YOU BETRAYED ME!!!,
HOW COULD YOU??
You STABBED me in the BACK, and
Got me FEELING ALL BLUE,
I AM LOST FOR WORDS,
I AM NOT SURE I SHOULD DO,
WHAT WE HAD WAS SACRED!! and
I TRUSTED IN YOU, but
I WAS ALL WRONG,
NOW, I FEEL LIKE A FOOL,
You Betrayed me!!,
Why can't you just see,
You Left me hanging on a limb,
How could you do this to me???,
This feeling of BETRAYAL,
NO, It does not feel good!!!,
of how you just did me,
This is so MISUNDERSTOOD!!!!,
I STOOD RIGHT BY, and I CONFIDED IN YOU,
I thought you were a TRUE FRIEND but,
You did me wrong and that's not cool,
Therefore, this FRIENDSHIP has to end,
This BETRAYAL and BROKEN TRUST,
has been lost, but
with TIME and PATIENCE, could BE MENDED,
It won't be easy and things won't be the same, the BETRAYAL is on YOU, and
YES!!!
You are the one to BLAME!!!
Just one more thing I'd thought that you should know,
What comes around goes around
YOU WILL REAP WHAT YOU SOW!!!, but
I WILL FORGIVE YOU!!!,
EVEN FEELING SO LOW!!,
BROKEN DOWN AND UNSTABLE,
I AM FEELING SO BAD,
RUNNED DOWN, WORNED and FATIGUED,
BECAUSE OF YOUR BETRAYAL!!!


B.R.
Date: 4/8/2025

FaceTime me every week, as the calls start to pile

play dumb like we weren’t a thing, you know that sh%t is really foul

told me you’ll never be submissive; Love, your mouth be running wild

posting couple & single memes together must really got you down

Oh a new person in your DM’s, someone new to get you riled up

random thoughts run through my mind, watching you chase after titles

can’t find anyone to commit, how’s love working for you now?

I locked my lips
And threw away the key
So why is it
That you still can't put your trust in me?

I thought you would stay till the end
and keep what i hold dear to yourself
Not share it with the world
You kind comes so quickly
and i trust you so fast
i cared for you
but
i guess
your
just
another

      F L Y   B Y   N I G H T

It’s crazy

Crazy how someone can care so deeply about you
But they can’t help from hurting you
Betrayal at its finest is what it is


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Because I want him here to be my rock
And I want to trust him again but I’m still stuck

Stuck on how he chose up
Stuck on how he switched up
Stuck on that feeling I had deep in my heart
Stuck on the memory that still tears me apart


I can’t forget no matter how much I try
things will never be the same
My trust is one thing he can never fully regain


Playing myself like a fool is one thing I cannot do
No matter how much he claims to have switched the way he moves


When he looks into my eyes he sees the pain
That very same pain I felt when everything changed
when I look in his eyes I see adorement
but still and yet I can’t see us making this commitment

He is mine...Though I doubt this to be fully true
And I long to be his but will we see this through


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Will I ever find more love for him ...to give?

Sometimes, it’s very difficult to trust you.
The butterflies in my stomach are alive again
But not because of love
This time
It’s because of incertitude
You changed
The sparkle in your eyes is gone
Your smile is so fake
Your chest is so cold
So I know
It’s not my brain
It’s your attitude

You used the oldest play in the book,
But I’m a sucker for antiques and I’m optimistic to a fault.
You said don’t be worried,
But why is this time different?
We’ve always ruined it with our vicious cycle,
And the venom is just sweet enough that even though we are rotting, we still want seconds.
Please don’t let this be poison disguised as nectar.
Next time, I won’t come back.

taking time to learn from your mistakes
the mistakes ive made in my past
i spent two and a half hours facing my bedroom mirror
im not faceless
yet i feel as faceless as a jane doe
fighting to discover the lost identity
that can only be found be found in the depth of her undiscovered haze

lost i wander from ocean to ocean
looking for the fateful creator
one who learned of the existence of a failure and decided never to look back
leaving a melancholy trail to follow him
drips of sadness mark where he has been and where he wishes to go

can the darkness that looms about him ever dissipate?
it is the duty of those around him to question why his simple sadness never fades
they question, but the root of his depression will never be made public information
no soul would ever learn of his betrayal
and i, would continue to wander aimlessly from ocean to ocean

when will my body give away to the .cruelty of nature surrounding?
harsh winds and streams of cold blue vend me
until i am one and the same
i will never rest
a lost sense of self has doomed me
there is no way to survive if i am not sure of who i am
because then who am i living for?

is it the strange girl who burrows daggers into my eyes when i look into thee mirror?
or am i simply living for the sake of those around me?
how about those who have abandoned me?
i am living without quite understanding why

so what is the next step?