ego is one hell of a drug
but so is love  


losing my home, my safe place
made me strong, made me think
...
if home was a person
was i ever safe?

for you are my favorite face
but no longer my safe place

Ego is one hell of a drug
...

but so was your love

dancing on my tippy toes,
staying silent
never smiling
crystal tears
broken hearts

dancing on my tippy toes
i can not speak, my voice is lost
i can not smile, its wiped away
i always cry, why do i always cry?
this love broke my heart

dancing on my tippy toes
because the shatterd glass all spead out
on the cold, tiled floor

dancing on my tippy toes
who knows?

getting pricked, poked and impaled by the glass,
downing whats in my flask
its just my way to mask
whats left of my broken heart

You are my everything...

he filled my life with excitement,
he was wonderful.
sensational.
breathtaking.
But he is a wonderful fire in my lungs, and he won't stop burning until he's killed me
I swore forever with him
he is my sweetest pain, I am addicted to the pain, to the thought of loving him

have you ever been burned? the type of burn that make you lay awake at night making you feel everything and nothing all at once, the burn that makes you love and hate yourself

He is perfection to me, but he will burn me away until I am nothing but pieces of ash floating in the air waiting to be put back together
but I never will if I keep turing back to the flame
i need to let go of the dead rose, for his thorns will only cut me deeper.
I need to let go of my sweetest addiction, my sweet pain,
You.

I am the girl who dreams of disappearing
I am the one who loves without being loved in return
I’m the girl with eyes as dark as coffee
I’m the one who’s lips are sweet and heart so torn
Let me hold you and tell you that everything will be ok,
for if love truely exists,
tell me you’ll never leave my side,
tell me I mean something to you
tell me I’m going to have forever with you
If not
Let me disappear,
Forget any trace of me from your mind
Forget the feel of my skin against yours,
the taste that our kisses so softly gave
My voice... my existence
for if I’m am not yours,
I am no ones
when I disappear
Promise you’ll forget me.

can I disappear?
if I left would you remember me
the memories we share
the taste of my kisses
the touch of my skin
would you remember the love we have... let me disappear into oblivion
let me forget the pain I caused
let me cause no more pain
let me go out of this world and on to the next

Forget my existence
For I am not me
Not who I use to be
Forget who I was
For that person is lost
Forget my existence
As I’m not who you want me to be
Forget my existence
As it’s no longer me

Now her eyes are sad
and so is his heart
that two lovers depart, oh why is this so hard
both left scarred
by the impact they had on eachother
so fatal, yet so in love
as they are connected, quite possibly by the same star
that losing each other felt like the universe just tore
it left a hole in their hearts
and a universe of forever destroyed