How empty must I feel for you to get the point that I'm not just a vacation you can just visit, destroy what you want, & not clean up the mess you made?
How sad should I get for you to understand the ground you walk on is way different than walking all over a human being?
How low should I go to finally realize that pouring yourself for someone until there is nothing left isn't healthy & I should leave?
I will never learn.

As I sat on the cold, hard bathroom floor,
The tears kept rushing out of me like the sky was crying.
Hurt
Hurt
All I could feel is hurt.
Wondering what I ever did that was so bad, so wrong to deserve this.
That's when I knew, you never cared.

Brick by brick keeps staking on my chest, trying to test to see if I'll crack. The more bricks, the more heaver it gets. Now I'm drowning in a puddle I didn't even know exists.

In dreams, everything is sugar, spice, & everything nice.
But when I wake up, reality is vise.
Don't put your happiness on the price, for a person who keeps rolling the dice.

How do you heal something that doesn't want to heal?
How do you fix someone who doesn't want to be fixed?
How do you help someone that doesn't want to be helped?
How do you stop someone that doesn't want to be stopped?
How do you cry & beg & scream for it to end when you wake up in the morning & it happens all over again?

I tear my heart open, everything is so pure and raw.
"Let me see the real you" as you jumped into my bloodstream, down my veins,
trying to make my bones ache.
I tear my body open, I let you inside of me, discovering parts of myself I didn't even know existed.
This is only going to hurts little..

My mind is searching for you, while your memories are trying to find me.

Before I met you, everything was blue.
Now that you are in it, I can't see life without you.
You came along & fixed all my broken pieces.
I was a broken mess, I'm sorry I didn't mean it.
I was a disaster covered with a smile, Alot of situations I acted like a child.
I love you more than I can ever explain, please don't ever leave me, I couldn't deal with the pain.

Your touch is like honey, so sweet & so tempting.
The lower you go, it feels like a blessing.
Your soft fingers slowly dance up & down my skin, I start to wonder where all my life you have been.
I start to breath short heavy breaths, before I know it my legs start to spread.

You wanted to escape, you did sadly. You traded your soul for something so *****.
"Have fun" they said. "This one time won't hurt"
But they lied, you got addicted & almost died.

When I first met you everything was great, but then it seemed like everything was getting fake. The smiles, the laughter was all I needed, then you picked up a bad habit & I told you to beat it. I tried to pick you up in the most craziest ways, I told you you didn't need it, that things arent better this way. But you didn't listen, no, you let it take over your body. You left your soul for months, this was no hobby. I cried, I screamed, I begged you to stop.  All the long sleepless nights didn't make you want to stop.

I fell in love with someone who has a ***** past.
Some people say this type of love will never last.
Someone who's coming and going and doesn't ever stay.
If it's not one thing, it's another, & things simply just won't change.
You fight with them, disagree with them & tell them their wrong, but at the end of the day your all alone in all your thoughts, they start to sing a song.