The first time I had fallen in love
It kinda snuck up behind me
I wasn’t expecting it
it was a long time ago in the past
I remember feeling so nervous
Afraid of making a bad impression and embarrassing myself
when I fell in love with them
it wasn’t one of those oh it’s you or  a fast realization type of love
it was one where I can vividly remember the moment where I fell in love
and after all these years and months I still have nostalgia about it
I knew the likes and dislikes
what their dreams in life were and several other things
You know how you know something like the back of your hand and it doesn’t matter how many months it’s been or how much time has passed
you still remember the things that were told to you in that moment
That’s how it was with them
I knew when they were  mad , angry  and upset  
wanting to turn their back on the world
All I could think was I love you and your flaws even when your angry , upset and mad
there is nothing you could do to convince me otherwise
When I realized that I was in love with them
the silent battle to tell or not to tell was the question
the thing was I didn’t wanna lose our friendship
all i could think was us breaking apart as friends would hurt worse verses us breaking apart
as a couple
And by the time I had realized that I might want to tell them
it was already too late
The chance had come and gone

But when a opportunity to tell them presented itself to me
I couldn’t do it
the old feelings that I thought were gone
rose up and suddenly the courage to tell was gone
just like it had arrived
- The things you’ll never know// The dilemma of falling for someone who you’re just friends with

My words,
My poetry,
My art --

They're my suicide note;

And no one seems to listen.

black stallions gallop,
It’s huddle in sky’s race course;
in his box, sun hides!

He used to be her universe.
She thought so highly of him.
Her world revolved around him.  
She admired every bit of him.

It was always him,
But it was never her.
Now she finds herself in the dark,
Waiting for the void to be filled.

He would fulfil her needs,
With lies and promises
That were never meant to be.
But in the end, she was the one to blame.

n.n

What if it was us.
The bench held two
The car held two
The trail held two
The sand held two
The stereo held two
What if it was us?

What if it was you.
The bench took your time
The car lifted your spirits
The trial brought your journey
The sand held your footprints
The stereo held your thoughts.
What if it was you?

What if it was me.
The bench held my hopes
The car drove my dreams
The trail took my eyes
The sand held my breath
The stereo held my words
What if it was me?

What if it was us.
What if the bench held our heads
What if the car carried our baggage
What if the trial took our hands
What if the sand caught our falls
What if the stereo said our intentions

What if it was us?

I am stuck on this island and don't know what to do.
Ok it has been 3 days and I found people and that had a boat but they wore not
People they wore faires and they tot me how to live on this island
So am going to build a house but they said no to me and they show me how to get a
house I had to find a mushroom and I did they used their macik and **** a mushroom house it had everything I need but no food and they showed me how to get food and all they did was get one barie and then **** food and then I felt something in my back and wings came out I became a fairy but I got lonely and I said how can I go home they said I was home I sed no my home with my family they sed o well u will have to go on the boat and go throw the tunnel and so I did when I went throw it and I got smaller then I said I was home I was at the broke and it was like a dream but I was small as a fairy my wings went small and I was home but I can see it wen ever