You made so many promises that you didn't keep
You bought me this promise ring
It used to fit so perfectly.
And it used to shine, just like your promises
I find it funny now that we're finished,
This ring no longer fits.

What a funny thing.

You are the sky in skin,
Every day I wake to you,
You summoned songs from air,
Each memory a tune with you.
You are the sea in form,
Eternity becomes you.
You send joy with each whisper,
Endless is my love for you.
You are the end to my beginning,
Explain to me why you left.

Eyes
       Fluttering
                      Mind
                              Sputtering
                                               Lips
                                                     Muttering

Hands
          Shaking
                      Bones
                               Aching
                                          Heart
                                                   Breaking

Pain
      Showing
                    Tears
                            Flowing
                                        Sorrow                                                  
                                                  Growing

Nails
        Gripping
                      Skin
                            Ripping
                                        Red
                                             Dripping

Girl
      Falling
                Mother
                           Calling
                                      Life
                                           Stalling

Head
       Pounding
                      Silence
                                 Sounding
                                                Death
                                                         Grounding.



-ARI

It's this constant fear I have
That I've been doing something wrong
Since the very start
Over and over again
Not realizing it at all
I mean what can you do?
If that is the case...
Because I was happy once
In fact I was happy recently
Very very shortly
But that was taken from me
And it actually wasn't me
Not my fault at all
Until it was my fault
And then I took the blame
Now I stay quiet
With my head in my hands
Full of love and shame

i'll forgive you
if that's
what you need
but i'm begging don't go
i'm begging  *don't leave.

He said "I love you"
I said you don't love me
He looked at me like I was crazy
I told him to show me
He put his hands on me
I said "exactly".

He said "I love you"
I said you don't know me
He smiled and said you've told me
I asked him what I was thinking
He put his hands on me
I said "exactly".

don't look me in the eyes
it's pretty scary in there,
it's where i keep everything
that's not considered
''acceptable''
all the hate
and all the love
and everything
i'm too scared to say
out loud
so beware
you might find things
that you
don't wanna see

he is space
the freckles that dust his nose and cheeks
are constellations
stories untold
the dark purple that bruises
the undersides of his eyes
are areas of the night sky
that are absent of stars
yet full of hardship
his eyes glisten like galaxies
colors swirling into something
more
something big
and his smile
is the sun
that burns with brightness and warmth
and leaves you with stars in your eyes
he is endless
and he is space
and like space,
he takes your breath
away