life, death, and somewhere in between
what is the purpose?
what dose this all mean?
to live is to experience both heart ache and joy,
to spend each day not knowing lifes ploy.
Death is the void the living dread,
lifes greatest secret she guards with the dead.
but somewhere in between lies the prison that holds me,
a place that both living and dead avoid gladly.
I am not dead,
I feel lifes warmth flow through my veins,
I feel lifes kiss and I know of lifes pains.
But I am not alive,
I watch from fogged glass all the people around,
watch as lifes play amuses, astounds.
To feel what they do,
To take part in lifes waltz.
To be embrase the void,
To be rid of my faults.
life, death, and somewhere in between,
what is the purpose?
what dose this all mean?

Sun rise
Sun set
Moon light bathes the world,
celestial embrace
The way its glow caresses your face.
The stars are prideful,
Yet they are wise,
Content with second too only your eyes.
The night winds song,
Sweet, strong,
Yet it's your whisper for which it longs.
The night sky obscured.
Hiding his face in jealousy
Because your mine...
My Serenity.

A knock on the door, 
are you there?
This endless silence, 
I can not bare.
Mute words fall upon deaf ears,
Unknowing hearts surrounded in fears.

A peek through the window, 
whats inside?
Unrequited glance, 
I can not hide.
Blind eyes see only darkness in light,
Unknowing minds rush through the night.

Am I giving up? 
Is he still near?
Or has he left me behind in here.
Sound breaks through,
light pierces darkness,
glances requited and sound flows from lips. 

I love you.

Cigarette hugs and Fireball kisses,
How can this love be fictitious,
How the smoke fills my lungs with tender embrace,
The cinnamon whiskeys gentle caress,
This is true love,
Warm, Comforting,
Whiskey tells no lies as it touches my lips,
The smoke bares no knife as it surrounds my hips,
So Cigarette hugs and Fireball kisses
Because your memory still makes my eyes glisten.

Look one way and than another,
Look at your mother than your father,
What once was right now seems so wrong,
What once was wrong seems to be gone,
Where to go what can I do?
My feet are planted, held here by you,
To let you go feels like a crime,
But I cant stay here, I'm out of time,
So now my friend I say goodbye,
Please I beg you not to cry,
I just cant stay here anymore,
Its time for me too shut this door,
Know in my heart your still alive,
But you where me when I was five.

Your love is like a cigarette,
The more i take in,
The faster it kills me.

The absence of light, cast down from your glory,
Try as it might, it is trapped in your story,
A friend to the end, no one knows you more,
But it cant contented, it has tried before,
It wants you to see, it wants you too hear,
But you close your eyes, it wont disappear,
Why do you forsake it? Cast it aside?
When its followed you, stuck too you with pride,
Its love un-requited, efforts in vain,
Who ever thought shadows felt pain.
I use to think the shadows mocked me,
But I am nothing more than a shadow, stuck by your side,
Forever my sister, forever aside.

My mind knows no limits it chooses not to explore,
My heart knows no master it chooses to be sore,
Day by day I wear a mask,
Not by choice but out of fear,
On the outside a smile but the inside a tear,
To one day know a world of color I prey,
But for now, for me, there is only grey.

My shadow is a sun kissed reflection of me,
My shadow shows a child full of glee
But what no one is knowing,
Is my shadow is growing,
And is slowly killing me.

A million lights dance on the ground,
Speechless I cant make a sound,
For one light shines bright so pure and true,
My eyes don't lie, that light is you,
I looked around me to my surprise,
All other lights dimmed in your eyes,
Un-requited, its for the best,
These feeling stay locked in my chest,
Just know although you may not be mine,
In my eyes you will always shine.

Shadows mock me on the wall,
Watching waiting for me too fall,
So many surround me yet I feel so alone,
I can see figures but no one is shown,
My body grows heavy I cant take much more,
I feel a tremble, all through my core,
Help me! Help me! I scream to them all,
But my please go un-heard as the shadows stand tall,
Why is this happening? What dose fate have planed?
Not one shadow offers their hand,
The shadows are dancing they begin to rejoice,
And I start to wonder if I have a choice,
Who would miss me? Shadows don't mourn,
My mind is rushing, with this choice I am torn,
The shadows stop dancing and reach out too late,
Now I am falling to my impending fate.