My darkness comes again
Im weighed down
By all this sin

I look at these lies
And i scream inwardly
Outwardly i just sigh

I get so stuck
Its like i cant see
Anything besides the muck

But i will follow the truth
I know there is more
This darkness is not new

I can move oast these lies
I wont give in
The truth will not be disguised

I am not alone
There is so much more
I can be at peace at home

I am loved
There is truth here
I can be enough

Im not a failure
There is more to me
Than this current allure

I will fight these lies
I wont give up
God hears my cries

And he sees me
Even when im weak
He shows me how who im to be

And he gives me strength
To just keep living
When all i want is to give up.

To me, you were a mystery I wanted to solve.
To you, I was a soul you'd never be able to love.
Around us, the world didn't revolve.
But in the end, it's still you I dream of.

Before,
I was not in a hurry
I always keep myself buried
And usually emotions are safely hidden

Before,
I dont wish for you
I dont do things for you
and especially I dont love you the way I do

Today,
I am longing for your smile
Loving who and what you really are
For reasons still undefined

Today,
I crave for your forehead kisses
Back hugs and conversation that is endless
That I hope I would have 'cause you're so peerless

After,
I dont know how to end
This feelings I can't even bend
For you I can always send
My messages of feelings I can lend

why is it
whenever i
love someone
i lose myself
entirely in them
no room left
for love
for myself
i become too consumed
on loving them
so who is going to
love me?

born ugly and wick
a monster and a beast
but what's behind
the story of yours?
hidden beneath those eyes of gold
you wear scales as your skin
but is it impenetrable of pain?

In the eyes of gods
you were wronged
but it was them
who made the fault
always be remembered
etched in the pages
of history untold
a merciless and vicious fiend
not a young maiden
who desired to be loved
but was taken before she could have

Papa you don't seem to understand,
You no longer believe I am still that little boy you grew up,
Your own little man.

You think I have betrayed you,
You do not understand how I became the way I am,
So you lash out and blame everyone else but yourself.

I stand so brave when you through your abuse my way,
I still behave the same way,
But you let lies and rumors consume, never given a second thought.

Papa you no longer treat me the same,
No longer show me the love that came so naturally.

I cannot save you papa,
I am not going to be your mind controlled slave,
So be prepared to wave goodbye.

Papa remember that I will always love you,
And I hope you finally come to realize,
That I was not the one to betray you, that was all you.