Midnight crashing down
We're under the streetlight,
Where is this going?

the sea breeze feels nice
sun is perfectly shining
what could go wrong today?

I'm forgetting you.
Doing my very best to.
But then you came back.

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I've changed,
I know.
I'm doing everything not to.
But it's just not effective.
How can I build myself again?

Yes, i'm aware that i'm being stupid
Yes, i'm aware that she's not gonna love me back.
Yes, i'm aware that i'm indulging myself in fantasies with her.
Yes, i'm aware that she's taking advantage of my vulnerability.

Yes, i'm aware, you don't need to tell me,
I don't care.
Because that's how I love.

I'm out of ideas
I just want to sleep forever.

Why don't we try to be that person we claim we deserve?

What if one day, you wake up, realizing how much of an idiot you are for letting someone fool you yet you're still so head-over-heels towards that person.

I'm suffering
You just don't know at all
I'm afraid to show it
You might just leave me at the hall
Finally had the courage to open up
You just left me to cope up with everything
I'm doing my best to overcome this
Because you said this is all delusions,
You told me "this is all in your head"

From that very moment, I just wanted to die
However, I saw your smile
It radiated through my lonely heart.
I was warmed, I was delighted
You became my reason to live,
My child.

The sky is full of fireworks
The road is emptied, only filled with firecrackers
The table's been ready, all the dishes were served
Everyone is about to eat
And i'm still here
Waiting.
Waiting.
And waiting.
I'm waiting for them,
Waiting for them to knock on the door,
Greet me with a smile,
Have a nice meal they prepared,
Fill the house with their presence,
Even though I know they'll never come to celebrate.

Out of 7 billion people in this world
I liked the one
I can't have.

Sitting at midnight
In front of a laptop
While wiping the tears
And weeping in silence

I looked at our photos
We were so happy before.
Before was the time that
I wanted to get over.
The past is still haunting me,
Moments of you and me,
I still cannot fathom
You being with someone else.

It was just a mere attraction
But ended up with obsession
In constant hesitation
Is this love or infatuation?
What will be the continuation
Of our love story full of contradiction?

Sunrise
Rice
Suffice
Breakfast
Held back
Emotions
Let's break up

I have no time to be sad.
There are school works,
I have to be a functioning human.

I have no time for drama.
There's too much of that in my life.
It is evident, it is rife.

I have no time for emotions or whatsoever in general
I still have a lot of things to do,
I don't want it to be affected
It only brings pain and melancholy.
I've had to much of that.

Because I am a coward and I'm afraid to be hurt,
I forgot how to feel emotions
And instead felt numbness.

I miss myself
I'm not who I was before
I'm changing
And not for the better
I feel suffocated
And tired
And anxious
And depressed
All these feelings that were repressed
How can i let this all out
When the only solution in my head
Is death?

I can't forget you
Yet I always try to
Everything just reminds me of you
The morning breeze
How the afternoon's dish tasted
And the look of the evening sky
And even If I try to pause and erase these thoughts
The flashbacks of our memories will go through endlessly
Again and again and again

The pain is there again.

My head aches
From all these thoughts
That should have been said
But I was too afraid
So I'll just let my head ache
And hope that the pain goes away

I am fire
Soft enough to warm you
Powerful enough to destroy you

Sometimes in life,
We have to accept
The incidents
That hurt us
Is meant to happen
To strengthen us
And to make us
Feel alive

Depression
is
not
deep
sadness

Depression
is
when
you
cannot
feel
anymore
because
you've
been
pained
too
much

Escaping is
Drowning yourself
with depressing music
and suicidal thoughts

Ang pagmamahal siguro'y bulag nga
Nang makita kita sayo'y nahulog agad
Ikaw ay may itsura
Mabait at palangiti pa

Ngunit sabi ng Ina'y ako ay mag-ingat
Tayo'y magka-iba, hindi raw pinagtadhana
Hindi ako naniwala
Alam kong sayo ako'y sasaya ng lubusan

Naglaro, nagtawanan
Sa mga panahong kasama ka ako'y nagagalak
Subalit dumating ang araw
Araw na magwawakas pala ang lahat

Ako'y nawasak at ikaw ang may sala
Unti-unting nabasag
Wala na akong magagawa
Tama nga ang sinabi ng ina na hind tayo para sa isa't-isa

You were once my sun and moon
You were once my day and night
You were once my sweet dreams
You were  once my reality

Now tell me,
How do I unlove you,
When you became my everything?

It just hurts so much
Because we were once each other's worlds
And now
we act like nothing happened to us.

All I needed was
Some affection
Some love
And some attention
But you failed to give me that.

How do we know, if we don't love a person anymore?
How do we know, that you're not attached to that person anymore?
How do we know, that the person might care?
How do we know, why we keep asking these questions?

We know the asnwers, but we choose to ignore.
Still stuck in the rugged past.
Hoping for a euphemised answer.
Holding on to the feelings in the past.
The memories, remain.
The people, changed.

It's been 3 years ever since we met
It didn't come to me, that i'll love you till my last breath
'Twas a major revelation for me,

Not for you.

I have to love you secretly,  
Those 3 years i've been with you
My eyes still has the same look for you
Hidden in the dungeons of my heart
My affection for you,
I have to keep it forever,
I don't want to ruin what we have.

I know you like me
And you know I like you too.
But we chose to ignore,
It's not accepted, it's not allowed.
Maybe the timing's just off,
Or maybe it's because of those judgemental people.
It's not accepted, it's not allowed. We're both the same,
This relationship is not practical.

I'm losing my passion for writing
My ideas are wilting
The feeling of being not good enough is slowly weeding
I know I need to put and end to all of these

My words aren't the same anymore
How I construct poetic lines sound mediocre than ever
Rhyming schemes is of no direction
Just like how I'm writing this poem

To tell you honestly, and to tell you the truth
I only started writing because i thought I was good.
I was wrong.
I was a fool for believing I had the talent.

Facebook gave us a new look
Addicted to reading people's lives
Forgetting that we have ours to problematize

Messenger connected us to strangers
Being indulged in chatting with them
Disremembering those people,
People that are not virtual,
People that you have to catch up to

Twitter lets it all out,
Our problems, our thoughts, our whines, our woes
But while using twitter, you overlooked those around you
Those who're willing to listen to you
Those who can actually help you

Instagram lets us share photos with our loved ones
Photos where everyone looked delighted and felicitous
Photos that are pretentious
Only on photos do they seem happy
But in real life, they're constantly neglecting,
Neglecting and taking each other for granted

Why do we let social media measure our worth?
Is it really worthy?
Is it really that worthy to be connected to those who are far from you,
While sacrificing those people you love who are near you?

I learned to appreciate myself
When you told me
I'm not good enough for you,
Well *******
I'm too good for you

Just blank.
Blank
blank
bLanK
BlaNk
That's how my mind was
Ever since you left.

Teachers always say,
"Strive for excellence, not for perfection"
"Giving your best matters the most"
"Grades do not define you"
"Studying with the mentality of passing is nothing"

Why would they say those,
If they were the ones who push us to feel;
We are to perfect
We are to be highest
We are who our grades are
We are to study to pass

Studying for passing.
Passing without learning.

You wronged me, but I didn't care

You slammed the door, but I still stayed

You shouted at me, but I still listened

You destroyed me, (because I let you) and now I got nothin' left

Honestly, I have a lot of things to do
But I chose to write this poem for you
Because, I always have my "because"
Because neither you nor me
Are fit for each other
That's why even if I love you
I always have because,
Because neither you nor me
Should be together

You said you'd never leave
So I introduced my real personality

But when you knew,
You suddenly abandoned me.

How beautiful those photographs are
It brings back the memories of the past
Whether its good or bad
Photographs will always be there to last

Looking back,
Photograps made me feel,
That people are unchanging,
Even when the person is gone,
The memory and the feelings remains unforgotten

Are vices the answer?
No.

Would it solve your problems?
No.

Would it fix yourself?
No.

Would it make your situation better?
No.

So why do you still continue?

Because it makes me forget.

I don't expect my poems to be on trending,
nor to receive praises
I just want to express
all the stress
life gave me

Love at first sight wasn't true.
UNTIL I MET YOU.

I grew out of love
or
Did I?

Or am I just convincing myself
That I don't love you anymore,
Because you hurt me too much?

Behind her smile
is a girl
who cries at night
while thinking about
killing herself

the answers to my questions?
the solutions to my problems?

YOU.
you're always the answer
*you'll always be my answer

you know you're over her
when you wake up without thinking about her
and no one replaced her either
you suddenly remember her,
and it doesn't make you feel something anymore
you go on through the day,
without having flashbacks of her smiles and laughs
and how she was so beautiful on that dress
you know you moved on
when you realize she's not worth the time anymore

my face,
full of acne and blemishes
my *******,
not as perky as you want it to be
my skin,
full of scars and not milky white
my hands,
very rough and blemished
my stomach,
looks like i'm pregnant
my legs,
have no thigh gaps, no toned legs
my feet,
callouses surrounds it

even if you tell me it doesn't matter,
it does for me
you always push me
to be the person
i'll never be