tu étais toi et j'étais moi

nous étions deux avant notre temps

J'étais à toi avant de savoir

et tu as toujours été à moi aussi

There is this girl,
she is beautiful.

She has short dark blonde hair,
I can notice her anywhere.

At first, we were just friends
but now it all depends

does she know my love for her
is sincere?

I am
deeply
falling
in love
with someone
who I can't have
because I am
not a man.

When I die
don't you dare
come  to my grave
and tell me
you love me

because those words
were the only thing
I would have needed
to stay.

as long as I don't talk about it , then
it never happened.

Someone asked me
"What does happiness feel like?"
and it took me a while
to answer.

then I said,
"I'm not sure but
I hope happiness feels
like what a fat kid feels
when eating cake"

What it really means is

Feeling I'm Nothing to Everyone

I'm sick and tired of hearing the same voices every day
Im tired of being the slave of this vicious cycle that repeats
day by day.
Wake up, shower, eat, do work, workout, sleep
Wake up, shower, eat, do work, workout, sleep
Wake up, shower, eat, do work, workout, sleep
Wake up, shower, eat, do work, workout, sleep

the same things every day I just want this to stop!
STOP
STOP
JUST STOP
Im tired of living this life
when will things be normal again
I AM TIRED

I opened my heart again
to this boy who I thought was different.

He knew what hurt me,
he knew what angered me,
He knew exactly what not to do

And that's exactly everything he did

Many men make declarations of love when they want to make love,

But rare is the man whose love remains true

when the consequences of ******* are brought to his attention.

"As long as I
don't lose you
I am ok"

Those words will forever
be embedded in my brain,
because you still left me
what a shame.