i don't need views
likes won't help me neither
sharing what I feel does
recognition is not needed
I just want someone to empathize
this is my way of reaching out
i apologize if you read my "stuff"
letting everything out makes me feel better
and this is where I feel home, in poetry

Hello poetry,
Thank you for always being there for me,
You're the one I poured my melancholy
The happiness I felt, you're the one who first knew all about it
You became my emotional punching bag,
I expressed everything in you
And thank you is not enough to express my gratitude,
But really, thank you, you're the one I leaned on
When I thought nothing's gonna go better
Thank you for never getting tired of me.

Not hot, not cold
Not pro, not con
*Are you that afraid to make a decision?

1,
Run, run fast
2,
I'm coming to you
3,
I cannot find you, where are you?
4,
Are you there?  I'm about to catch you
5,
Don't try to hide
6,
You're about to be caught
7,
I can hear you
8,
I'm near you
9,
Hah, you're dead, i told you not to hide
10,
*inaudible sounds of laughter and shouts

Those 2 words, keep writing
Made me feel so appreciated
I feel overjoyed, thanks for the support
I'll keep writing,
Until words stop flowing,
Until my eyes dry from crying
Until I feel happy
and I know that i'm very far from that
Until then, I'll keep writing.

I'll just act as if everything's going well
So that my friends will not dwell
In my problematic well
That is full of problems and is a hell
Because I know no one is willing to help
And if they discover what is wrong with me
They'll automatically run away and shrivel
So as long as I can hide my liability
Everything will go smoothly

I don't really know what i'm writing
But I know I needed an outlet,
I'm feeling down these days,
And I came to a point that dying was the best option
However, I have to fight, I needed to live
For my dreams and for my future
I still have no idea what i'm writing
But I know writing helps
It may not ease the pain
But it will slowly heal my wounds

To be honest, i'm not okay
But i'm too afraid to say
Because you might not stay

Those 3 words, "i'm not okay"
Why is it so hard to say?
Can't I just be honest,  
And expect you to stay?

Was there a night you just stared at the ceiling and cried?
Was there a time you just were too tired to fight?
Were there moments when you just wanted to die?

There'll be times that it'll be hard,
Those are the times that'll give you an illusion to give up
Be strong and hold on,
Until then you'll strive
You'll live and survive
Not happily ever after,
Not like the movies or those dramas you watch
But with your own kind of reality,
Your truest reality that will genuinely make you happy

Until then, you have to fight,
Until then, you have to strive
Until then, you have to live
Until then, you have to survive

I was your Harry.

And you were my friend, Hermione.

I liked it when people see us together

And tell us we're fit one another

When in reality,

I was just an extra in your story

I loved you secretly,

Even though reciprocating it is just a fantasy,

And so I watched you end up with my bestfriend, Ron

When I knew that should've been me.

I loved you

even when it hurts

I understood you

even when it's illogical

I helped you

even when you don't want to help yourself anymore

I always made time for you

even though you cannot commit to me

And I grew tired of it

even when I don't want to

Don't worry, I'm now leaving you

because I never felt your love and affection

I am tired of being a martyr

I loved you, but I am so freaking tired of your excuses

It'll hurt a lot

*but I'll move one and find one to replace you soon

Each day
I strive
To live
And to survive
This cruel world that
I was forced to breathe in to

I'll never break your heart
I'll always be by your side
Just trust me, just give me your heart
Just give me your all, and I'll guve you mine

They say that promises are meant to be broken
But no, i'll never break mine
I'll keep what I said so just stay by my side

I am now ready,
Prepared to fight
Willing to sacrifice my life
Just to protect you, my love

Don't feel sorry,
It was my fault
I loved you,
Knowing you don't feel the same way

As I walked the path,
The memories flashbacked,
Moments of you and me, us and them
Times when we were still liberated and young
Reminiscing all of them,
Ahh, I miss my youth
Those days were now gone

We love each other but what can we do?
Look at those gestures,
Those smiles,
Those eyes,
How would you know that I love you too,
If i'm too scared to tell you to?

You can't be mine,
Neither can I be yours
And all I could do
Is write poems about you

You confessed to me
That was the most beautiful thing
I've ever heard and seen

And so I cried for you,
When you never cried for me
And I fought for you,
When you never fought for me
And now, I am leaving you
Because you never stayed with me

You were once my sunshine
Shines through my face
Hiding all those disgrace
With your innocent looking face

I am in sorrow
In the middle of grieving
The tears are constanly flowing
My heart is sinking

My brain lost its function
Internal organs? I cleary lost thought
How can this be?
Why didn't you choose me?

I'm losing the will to live
It's better to die
You are mt oxygen, my soul
It's better to die if you decline me

Too afraid to admit
I am a coward and this is cowardice
Became a prisoner of overthinking
Trying to escape this cell that i've lived in

Your love
It makes me drunk
I feel so intoxicated
Please stop

Staring at the ceiling
Thinking about you, smiling
Constantly laughing
At the image of you, my heart is racing

Trying to close my eyes
Maybe, I can forget you, even just for once
Holding on to what I can see
And **** it, you're the only one I can see

Gasping for breath
Mesmerized by your beauty
The sun shines upon you
And how can it be, the moon too?

How can I close my eyes?
I don't want to unsee this beauty
It may be enigmatical
But I love you and I can't sleep

You smile, and my whole world falls apart
You laugh, and my knees began to tremble
You make my heart shake, you make my brain vague
It is you who ruins my system

They shouted "arithmetic sequence is troublesome"
And I uttered "it is not"
Just memorize the formula
And you'll get everything right

It is not complicated as it looks
Don't be intimidated by the formula an-a1+(n-1)d
Never let the look if it deceive you
Or you'll end up being *******

Wasn't able to comprehend at first
It'll always be hard at first
But as we enhance iur skill
Just like the sequence, our mistakes will shrink

Allot your time and effort
Even when your brain will distort
The day will come when it'll be easy
You'll be great at it, trust me

No one knew
No one noticed
That I was lonely
And I was unhappy

The end is now near
It'll now reach the last part of it's suffering
And so I'll be free
And so i'll be happy

Can't bear the feeling
Won't know if it's healing
The stars are dimming
The sun is blinding

And if this is really the end
I'm going to be apart
Once a part of the world is now part of the dusts
My soul will be sprinkled on the husks