"plushies" poems
I used to read
I used to write
Songs,
Stories,
Poetry.
I used to knit
I used to sew
Plushies,
Scarfs,
Roses.
What happened to the days
Where I found enjoyment from the little things?
Why is it now
That what I once loved
Feels like a chore
That tires me,
Bores me,
Makes me contemplate everything.
What happened to my carefree childhood
Where nothing mattered
Other than when I could write
Songs,
Stories,
Poetry?
When I uses to knit and sew
Plushies,
Scarfs,
Roses?
What happened?
And why?
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 5:51 AM UTC
"Alright, I've had enough of this."
"Yeah, what are we doing looking at drawings of plushies of Pokémon anyway?"
"I guess that's just go the Internet rolls; you just keep going off on tangents, forever."
Jul 8, 2013
Jul 8, 2013 at 9:01 PM UTC
fun and games
and bright lights on strings
stuffed plushies & autumn leaves
and kindness from every
person i see
until
you remove the carnival glass
and im seen for what i am
and the carnival goers
in all their own carnival masks
do not understand
ive spoken my truth
so they pack up the stands
pile bright costumes
into dark vans
and i find myself left
with an empty field
of cold air
Oct 9, 2019
Oct 9, 2019 at 1:02 AM UTC
10:39:47
She should be married by now
I watched
The black hand on the white basel
tick on, reflecting my poker face
with the Patek Phillipe logo
10:41:35
Numb. Pain. Pain or numb?
It should be me, she was the one
I had her, she was mine
She likes tomato juice, miniatures
Black Louboutins in size 4 and a half
Tatler, oreo cheese Dairy Queen blizzard
Mint tea, kebab and omakase
10:42:23
Dance. Pole or Burlesque?
body rock hard, eyes on me
It should be me, down the aisle
Her lips always red, her eyes
curl up when she smiles
cat eye, plushies, flowers on fields
Books, panels, her wit sharp as knife
10:44:45
She should be walking out of church
Eyes stared at the door
I had no blue in Tiffany, red in Cartier
Blood on my hands, pyramid top
No time for her, I made it all for her
So she left me in the middle
Of an Hermes store
10:45:13
I saw her, white dress smiling
She didn't look at him
the way she looked at me
10 years ago, today, 10:45
First time I saw her, in a red dress
I opened the car door.
I crumpled my Loro Piana in the rain
10:46:34
I grabbed her, her mother screamed
Her best friend laughed, her dad sighed
The man reached for me,
I am not letting go
Feb 5, 2018
Feb 5, 2018 at 10:10 AM UTC
Why do I have to go through this?
When will the chattering ever stop?
Am I capable enough to follow my dreams?
I wonder as I turn the doorknob.
Every cell in my body was hated
by every cell in yours
I was only a child
Would you rather suffocate me in drawers?
What do you even benefit from it?
Being happy in front of others
But spit hateful words without people knowing
Oh what a hypocritical pretender
It’s like being
Chained up
Whipped up
Getting all messed up
Or like the cool cyan water
Being ferociously consumed by
the swift fiery orange
Rushing through like the high tide Seine delta
But Plushies,
Blankies and
Aromatherapy
Radiate through every inch of my body,
Experiencing tranquillity
Faintly hearing...
“Are you alright love?”
“I was afraid you would.”
“I’m glad that you’re okay!”
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 9:59 AM UTC
i came across this post today—
it asked me if i wondered
what would be the best place to leave my heart—
even if it's bits and pieces, like shells in the sand.
made a list for my own peace,
but here to share it, if you seek to leave a piece
of your own:
the sea, people claim, carries the tranquil
and provides the cool;
the empty temples and churches,
where your heart prays and reluctantly admits;
graveyards at night,
protected by those who left their own behind.
libraries and dusty old bookstores,
in between the pages and caskets of the used shores.
sun-dappled shades of yellow, green, and orange—
once settled, the purples and pinks of the similar hues.
gardens of thorns and flowers,
the sleeves of your last lover;
knots of the willow trees,
in winter blues and heated blooms,
risky texts during the night,
with strangers i met online,
in midst of late monsoon showers,
not to miss out the midnight hours.
a few bits i leave
in the misty mornings of the early summer,
the drenched evenings of the spring shimmer.
the company of my closest companions—
in the fur of a cat,
the nip of a bunny,
the smile of a pup,
sometimes in a sunset,
in the lush green of the forests,
often in the foil of the autumn trees.
mostly on my bed,
in my tear-filled, forsaken pillow,
and against the one i sleep so dearly.
plushies and teddies,
keepsakes of childhood memories.
with all those i've met so far,
and cookie crumbles at the footstep of my life—
for those who are welcome
and those who are not.
i have left, and leave, a lot more pieces.
i wonder if my heart is a cake-a-piece.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 10:02 AM UTC
Calico sits against this bone carved seat
Two black ears a brown patch next to the left
And
A pink nose
Obsidian stitched whiskers held high
A pink fox hides under this crypt
An adorable trade in
Heart skips
Content with this deal
End pieces smile in glee
It's not so bad having two plushies
Apr 10, 2019
Apr 10, 2019 at 11:45 PM UTC
in shiny black shoes,
with tiny knee highs
things were different,
life was simple
people were scary
my friends,
my interests
were imaginary.
four little walls
sealed with a door
whispers and giggles
stuffed plushies
strewn along the floor.
looking you in the eye
struck me with fear
raising your tone
twisting your face
into disgust
disappointment
or simply blind rage
made me want to melt
deep
into the contents of the floor.
when I grew older
I felt I was stronger,
the will to cry
when I looked into your eyes
was suppressed much longer.
my friends,
once imaginary,
started having faces
going by names
like Susan
or Gary.
the little flower
still waiting to bud
began to bloom
to blossom
to develop new fears
from choosing
the right spot
on the
big
blue
rug,
to rejection
in my high school years.
now
here I rest,
in a dormitory bed
short, velvet hair
spread across the pillows
night after night
snuggled close
to my plushies
picked up from the old
floor.
nightmares,
night terrors
panic attacks
low-self esteem.
a smile on the outside
isn't as it seems.
I may grow older
may shut off my
emotions,
grow colder,
seem stronger,
the strength not to cry
lasts longer,
I still am that little girl,
that moonchild
sitting
waiting
eager to burst through.
ready to expose
my weaknesses
like moonlight
upon the river.
Mar 21, 2021
Mar 21, 2021 at 11:30 AM UTC