these stars
come have i a bit too far
and now there's no going back
everything's turning black
my sight and the night
for there's no rise of the sun anymore
just me and my mind after the before
silence and slow heart beat
a spirit mourning its defeat
THE END
318 · Jan 2022
Påłpëbŕå Jan 2022
l o v e

i s

a

l i e

&

l i e s

a r e

l o v e l y
⁉️
311 · Oct 2021
raison d’être
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2021
what am i to you
asked him i
smiled at me
said he-
the tainted truth
in the luminous lies
the brightest star
in the darkest skies
the simplest answer
to my complex whys
the unexpected hello
to painful goodbyes
oh baby,
you're the light of my life
that never dies

-you're everything to my nothing
a reason for existing
Påłpëbŕå Nov 2024
and now when i can't look at you
i see that you want me to be your view
saying that the love you denied is true
and without me your sky isn't that blue
you're telling me that you've realised
but you're making amends only to lessen the guilt inside
but i ain't a fool anymore who'd drop everything now
for you and the hope of "us" is dead somehow
leave me the way you left those 89 days back
in a puddle of my tears and my heart in cracks
it took so long and will take so much longer for me to fix my mind
and if your feelings are this fierce too then to yourself be kind
make something of everything that has happened and more
go through those stages of grief, they will shake you to your core
i can't let you destroy me again
or let you be the reason for my pain
can't forget the disrespect, the nonchalance, the hurt i didn't deserve
so all i want now is to live in peace and end this verse
i fear to hope that people can change for good
because doing that once killed something within me, i understood
if you wanted it, if you wanted me- you could
so yes, go act like i broke your heart and thus i am the villain of our story
i am strong enough to handle your hate and shall take the blame in all its glory
don't start now by dua lipa
308 · Apr 2021
Why?
Påłpëbŕå Apr 2021
Why
do I
end up
alone
with my
phone
showing
screen glowing
with nothing
at all
no texts
no calls
just me
and this solitude
I wish for
someone
to intrude
but they keep
their distance
and
I keep up my
persistence
waiting
wishing
wanting
yet
the montony
is haunting,
I decided to
be okay
with me being
lonely everyday
but a small part of me
does pray
my heart
does betray
making me regret
all the chances
I didn't take
making me fret
over all the
bonds
I didn't make,
so I write this verse
on impulse
missing the absence
wasting the presence
living in the past
dying for a future to last.
308 · Jul 2021
you're worth the effort
Påłpëbŕå Jul 2021
it's just been a day and few
since the last time i saw you
your face
your gaze
i miss so much
to your memories do i clutch
and hold on for so long
because thinking about your presence
makes me live through your absence
i am doing things i've never done before
i am going all in because i want more
i am taking this risk for sure
why?
because you're worth the effort, encore!
i guess, i figured out what i want..........the worst that can happen is that he can say NO or laugh at my expense.........but not showing him how i feel about him will make me regret even more..........so- let's see how things work out......i don't have much to lose, do i? a few tears, a piece of my heart and a lot of pride..........but he'll be totally worth it :)
300 · Oct 2020
Want
Påłpëbŕå Oct 2020
I want a love so deep that all my shallowness disappears,
I want a love so lucid that all my doubts clear.
I want a love so consuming that all my fears dissolve,
I want a love so inspiring that all my thoughts evolve.
I want a love so pure that all my sins are forgiven,
I want a love so trusting that all my insecurities are riven.
I want a love so joyous that all my sorrows are washed away,
I want a love so poetic that it lives even when I no longer stay!
299 · Jan 2023
stimulation
Påłpëbŕå Jan 2023
what are we if not calculative creatures
a dichotomous breed with in born bias,
struggling between believers and preachers
-we are sinful souls who aim to be pious
we claim to be depressed
and live to be impressed
craving profanity
while questioning our sanity,
we are suffering in the this hell
of paradoxes that challenge our intel
it's funny how we want touch
and affection oh so much
but we're afraid to open up and give
expecting other's hearts to help us live
we have voids and spaces too large
that nothing could ever in barge
thus we will end up alone
with our fates set in stone
we want to be stimulated, both physically & mentally
longing for someone to take away our ability
to think clearly or walk steadily,
confused because we don't know what we need basically
is it mere pleasure we look for
or something deeper do we implore?
covered bodies yet naked minds,
what is it that we are unable to find?
peace or chaos?
calm or applause?
somebody to awaken our deeper desires
or a superficial night of playing with fire?
i don't really know what's more important mental stimulation or physical fulfilment......neither or both? and if there's nothing, still is it worth being with that person?
what does it make me, eh?
297 · Nov 2022
SuperWoman
Påłpëbŕå Nov 2022
half a page of hurt
and the other half of memories
all these words that i blurt
have you as my nemesis
what was i thinking when i let you in
or was i thinking at all
because since then all i have been
is a mess of flaws and falls
regret i deeply the moment i saw you
hate it when you smiled at me
because i had no clue
that i will be bound even as you let me free
why do i have this pathetic taste in men
since the beginning to the very end
some sing songs for me the others write
some make me feel good the others fight
some are direct as ****
the others simply try their luck
some want to be my forever
the others are happy with whatever
but all along i have  paid a hell lot of price
to be adored and attracted to is a vice
but you know what's even worse

-it's the inability to like someone who loves me and my ability to love someone who doesn't even like me

but one day no man will matter
none will i want to flatter
for i will be too busy making my dreams come true
so there'll be no place for the likes of you
and i will be the woman  who is-
super **** yet classy as hell
risen after everytime she fell
strong and stable
and extremely capable
-a  .s.u.p.e.r.w.o.m.a.n.
who'd never need a superman
294 · Apr 2024
The Vehement Warrior
Påłpëbŕå Apr 2024
Stood I staring at the building I once called- "My school"
With a heart so pure, I was too easy to befool.
All these years went by and yet the memories stayed,
Every night I cried, for the horrors to desipate- I prayed.

Yet every detail of that 'incident' clung to my bones like Ivy,
Making me curse myself for harbouring all the naivety.

Often wondered I- "Did I bring this upon myself?
Or maybe if I'd yelled a little louder that day, someone would've finally helped?
Was it my outgoing nature that made them think that I "wanted it"
Or was it the fact that I liked one of them is what "lured" him in?
In places where I didn't want to be touched or pried,
They took and took until I was destroyed and dead eyed;
Bleeding from every pore, torn from the inside,
I laid on the cold floor waiting for someone to stride,
And stop the two demons who's faces I still have registered in my brain,
The two humans who lost their humanity with evil flowing in their veins.

But nothing happened and no knight in shining armour came,
I was left there with my battered body and shattered soul, in vain.
It was only after hours of darkness that saw I some light,
That made me squint because it was too bright.
I got up- burning and tripped in the pool of my own blood,
That ripped a scream out of my lungs and made tears flood.
I rose again and again until I finally limped my way out,
Leaving behind the ashes of my former self- covered in a shroud.

I decided that I won't be a victim of what happened to me,
Rather believed that justice will be served and they shall see,
How I chose to not succumb to death and thus, had a rebirth,
And like the Phoenix- I came, I saw, I conquered my dearth.

So today, standing in front of the structure that housed my fears for so long, I ponder-
"What didn't **** me, has definitely made me stronger"
But I'm not a mere survivor who went on with her life like before,
Rather, I'm a warrior who slayed her fears and settled the score;
Suffering is my nectar, the energy source on which I run,
- A product of pain, an Angel, even though a fallen one.

So what if an example was set at the cost of me losing my innocence,
It made thousands of people stand up against the grave offence;
Striving each day to make this place safer for the entire human race,
And this, dear reader, will be enough for me to finally rest my case.
286 · Dec 2022
eludevadescape
Påłpëbŕå Dec 2022
and what are we if not a bunch
who all have this hunch
to be happy for screens
yet miserable behind the the scenes
with deep-rooted longing for affection
yet living "no strings attached" because we're afraid of rejection
what are we if not pretty pretenders
posing in "black & white" even if we love lavender
netflix has become our reality
while we live in instagramic insanity
we're no longer doing what we like
we're no longer liking what we do
there's nothing that makes our pulse spike
"*** is happening" we have no clue
calenders' changing but our time still stays the same
is it a "happy new year" or we're all playing this game
where we're all trying to make our name
yet failing again and again
so we end up dope and drunk
and all our aspirations end up sunk
our hearts broken by our past still beat with hope
is it even love anymore or a mere scope
to get off with no feelings only feel alone
with a contact list of hundreds yet none to phone
depression and delusion
conflict and confusion
that's what goes on in our heads
all unspoken words wet our pillows with the tears we shed
we want money only to spend it all
some luxury so that we can have it all
it's so complicated yet so simple at the same time
we're killing ourselves daily and we still don't consider it a crime
this isn't a poem just a raging realization
is this how my life's going to be- a journey of elude and evasion?
Well, it's 27th December, 2022.
I hope 2023 will be pretty peaceful for you :)
281 · Apr 2024
forest
Påłpëbŕå Apr 2024
you remind of fresh forests and setting of the sun
and maybe that's why, realised i
the moment i laid eyes on you, you're my only one
270 · Jul 2024
...EVOL...
Påłpëbŕå Jul 2024
all along these years wondered i
why did all those people and poets die
writing about something that seizes to exist
a feeling so unnatural that makes humans twist
from the inside out, filling each one with doubts
-what is love? why do we fall in love?
neither the mystery of the cosmos nor the heaven above
has made us as curious as this emotion as such
everyone has been infected with a simple touch
oh lord, do we even need it so much?
all this does is make us weak
rob us of our ability to sleep and speak
grown men cry and beautiful women are brought to their knees
is it even worth all the fiasco, can anyone tell me pretty please?
caring about someone to a point of self-destruction
or smiling through unrequited feeling for someone else's satisfaction
how is all this fair, think to myself i
to be with him, is it ohkay to even lie?
maybe the world would be a better place without men and women wanting to explore
this feeling of damnation that shakes them to their very core
how do you unlove somebody? how do you get a grip of your own heart?
that knows no logic when it comes to that person upon seeing whom it kick starts
but it's a ***** that makes you a fool
i wish i was taught about it more at school
maybe then i would have saved myself of this confusion and madness
because real love is served with an illusion of joy with lots of sadness
268 · Aug 2021
.A.L.O.O.F.
Påłpëbŕå Aug 2021
i don't want to feel

anything for anyone

so that i can heal

and be fooled by none

caring makes me weak

so i want to be bleak

again

angered by my pain

insane

in chains

for letting myself free

shattered my broken soul

painting my heart as black as coal

so now i know

what these emotions cost

making me feel oh so low

such that

no love in me is left to be lost
"heart break isn't the worst thing that can happen
and i have survived worse"
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