Every time I see you
It’s like a spark lights up in my eyes.
When you look at me,
My heart skips a beat.

When I see your name on my phone
A smile consumes my face.
When your voice reaches my ears,
My heart melts a little inside.

A touch from you
Is like a million little zaps running down my arm.
When you’re gone
I feel lost and alone.

I could stare at you for hours
And never, ever get bored.
Baby, please don’t leave me.
I need you to stay here with me

Every second that you’re gone,
I replay your words in my head.
Just hold me tight
And never let me go, baby.

Nighttime slowly crawls across the sky,
encircling this lonely ravine.
Hiding from the dark shadows.

Looking out at the dark night
Seeing the stars all alight.

The sound of the waves
Crashing on shore, the sand they engrave

Crickets sing their song
All night long.

The darkness of the ocean
Has the stars shining as beacons.

The peaceful air
Erases all the cares.

The days go by
My face stretched out in a smile
Cheeks hurting from the effort.

Sitting next to people
Talking about life’s daily struggles
Just another show.

Laughing as jokes are told
Saying hello as aquaintances pass
Trying to make it through the day.

The days go by
The same struggle of pretending to be okay
When it’s empty inside.

The greatest joy is when my dog kisses my face
Pushing through the pain of unreturned messages
Calling back memories of similar days from years ago.

When your best friend would rather talk to your mom
And another friend just hangs up ‘cause she doesn’t want to talk anymore
Or a friend who never responds even though he texted first.

It’s getting easier and easier to retreat into a fantasy world
Why should I try when the results are always the same
No matter what I change, it’s always the same.

I cling to the hope of a future
One where there are people who truly care
Where people truly believe in me.

It seems so far away
Almost unachievable
But I cling to that dream obsessively,

The chant repeats in my mind, day after day,
One day will come,
One day you will be free!

In a world so wrought with
Pain,
Hatred,
Death,
Sacrifice,
Love,
Exaltation;

In a world so focused on
Media,
Societal preferences,
Humanity’s death,
War,
Money,
Religious extremists;

In a world so filled with
Beauty,
Creativity,
Colors,
Marvels,
Miracles,
Nature;

In a world created just so
How can we not take time to appreciate
All that we can?
Why do we sit in a closed room
Counting down the time
Until we can go to another closed room?

In a world we take over
We barely take the time
To be impressed by what we see.
Don’t you see what we were given?
Mountains, oceans, forests!
They call to us, but we never go.

In a world that is as it is
It is hard to find one’s self.
To find a way to become who you are meant to.
How can we imagine
Trying to comprehend
Who we are and the world we live on?

In a world that is our own
We do not love it as we should.
We focus on what’s not important
Rather than what truly is.
We watch as thousands **** thousands
And a few who save the environment.

In a world such as this
Can we try to find what is important?
Can we figure out which should have our focus?
People killing people
Just to show people that killing people is wrong?
Or people taking care of others
Just because they feel that they should?

Don’t let no one tell you,
No, not ever,
That you are not perfect, perfect, perfection.

Some people may say,
That there is no such thing
As perfect, perfect, perfection.

But let me tell you a secret,
A secret that shouldn’t be a secret,
All about perfect, perfect, perfection.

You are you,
That’s the best you can ever be
Making you perfect, perfect, perfection.

There will be some days where
People will bring you down,
But always remember
That you are perfect, perfect, perfection.

There will be some days where
People will make you feel good, cheerful, and happy,
And you’ll have proof
That you are perfect, perfect, perfection.

But no matter what kind of day you have,
ALWAYS remember,
That you are *PERFECT, PERFECT, PERFECTION!!

Saying Good-bye Part I
In ten years
I’ve said good-bye more times than I can count.
Only once have I had to say good-bye as I left,
But so many people have left my life.
I’ve learned that these good-byes NEVER get easier.
Only a few more hours left
But so much to say!
How can I say what I need to in these last few hours?
Is there any way we can repeat this last year of high school
But only so that we have more time together?
Nine years in Malaysia has changed me
All thanks to the people I’ve met here.
But to say my last good-byes
Is harder than I ever thought!

I don’t think I want to say good-bye!

Saying Good-bye Part II
To MS:

3 ½ years.
How is it possible to love someone this way in that amount of time?
You’re one of my best friends.
Through the fights,
Guy drama,
And everything else.
It’s time to say good-bye.
It’s not easy,
But here it goes.
I love you
3 ½ years is not enough!
Dancing in the rain
Staying up all night long
Just hanging out.
What more can I say?
Our replationship revolved around just a few things:
Laughter
Sugar
Girl talk
Books
Movies
And most importantly
Never giving up on one another!
I don’t know how I’ll get through
But it’s time to say good-bye
After all this time.
We’ve stalled and stalled
But now it’s time,
Time to say good-bye.
So here it goes:

I love you!
(You’ll always be my “twin sister”
And of course my “lover” and “wife”)
I’ll miss you more than you’ll ever know.
Good-bye!!!!

Saying Good-bye Part III
To NP:

5 years.
We’ve been through it ALL in 5 years.
Fights
Love
Craziness
Sugar highs
Inside jokes
Tears
Laughter.
EVERYTHING.
These years have been long
And absolutely fantabulous!!!
But it’s time to say good-bye
And I have no idea how.
How can I say those words after so long?
Promise me this
Before I say good-bye.
Just promise:
4 hours isn’t too far away.
We will see each other soon.
We won’t be too far apart.
And finally,
We will talk and stay in touch.
We’ve put this off for too long
But it’s finally time
As you walk out my door,
I love you
My best friend
My “sister”
The person who understands me.
I’ll miss you!
Good-bye!!!
(But only for a little while, right?)

Saying Goodbye Part IV
To AW:

9 years…
9 years is a long time to know someone.
9 long, amazing, wonderful, crazy years.
(Even if we were only friends for 7 of those)
What more is there to say?
You’ve ALWAYS been there.
You’ve ALWAYS been my best guy friend.
You listened when no one else would
Even when it was something stupid.
You took my slaps and punches
As my punching bag
And never forced me to stop.
(You’ve no idea how much this helped!)
When we grew apart
You were still there.
I didn’t get to say good-bye when you graduated.
But now I don’t want to.
I don’t know how.
Even after a year of being apart
We can still pick up where we ended.
What more can I say?
Please keep in touch!
Please, I beg of you!
I can’t lose a friend like you.
These past two days have reminded me of that.
Thanks for the memories:
Crazy
Stupid
Bad
Amazing
Wonderful
Weird
Fun
Messed up.
Honestly
I never wanted to hurt you
(Really! I just said those things as a joke! I don’t really want to throw/push you off a building and I don’t mean all those distressing  things I always say. It’s only to you because I love you and know you won’t take it seriously!)
I don’t want to say good-bye
I don’t want to leave so soon
But I have to go
I have to say good-bye.
Here it goes:
You’re my best guy friend
And I love you for who you are!
Please stay the same crazy, loving, ****** that you are!
I’ll miss you so much!
I don’t know when I’ll see you again.
But just know these few things:
How much I love you
(And our friendship)
That you’ve helped me
(Even when you didn’t know it)
That our love/hate relationship is why we’re such good friends
That we WILL see each other again.
Finally;
I’ll miss you like crazy!
Good-bye!!!

Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye…

How many more times
Must I say those two
Simple,
Sad,
Dreadful,
Words?

How many more times
Must I say those two
Heartbreaking,
Cheerless,
Mournful,
Words,
To the people
Who mean the most
To me?

I’ve said those two
Depressing,
Stressful,
Gloomy,
Words,
More times
Than I can count.

I don’t know
How many more times
I can say those two
Dismal,
Horrible,
Upsetting,
Words,
Before I fall apart
Into a million
Little,
Tiny,
Microscopic,
Pieces,
Left unfixable.
Impossible
To be put back together.

How many more times
Must I say those two
Tearful,
Heart-rending,
Wretched,
Words?

Good-bye
Good-bye
G­ood-bye…

someday, somewhere, someone

possible, probable, potential

future, fate, forks in the road.

different paths for different people at different times

We would **** for the things we don’t have
Even if it meant hurting ourselves
And yet
We hate many of the things
That we already have.

Killing for thinness
Even if it means starving ourselves
Just to satisfy society.
But what does it mean
In the grand scheme of things?
Nothing, nothing at all.

Society burns us like the devil
Weighs and holds us down as an anchor.
All the things we do
Just to satisfy society.
But why?

It means absolutely nothing.
Nothing to ourselves.
And only concerns those closest to us.
We only do it for one reason alone,
To satisfy society.

But in reality
What does society matter
Besides trying to ruin the lives of others.
Shouldn’t being happy with ourselves be enough
Or must we pacify those we don’t
Nor will we ever know.

Society burns like the devil
And weighs us down like an anchor
And yet not a single person
Believes in their own self.

Excuses
Excuses
That’s all you ever give.

I guess it should be expected
As that’s all you ever do.
You say you’ll do it
Then make an excuse.

Thanks for the help.
Thanks for everything,
Thanks for nothing!

All's hushed as midnight on a summer's night.
Summer is never fully existent.
Immortal possession is naught with man
Unnatural though thou radiant night

Indifferent man, silent whisper of night
A serene warning in lovely disguise
The unfading tempest, journey to man
A foolish *****, desire for revenge

A vague figure from the silence of night
Hag born from the abyss of perdition
Starting of end, beginning of no end
Condemning man to an eternal life

As long as this lives in memory
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee