A clouded mind fogged by wine,

Thoughts slower than before,

I know that I have had my fill,

Yet reach for just one more

One more, then another,

I never know when I'm done,

The monster that's been lurking,

His night has just begun.

A tale that's full of wonderment,

But one that you might like,

I went to town to buy a hat,

Yet came home with a bike.

Tomorrow calls

As midnight falls,

Darkness consumes the light,

Tomorrow's here

It's my worse fear,

I still feel far from right............

One moment, a chance,

Don't blink,

Romance

What's hidden far beneath us,

What lies there underground,

Appears at night so silently,

A silent death we've found

Lackadaisically lazy,

Freethinking state-of-mind,

Purposively pensive,

Generously kind.



Occasionally cautious,

Heavy set, a belting beard,

Despicably dizzy,

And wonderfully weird.

We celebrate the winter sun,

The darkness' died and light has won.

Taking off my clawing coat,

Letting my belt come free,

My clothes no longer seem to hide,

My pronounced belly.

When I was quite little,

I wanted to be old,

I realised as time passed by,

I was wrong, if truth  be told.

Once more I find myself alone,

Sat, over-thinking all,

For once will my poor mind just rest,

And not for thoughts will trawl,

I shall never seek perfection,

It's not something I'll attain,

For even though, As we all know,

Imperfection is a strain.

An early Easter Sunday,

I'm looking out for eggs,

I'm running round the garden on,

My tired little legs.

Do we dread death

fear dying,

Or is it something more,

Could it be life

actual living,

That scares us, I'm unsure

Tripping over nothing,

Slipping far too much,

I'm cursed with being clumsy

breaking everything I touch.

Little woolly monsters,

Dark as vampire bats,

Frightening the children,

Who else, but knitted cats

Off out to the garden,

Let's hope it doesn't rain,

Whilst I know that I am waterproof,

Getting wet is such a pain.

Who is it that's watching you,

Your phone, your files, and more,

What will they see when they look close,

Yes, every crack, and flaw.

Leech drawn,

Blood drunk,

My life,

Old junk.

The release,

Adrenaline,

Addictive,

Fuelled,

Fired,

Final.....

Too much noise,

Deafening

Sound,

Fills my head,

Whilst

Wandering round,

At times I fear,

My head

May pop,

Please make the noise,

Lessen

Then stop

I caught a cold in winter cold,

Who knows my nose was red,

When suddenly I saw a saw,

A deed indeed was bled.

To kiss the early morning sun,

The promise of a day so fun,

One that has only begun,

To share with you, the day, as one

Life, when living in a bottle,

At times can seem quite strange,

I awake, a drink I take,

Yet always hope for change.

A momentary lapse of thought,

Missed opportunity,

I miss a still and peaceful mind,

The chance to simply be happy.

I see,

I saw,

I've seen

Before.

I am,

I can,

I'm just,

A man.

I fear,

A foe,

I'll never

Iced blood, like syrup seeps out,

From self cut arms and veins,

I never thought I'd make it,

Perhaps my life, my pain

I cannot change the words I've said,

The acts or reacts too,

But simply put, my mouth my foot,

At all times I love you.

I have a busy schedule,

Yet what I never see,

Is a time for mere reflection,

A time to be just me.

I catch a mere reflection,

Of myself, in window pane,

Should I look upon such sorry sight,

I may never look again.

Do you not see,

The pain inside,

Broken wide,

The tears I've cried,



Do you not see,

The things I see,

A heart not free,

Why I can't be,



Do you not see,

The end is nigh,

I'll say goodbye,

And gladly die.

New year,

New day,

Can't cope,

Same way,

The mind,

Too strange,

Need help,

Need change

As the weekend fast approaches,

I reach my hand up high,

Raise my favourite wine glass,

Then drink my wine goodbye

Cold,

Stone,

I lie,

For now upon,

The stone,

Soon,

To be,

Beneath

I sit and look,

Indifferently engaging,

People pass by,

Mindless cadavers,

Seeking more,

Having less,

Racing to mortality.

The happiest I've ever been,

That's a day I won't forget,

I saw your smile and all the while,

On the first day that we met.

A time for much reflection,
To look back with pronounced fear,
On all the things that we regret,
Oh great, it's a New Year.

The gloom that clouds our Monday,

Cast shadows 'cross our hearts,

We toil at tasks that we despise,

Whilst our loved ones are apart.

First

mere faint lines,

Adding pressure

gradually,

Over time,

Causing skin

to redden

scratch,

Then

cut

bleed,

heal

scar.....

Eyes reddened by the liquor,

Soul blackened, lacking hope,

Amazing how in spite of this,

The World thinks he can cope.

A chequered past,

Secrets and lies,

Lack alacrity,

No real surprise

It's difficult to speak out loud,

Though I do know what to say,

Perhaps my voice will ring again,

And the fear will fall away

Fingers,

Vine twisted,

Barbed wire,

As I unfold,

Open,

A fist,

They bleed,

Feeding leaches.

It's difficult,

It's hard, I find,

The fear, that lives,

Inside my mind,

A fear of here,

Of now, of all,

Disabled by,

Fear's fateful call.

Struggling to fight each day,

Cold biting from inside,

Would the World even blink,

Had he just simply died

Please do not feed the demons

As you step inside my mind,

For their hunger is insatiable,

They'll eat any(one)thing they find.

Today it will be different,

I don't care what people say,

I'll do my best, and stuff the rest,

Goodbye to yesterday

A call to sleep,

But even though,

My eyes are shut,

To sleep, but no.

Time gentleman please he cried,

He rang last orders bell,

I should have been home hours ago,

One more then, what then hell