One day I woke up,
I realized that it was yesterday,
and that yesterday was no way to live tomorrow,
And if I did not change today,
My yesterdays awakening would have only been in sorrow..
For many yesterdays ago I took advice I should have never even borrowed ,
By those who chose to live today as though, they may never see tomorrow

It was that night,
...and you were there with me..
You were never quite transparent,
but you were clear with me..
and every word you'd shout out loud..
whispered too..and air'd to me..
inside my inner me it entered me..
Like painful spears that teared through every barrier i had prepared..
End scene...
..It's bleak now, sudden how it ended.
But subtle how its deep now,
how those words sank in...
Sticks and stones will perish surely.
But your words
...... I keep now.

Forced entry..

Seen you like a sentry when you met me

Hit me like a tempt tree, will you let me?

Can i ask for more?

My judgments poor..

Forbidden fruit in your touch like an Apple Store.

Commodities i can't afford

But i'll take it..
      And you come oddly towards me like you might speak
                                                       forth with a tongue that's forked..

With just a taste i am delighted,

Ignorance enlightened,

Privilege provided,

With myself besided,


..........empty

Here for the moment..
or however long that takes me..
until any memory of me is gone,
And I'm miraged inside your minds interface..
I escape thee..
I am left behind..
as time passes by..subtly..to erase me..

Insides feeling ripped..
in half from what im dealing with..
off in fact from what i fill in lack..
of what im seeing missed..
and it's you the most..
the most i really miss..
cant seem to get it back,
i reach for why,
But all i grasp in the midst ..is the feeling..
the feeling inside..that really need to get a grip..