So here it goes

When I told you that I loved you,
I meant it... and maybe I still do?
I search for you in every boy I see
And I came to an understanding of what your type could be
Light eyes with a constant smile and a positive air
The kind of guy that could hug with no care
The kind of guy you could talk to with ease
And whose words are warm and soft like breeze
And that’s the trick
The *****-trap on which you trip

Curse you and that type of yours
That blinded me for years

Curse myself and my heart for falling too easy
I should’ve gave up and not be so greedy
Maybe then I would’ve seen the imperfection of your kind
And change the course of my mind

I wish that I could thank you
But it means a conversation and... that takes two

Oh, don’t worry, I know you’re too busy to spend your time on me
A hopeless girl like me can’t talk with you, and I agree

Honestly, I get it
And I’m glad we split
‘Cause you and me... we don’t fit

Although I saw a lot of things we share the same
But maybe it was only in my eyes... ‘cause I had a flame
You were sparkless when all I wanted was to burn
You shut my brain and I thought with that I’d learn

It’s not your fault, it’s all on me
I’m to blame for keeping my dreamless fantasy
You did nothing wrong
I just shouldn’t’ve kept pushing aimlesslly this long

I guess, maybe I scared you with being too honest
Maybe I’m the reason that you broke your promise

I’m sorry I tried to hold ‘nd tie you up
I’m sorry I followed you when you wanted to break up

So, can I let go of you now?
Because s-o-m-e-h-o-w
You’re still caught up in my heart
And I keep wishing my memories could restart
So that I can pretend
That it never started, that it began with an end

So, can I forget the numbers of your phone?
Can I, please, forget that time we spent alone?
I wish I could forget your name
I wish I could forget the person I became
I wish you and I... were never friends
Because,
            why let it start, when you know it ends?

I understand that we’ve lost... whatever it was that we once had
We were, as it goes, ‘slowly but surely’, falling apart

So here it goes

Why is your heart so restless?
It beats hard beneath my fingers
Is this for the best?
In the air your question lingers
I should say yes
But I do not know
The words won´t leave my lips
While your heart keeps beating on
Underneath my fingertips

You look me in the eyes
and say you wish
It didn´t have to be like this
I reply with a kiss
We never were good at goodbyes
We move apart with care
I can hear your heart from over here
We are no good
Not together or apart
Hopelessness in the air
of love so misunderstood
The beating of your heart
Echoes were you stood

Please listen to what I have to say...
I've fallen in love with you.
I know I shouldn't have.
But what should I do?
Painful feelings are overflowing.
My chest is tightened up.

That's right...
I'm deeply in love.
A knife is plunging through my chest.
My newborn emotion can't be hidden anymore.
The more I try to hide,
The worst it gets.

The only thing I can do is.
Stay away from you,
And not let you know of
The feelings I have.

But why am I still crying deep down inside me?
I put on my fake smile.
And from the reflection of my window.
Everything becomes empty.
When you're not beside me.

I screamed,
But nothing come out
With the feeling I have for you,
Everything bottled up.

I feel lonely in a world full of people.
Yet the empty pieces of my heart
Can only be filled by you.

To be the sun and kiss your skin
To be the rain and dance round you
To be the moon and watch you dream

I long to be most anything

To be the breeze you pray will come
To be the cloud you gaze in awe

In lieu of the star in the sky
Far too dim to catch your eye

I don't understand
why we measure time

Time does not pass in a uniform action
Minutes can seem like seconds
and seconds like minutes

The amount of time we spent together seemed endless
but the amount of time it has been
since the last time we talked
seems infinite

The amount of time is not equal
to the amount of meaning
that something has

so if there is no meaning in time
why don't we measure meaning instead?

I don't understand why we measure time