"disolve" poems
As I flit from A to B - Candleford to Larkrise
Laurieston to Gatehouse of Fleet
I flit, spit from A to B
Calling all Bluebells
assist me in my move -11th May, '11
Let Fairy Fawn be fair and true
and pure with humility
For his Fairy Lu - La Fee Lu
could get so blue
if he is not on time
All praises Bluebells
He is here
T'was but a year since
I'd wished upon a
Castramond Bluebell
in April 2010
And now we sit in utter Bliss
Ensonced in historical Dunblane
Fairy Fawn paints on and on
And I just sit, dismiss
All negativity, anything dark
I know that light will disperse the unhelpful hearse
darkness, death and dour ways
Disolve in the sun this late spring morn
Let Bees Browse among the Heather Blooms
Like love now maturing from twenty-eight days to a year and day
4th of the 4th 2012
May 5, 2012
May 5, 2012 at 6:17 AM UTC
Soon
my weekend will never end
my night will never disolve
my party will never curtail
but for now I dream
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 7:05 AM UTC
As I lay down in the soaked grass,
The mud squishing into every crevice and nook,
I imagine myself melting.
Like leftover snow in early spring,
When the first showers come and erase the remains of winter.
I am the winter.
The rain dissolves me with every drop,
Until I am nothing but an element
Absorbed by the earth.
And the world forgets I was ever here...
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 9:09 PM UTC
Inhale and hold it in.
You don't want to be called a *****
Even by your closest friend.
Exhale and let everything around you disolve.
There are no worries at this point.
There is nothing to think about.
Only the thoughts of what you have just done.
They start to sink in
And your thoughts come at you like never before.
The walls around you have only disolved, as the walls of your thoughts build up 10x as strong.
Tring to break through them only acts as a self distruct.
So you hit the button,
Once
Twice
More times than you thought was possible.
Especially after saying you wouldn't hit it after the first.
Running away is hopeless, as you end up where you left
Like many others.
You are not like them.
The ones who are lost in thier own loop.
Learn from thier mistakes.
Gulp, gulp, gulp...
Onto something new we see.
A different country, a different coulture.
Swallow and discover the opposite.
There are no worries.
There are no thoughts.
There is nothing at all.
The only thing that sinks is the liquid inside your empty stomach.
The walls are blured
And your perception on reality is fuzzed.
Like a kid in a bouncy castle,
you don't want to leave.
The echoing sound of your parents escorts you out though.
You follow them home
And before you lay into slumber
They remind you of school in the morning.
Jun 28, 2013
Jun 28, 2013 at 10:03 PM UTC
every Monday morning
I think about your smile
i let the world disolve around me
and daydream for awhile
on Tuesday afternoons
I like to linger on your laugh
I close my eyes a moment
and let the memories take me back
on Friday nights
I sit quietly and stare
my body at the bar with friends
my mind running fingers through your hair
and every other moment
my conscious minds awake
my heart whispers out your name
the only sound my heart can make
Mar 4, 2016
Mar 4, 2016 at 11:25 PM UTC
this desire to consume you
to disolve your very blood cells into mine
we become
temporary
come
become
separate
cells
divide
subside
solidify
sigh
sublime
sweat
slides
Jun 19, 2012
Jun 19, 2012 at 4:39 AM UTC
Why does death elude me
does it no longer hunt me like a lion to it's pray
the sweet sleep is so far away, outside of grasp.
The overwhelming feeling f reponsability impedes my plan
and my mind feverishly attempts to find a way to disolve the promise
and responsabilities owed.
To decide the way to face death is another decision
should it be peacful and fade into a quiet slumber
should it be quick and one painful
I find myself lacking the courage to take that final step, to pull that triger or take that extra pill
I ate my life and the constant strugle
I hurt everyone I know and can't keep the one's I love
I lose them to death and to my inabiltiy to look outside my of me
There is nothing to ook foreward to nothing that will change my life for the better
So I continue with my prayers to be taken from this turmoil and grief to stop hurting others in my life with one last pain and loss, the loss of me
Oct 13, 2012
Oct 13, 2012 at 3:12 PM UTC
To the sound of your strings i fade and disintegrate
To the touch of your keys i disolve and evaporate
I merge into the wild tone of my incarnation
Liberating myself from the lost echo of my incarceration
Your dark notes nurture my sole existence
Because
Light corrupt the night in the realm of my subsistence
Words Of Harfouchism
Apr 8, 2017
Apr 8, 2017 at 2:20 PM UTC
The bruises, the thoughts and the feelings:
I can't explain.
The reasons:
your fingers through my shirt
beneath my skin,
inside my brain
wrapped around my mind.
The thought of not seeing you,
the sights that appeal to you,
all the things that disolve in you.
A bubble bath:
you and a stranger
both your hands
under water:
Something soft:
you're after,
nothing new
just skin.
Jan 14, 2011
Jan 14, 2011 at 8:28 AM UTC
I still feel you,
You're tattooed in my soul
I'd still bleed for you,
Pull me up from this hole
Your touch lies just beyond my fingers
I till walk the rooms, where your scent doth linger
Remnants of a time that's gone away
The wildflowers have withered at the doorstep of decay
The photographs are driving me insane
Tears catch in my throat as the frame,
Shatters,
Under my fist, the blood on my knuckles
Brings me laughter
You, the master crafter of my lifes biggest disaster
You were the love of my life,
Burned down to nothing but ashes to scatter
I still hold you in my dreams, but in deaths eyes my pain
Does not matter..
I'll be with you soon, and we can dance,
Out to the moon in a dead lovers wonderland
As this razor glides across my veins
I'll pass through those blackened gates
And hold you in eternal rain
I'm coming back love, today's the day
I feel the rain, disolve the pain,
The pain, the pain,
The pain has gone away
Nov 8, 2013
Nov 8, 2013 at 12:13 PM UTC
the world today...i'm not happy to say
is an ugly place.....unlike back in the day
she's mad at us
with reason to be....if we dont save our seas
and stop killing the trees
there will be nothing left....except the dirt and the weeds
we destroy our resources
like they are here forever
we shrug our shoulders as to say..whatever
we as mankind certainly no better
turn down your heat...and put on a sweater
do you know where your waste oil goes
i know you don't care...it already shows
petroleum products..come from the ground
you can't put them back...once they been found
tons of garbage...every week
it leaves your sidewalk in a can
do you even care....where it lands
the trash you throw..from your car to the ground
it doesn't disolve...it's always around
i dug up a beer can from 1970
it inspires this poem
without negativity
does this not ..prove my point
the garbage we make
is here to stay
including the mcdonalds we throw away........
Apr 25, 2013
Apr 25, 2013 at 10:12 PM UTC
That first night
You didn't touch me
You didn't kiss me
I thought you couldn't care less
Then you touched my waist
And kissed my lips
And I couldn't help
But come back for more
To be yours
Wasn't what I intended
To feel so alone without you
Was never the plan
You were supposed to be
A passing thought
A stitch for my broken heart
The kind that disolve
When no longer needed
How did you catch me
Like a mouse in a trap
I am small and weak
And you are all too enticing
Now I'm terrified
Losing my mind
Because I'm too familiar
With what happens
When my heart shows its passions
Baby please
Don't hurt me
I don't think I could take
Another fall
Not from a height so tall
Don't prove me
And my tragic mind right
I want nothing more
Than to see that famous light
The one that people are drawn to
The one that I thought I saw
But ended up being another
Deep dark black hole after all
I don't want to be so stupid
As to be hopeful again
But i can't help praying
This dream doesn't end
So baby
Don't hurt me
I'm much more fragile
Than I seem
Prone to bruising
And scarring
I might as well
Start tying my own noose
Because I know the truth
Of what is to come
But knowing won't make it
Hurt any less than I expect
Im begging you
Please
Don't drop me from
Your precious mind
Don't make me
Take my hands
And lose them in
My hair
Just keep me close
Pretend to care
When I cry
At least tell me
Things will be alright
I'm in over my head
But that's nothing new
And I should have known
Not to get too close to you
But here we are
And I need you to see
That I've accidentally
Given you the power
To **** me
Be mindful of your strength
And the way which words
Roll off your tongue
Because I'll take every one
As a sign of what is to come
Be gentle with me
Handle with care
Because I have a habit
Of caring too much
And I'm trying not to
I swear
I'm trying not to let you
And your beautiful face
Affect me so deeply
To strike me so true
But I'll pick up
On the tiny ways
Your voice will change
When you decide
I'm too much
And you've had enough
Don't hurt me
The way I imagine you will
I know you can see
The terror in me
So do your best
To **** me with ease
Make it fast
Make it painless
Make me want it
Do something so despicable
That I **** you instead
**** us
I know you won't
But I can only dream
It's the only way
To lessen the inevitable pain
Otherwise
Just hold me
Tight so I feel safe
Close so I can hear your heart
Hopefully it wants me
Just as mine wants to stay alive
Aug 8, 2016
Aug 8, 2016 at 12:41 AM UTC
home is a place,
where the walls don't smell
of regret,
or extintion,
or torment,
or hell.
home is a place,
where the doors revolve,
ambitions stroll in,
while fears disolve.
home is a place,
where the blankets are soft,
a one story house,
with the roof torn off.
home is a place,
where dreams proceed
to have no limit,
no unreachable deed.
home is a place,
built on hope and faith,
heated by love,
and secured by strength.
home is a place,
which will never break,
because the Lord is my savior
and he guides the way.
Jun 22, 2010
Jun 22, 2010 at 2:13 PM UTC
One I adore,
You must know the truth,
I am tethered to you.
Many nights I slept like a woman
Awaiting execution at dawn,
I wondered if you'd stay my execution,
waiting for the wall phone to ring,
And my pardon to arrive.
To know that you felt alone, neglected,
This was never my intention,
If you feel all alone in my prescence
I'd rather disolve like a salt pillar
In a torrential rain,
Than take the chance of hurting you again.
But if you are alone in my abscence,
Then I know, for certain, you love me,
And forgiveness, and acceptance,
Will come in time. For, I love you.
Aug 13, 2012
Aug 13, 2012 at 12:49 PM UTC
I'm getting weaker by the hour
And the passage of time
Speeds faster and faster.
I built walls in my mind
To keep my worries
And sorrows confined.
Now they're falling down,
My fear is overflowing,
And I can't find solid ground.
Stop telling me what helped you,
Stop telling me what I should do,
Because you don't know the depth of this flood.
Stop telling me it's easy to find land
Because you can make your own sand.
I can't and I don't think I ever will.
For just one second
Please listen to me when I say
That I can't ******* breathe.
Telling me there's air all around
Will not force it into my lungs
And bring me back from the brink of death.
And when I say
I'm terrified,
It's not an invitation
For a lesson in bravery.
When I say I'm scared
It's not because I don't understand
Everything that's going on.
I understand just fine.
But understanding that the sun shines
Is not what makes it rise.
Stop telling me things
That I already know.
Stop telling me things
That are of no use.
And stop making my pain
About you.
I'm not as stupid
As you might think.
But being filled with knowledge
Doesn't mean I won't sink.
I'm not as blind
As you may believe.
You keep telling me to open my eyes
But I already see just fine
And clarity of vision
Is the last thing I need.
I'm on the edge,
And I know you know
What that means.
So for the love of all that is holy
Stop pushing me.
You might think I can fly
But I already know I can't.
You might say
That you'll catch me.
But the arms of another
Are not what I need.
So next time you see tears in my eyes,
And it won't be far off,
Don't speak.
Don't preach.
Just listen
And hold me.
You don't know me
Like you think you do.
And I'm sure if you did,
You wouldn't want to.
I'm fragile and dark
Like a tree that's been burned.
I'm not the blooming flower
That I pretend to be.
And you would know that by now
If you were silent
And let me speak.
I've been quiet my whole life
And maybe that's part of the reason
I'm constantly overwhelmed.
I have so much to say
And no one to listen.
No one to open their ears
And hear me scream.
My screams have always been inward,
Echoing inside me.
If I could just let them out
Maybe they would stop killing me.
It's so loud inside my head
That most of the time
I wish I was dead.
But if I could take that volume
And let it disolve into the air,
Maybe I could sleep soundly
And stop running in my dreams.
So if you really want to help
And if you really care,
Please stop rambling about things
That won't bring my empty lungs air.
Jul 14, 2016
Jul 14, 2016 at 2:24 AM UTC
In pace with our various disciplines
We walk over cracking tile
Pretending it is
just more ice...
Black bees angle for the sharp taste
Of esoteric flowers, their honey
Pungent...
As the smell of
midnight
Reading from borrowers
Their books bought
And paid for
I make my
Own
Analysis
And look no longer
For my forgotten
Dream.
Solaces from memory of things
Done badly, the light pierces
Down... silver light laces
The green.
The heart repairs itself
And then is fractured
Once again. ..
By looking
Too long
At the
Moon.
Towers of stone grow over living flesh
But then disolve in rot...
Never to mark
its
passing
.
.
.
Soul Survivor
2002
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 3:54 PM UTC
Here is a plant that could cut your thumb
From a strange frond does it become
With its pieces cut fresh
It can disolve your flesh
We'll give it to you as a sign of welcome
Dec 2, 2017
Dec 2, 2017 at 12:11 AM UTC
When its darker,
My heart fills with dread.
I feel safe surrounded by beautiful reflections, illuminating my world.
In the flick of a switch they disolve into inky black and Like a cat poised to attack,
It waits.
Round every corner, behind every door.
The floor creaks as i creep through the night.
I know theres no danger in the lack of light,
I'm safe.
Its not physical, the threat that waits.
Its something that cant be described,
my fears personified.
Staring at me through the dark night
Right into my blinded eyes.
No longer distracted by vision, my pain surrounds me.
Awake.
The things i didnt do.
The things i havent said.
The frantic face of sadness, desperate and cold.
I can't see it, but its formless gaze haunts my dreams.
I can feel its breath on my neck.
When its darker.
Dec 27, 2017
Dec 27, 2017 at 7:49 PM UTC
Just give in,
let it go
surrender it all
you know, it's too heavy anyways
your arms will break
and your back with ache
in time,
it will swallow you whole
So just open your,
stubborn, clenched fists
lost and rotting
recover your heart
dust it off and give it a shine
because the day's too long
for weeping
and screaming
and this will all be over soon,
it will be quick and painless
Just be free
turn your ***** twisted face
to the sun and to the sky
and smile, because it's been too long
but I know your face,
hasn't forgotten how,
the wind and rain,
will wash it clean
and push you forward,
let the forces guide you home
it won't be long now
Doesn't feel good, girl?
to give it all up
to stop fighting and lay
your guns down
on the filthy sodden ground
let them disolve
into the mud,
into nothingness
you won't need them anymore.
Apr 17, 2014
Apr 17, 2014 at 10:32 AM UTC
I got up,
at five ninteen,
the day was mean,
it was wet,
the puddles had
puddles,
I was befuddled,
if it was worth the walk,
then I looked down at my
feet, and she looked up at
me, and I could see, she
did not care for rain,
but staying home
was insane,
and would not do,
she had to do number one
and number two,
boots,
with hooded jacket,
umbrella,
leash,
me in my hat,
her in her reflective vest,
out we went to test,
not only our resolve,
but with water,
did we disolve,
the pace was quick,
the rain was wet,
so was the road,
make me croak,
call me toad,
as we went past the
hospital, three
paramedics walk quick
to the senior mental
health unit,
it was not unique,
I had seen that before,
looked at the door,
nothing to be seen,
walked on until,
I heard a yell, like a scream,
turned over my shoulder,
what did I spy,
an older guy,
barefeet, hospital pants,
no shirt to speak of,
doing an angry dance,
pointing in my direction,
I turned and walked away,
muttering, I was heard
to say,
"where are those hospital
staff, when you need them"
rounded the corner with haste,
if he chased after me and
we came face to face,
I wandered through the scenarios,
as I did frequent shoulder,
like passing traffic in a car you know,
but he was a no show,
so this was not
what in could have been, it was an unevent,
kept my morning wet and pristine,
and the tip of my umbrella,
would only stay, water wet.
Apr 17, 2014
Apr 17, 2014 at 11:45 PM UTC
I want to strip you down remove all your clothes your skin your flesh your bones strip you down until
I get to the splendor of your soul
I want to fall down to my knees and pray for just a little tease a little sin a little love a little taste of your wonderful
I want to tumble through your naked dreams and find you under a blanket of lustfull night riding stars over sheets of magic bliss coming towards me to deliver me my wish where
we would explode against the sky
and I would disolve into the love found in the splendor of your soul
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 10:31 AM UTC
He was shaking and trembling
As he leaned and kissed me
He was shaking and trembling
As he got on one knee
He pulled out this paper
He wrote a whole speach
What was I hearing
From this love ******* leach
He said I was the one
He wanted to spend his life with
But I don't believe in fairytales
And this monogomy myth
You only think you love me
Because I'm so honest with you
And my honesty will never change
Just like I'll never be true
Please don't try to fix us
When there's nothing here to solve
Don't taint us with your ********
Don't let my loveless bliss disolve
I'm just keepin it real
I want more than just you
Trust this is better
I want you to see others too
As long as you can handle it
You'll stay thee man of my life
And you can always come home
After her at thee end of the night
Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 8:56 PM UTC
i ask the lips, why are you crying?
'I lost my colour, i lost my flame,
i lost my longing'.
The eye says:
'I lost the inward tenderness,
fade the light around me'
and the ear,
'i don't hear harmonies
but lamentations and screams'.
And the heart whispers:
'Finally the breeze
will continiue to lightly caresses
the night sky
and the clouds will disolve.
Pain itself
will crack the rock
and let the soul emerge'.
Nov 1, 2019
Nov 1, 2019 at 5:09 AM UTC