Lost my way, Lost my life
Lost the girl
I think about at night
There's nothing for me to say
Baby, I should have never
let you walk away
I'm hurting like never before
There are no words to describe
what I feel anymore

I'm struggling
to keep my heart running
I'm struggling
To give everything
Because either way, I'll never win

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Poured my hear, my soul
into everything I did for you
Shattered every piece of love
I had for you
I remember back to when
you screamed my name
and when I heard you say it passionately
yeah those memories are still killing me

my broken heart lies beating
on the floor
Not sure I can keep ripping pictures
off the wall
And I'm all out of options
Can't talk at all
Can't see anything in you
no more
Oh babe is the love you had for me
all gone

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

I'm still in love with you
I think about you every day
it hurts so bad every time
you look my way
I will never forget the past memories
I will never forget the words you said to me
the sweetness of your voice
the heart that left me with no choice
but to let you into my life
baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

Oh my heart
still skips a beat for you
oh my love
still burns for you
so caught up in what we had
feeling there's nothing left
just makes me sad
can't stand to think
we've lost everything we had
Baby, I'm afraid
I can never let you go
You're my angel, you're my life
the light that still burns bright
and I can't stand to see you go
so ill do what it takes to fight for you

I won't leave until you're gone
because my heat can't stand
saying goodbyes anymore
And I won't disappear
until you look away
Because I can't bear to see the tears
stream down your face
there is nobody left
to break me free
baby, there is nothing left
inside of me
The feeling
that burnt deep inside
must have left me
when you left my life

The sweetness of your voice
The heart that left me with no choice
but to let you in my life
Baby, I'm hooked on you
There's nothing that can
pull me away from you
I will still give you my heart
until death do us part

©2018 Written By Benji James

You've crossed that line
for the final time
try to keep my head held high
but you're dragging me down
I know it's apart of life
But it doesn't mean
I don't stand up for my rights
Everyones singing about there haters
But I'm not sure anybody reads
What I write onto this paper

I don't think anyone can even
stand my voice
but what I put into my songs
is one hundred percent emotion
it's not easy telling stories about me
people think you're a poet
But I can guarantee
Just about everything I say
it's the truth
Don't need to live a double life
to make this reach you

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Cruising through the streets
in my Hyundai
Trying to figure out the next line
I want to make this the best rhyme
As you hang on these words
When I sing to you
You're still standing there
Trying to discover the truth
What is he saying
What does he mean
Is this really the way his feeling

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

See so much confusion
when I look at the crowd
But when I sing the melody
They scream my name out loud
Still can't figure out
where to go from here
everything drowns out
trying to be sincere
Can't stop pretending
that I don't care
Can't stop procrastinating
This time will be the last time
I share my air
When my lungs
are struggling to keep on running

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

When everything felt
like it was starting to go right
The world backed out
and left me in the sand to die
Hey, I said I'm going to okay
Don't go looking at me that way
I don't give a ****,
You don't need to say
It's going to be alright
There are plenty of fish in the sea
I can't let this emotion go to waste
I can't let her go
I can't watch her walk away
Yeah you can look me in the eyeball
tell me everything will be alright
Well I've got news for you
I was already dead
Never really knew the cost
Oh no there goes my soul
Lost the last part of dignity
Got nothing left to show

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

Guess this is all an illusion
Time to stop me from choosing
the path I'm going to be walking
Death or life, Better think twice
It's a big decision
I must have kept on forgetting
the drive that kept me going
for all of this time
I wonder if she ever looked back on her life
And felt something was missing
Did you realise that I'm not there
keeping you comfortable?
Yeah it's alright
There is no need to keep on fighting
Temptation get on the plane
Do another show, pretend I'm not alone
This is life, Don't want to grow old on my own
Should embrace it
Not sure if I'll even make it past thirty
It'll be a miracle if it wasn't real
but from I can see its crystal clear
I wasn't supposed to make it here

Nobody's going to save you
From who you are
You have to keep on moving
Or this world will get to you
So baby keep on moving on and on

©2018 Written By Benji James

It starts with
A cup of coffee
And a cigarette
Turn on the T.V.
To see the news
You gotta start work
in an hour or two
Remember back to
childhood memories
Back when you had
no enemies
the world was your whole playground
You dreamt things
that no one could
even think about

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

Now as I look, around
society has changed
Nothing is ever going
to be the same
People constantly changing
Calling names, Hurting, Judging
Tunes keep changing
Money goes
You're getting older
And everyone knows
You'll never be
who you used to be
The young, innocent and sweet.

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

You gave so much
Abd tried so hard
to make your life
a real big part
of the master plan
but nothing ever
goes your way
You're losing yourself
everyday
You live, You die
You fail, You try
You laugh, You Cry
You've been right
You've been wrong
But you never let go
of all those happy times
You're just thankful
You're still alive

Life just can't get better
Words can't be words
Without the letters
Just give it a minute or two
Just think
Let it sink through

©2018 Written By Benji James

Stop breaking my heart
(Benji) Uh huh (Yeah)
Baby, you better stop playing with my heart
I'm tired of trying to play this part
I want you so bad
At the same time, I hate you.
Hate how you're playing these games
But I am so addicted to this pain
I love you, then I don't
Sometimes I think of letting you go
But I'm so caught up
In all that you are
I can't give up
Not sure...if this is love
or lust.
All I know is,
I love all the feelings
You're giving me
But you hardly even notice me
So I'm trying to get your attention
with all my affection
And it's essential
You and I have so much potential...Baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Baby, I can't mend this heart
so please don't break it
at least try to let me down gently
Because all I can do is think of you
and how there is no replacing what you mean to me
And the earth is spinning slowly
my mind can't comprehend leaving you
And I can't pretend I ain't in love with you
because it just isn't working
I'm not working for you either baby.

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Look me in the eye
tell me why, oh why
don't you want me in your life?
Is it because I am unattractive,  girl?
Is it because there are better people
in your world
I could treat you so good
But if it's because I'm not pleasing to the eye
If I got plastic surgery would you change your mind?
Although who am I kidding, you're so not worth it
But at the same time, I need you by my side
And I can't get you out of my head
And oh dear god...I wish you never left
Because I can't bear to see my heart break again
And I can't bear seeing you be played by all these men

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

Oh baby don't break my heart
Let's run this back to the start
Because I want you in my life
Babe, I can picture you as my wife
I'm tired of fighting
There is no more room for crying and lying
Let me in, Give me a chance to prove
That I can be your man
So I can prove I mean every word,
I've said to you baby
Baby stop hating on me, Let me in
Baby lets lay down out guns
Let's take a moment
we can become one
Let's work it out
I've come too far
to give up on you now
and you're irreplaceable honey
oh so don't break my heart
be my shining star

I'm walking down a road
(I'll never win)
Fighting for somebody that
couldn't care less about me
It ain't fair, but I guess that's me
cursed to never have the ones
I love the most
Just so I can put all this pain
into words.
And I'm holding back my tears
As I try to tame all my fears
of losing you.

©2018 Written By Benji James

Late night sneak outs
******* makeout
Parties, drinking
Speaking without thinking
To young to even give a ****

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Mascara's running down
your cheeks
Tears start gushing
I'll come running
Your saviour in armour
I'll make it all go away

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

Lovers, friendships
Aren't easily formed
But you and me
have an unbreakable bond

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

It's so hard to look away
When you are watching me
Your new dress
Has me intrigued
And your hair
swaying gently in the wind

Please baby
Take this heart
Break it in half
and we will
never be apart

©2018 Written By Benji James

He's lurking in the shadows
with bloodshot eyes
A smell of bicardi and wine
I'll put down the knife
When these images
Stop playing on my mind

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

You don't know
What the hell I've seen
And you ain't been
To the places, I've seen
You ain't heard the screams
You ain't see it every night in your dreams
The violence, the anger
Blood is running down these curbs
Insanity in motion please observe

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

Let me paint a picture, clear
Place my voice inside of your ear
Hear the whispers that I call
For what you thought you know
You never knew at all
And there are voices carries within the winds
And demons have been asked to spread their wings
Eerie vibes are running down your spine
You try to dissect the world line by line

No, no I'm not afraid to die
I'm on the road to hell
But I don't care, OH!
Smoke another cigarette
And kiss your lips
Back to the room
And it's time for *** OH!
This is my escape
This is how I deal
To make believe these issues aren't real, OH!

©2018 Written By Benji James

Got high on drugs
Drunk on the bub
Depression was a test
A man left for dead
I didn't think I would
Get back up again

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

Was left in debt
A bankrupt man
People saying he's crazy
How could he make it
Back to his feet again
the road was long
and the climb was steep
I was determined
To make it to my feet

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

Girls gave me hell
Never good enough for them
They wanted everything
but me in the end
Thank god I didn't marry
Thank god I didn't stray
But I lost my stride
the fall had broken my pride

Take a look
I am still here
I am still living
With all, I've been through
You bet it was a mission
But I've cleaned up
straightened out my life
Never could have made it
Without you in my life

I am still here
And I am still living
The scars dig deep
But I'm still breathing
I am still here
And I am still living

©2018 Written By Benji James