I looked to you for hope.
For inspiration.
For love.

But all I saw was an empty reflection.

And I looked to my friends for sanity.
For saving.
I looked to them to help pull me out of this rut.

But all I saw was a party, and I wasn't invited.

I looked to my mother for guidance.
For information.
For help.

But all I saw was the slab of concrete baring her name.

I looked to life for hope.
For a savior.
For an answer.
And all I see is a dark and scary place.

And I fit right in.

I dream of you all the time.

And the good thing is, I get to see your smiling face and know you're not in any pain.

I dream of you all the time.

And the bad thing is, you're not there when I wake up.

It's nice having new snow
covering the back garden
in the morning

like a visitor has come
bringing things

good things

not expecting a gift
given back

To watch clouds in the sky

To observe the stars in space

To hear a new born babys' cry

To feel the rain on your face



To help a flower to grow

To smell the sea breeze

To play in the snow

To climb the highest tree



To have love in our heart

To be with someone you care

To know when to start

To feel the wind in your hair



To be there for a friend

To care for a child

To stay to the end

To be able to run wild



To listen to a song

To be free as a dove

To know how to be strong

To be able to fall in love



To have these words to read

To always be true

To wish you to succeed

To just say thank you

This too will pass
this heart break and pain
i can see this.

Unfortunately the knowledge is there
of when it will be again
and i break.