I am the definition of emotional baggage
I have way too many problems that I need to manage
You have barely gone through one of my suitcases
I am not sure if you want to travel to this deadly oasis
There are too many childhood memories stuffed away in these containers
Too many things that won’t help make your life that much greater
I don’t think that I’ll be good enough for you
Because I still have too many bags to sieve through
There are too many panic attacks to hold in one bag
And for some reason I can’t throw them away in the trash
I have to keep them by my side and pull them along
They are full of broken monologues
I have too many suicide attempts stuffed away
I have so many unfinished notes that still linger in my day
Most days I feel like dating me is a chore
That the average person would prefer to ignore.
I am not scared to date you because I’m not good enough
I am scared to date you because I have too much
I have too much past and too much sadness
To ever try and help you pursue happiness
I am unfinished masterpiece and I am working on it
But how wants a work in progress this far from being done?
I have so many suitcases that I will let you open
I just don’t want to ruin our moment

I lay here awake,
After so long.
It was different from before.
There was no rose garden to begin with,
but it was never this bad.

I've seen outside,
But I'm still glad that i woke up,
Something about now makes me feel more alive,
Because finally I'm not feeling sad.

It makes me wonder,
What did i actually left behind,
Was it a certain person or was it the season,
What did i actually had?

-HIY

A dream is crushed, a future uncertain
Maybe it's time to close this curtain
Love lies lost, because it was never found
All of this is so very profound
Because my only dream was for love to come around
But insteed I was used and abused
And it gave birth to my darkest muse
Now I'm to old for love to find me
My heart stoped looking and threw away the key
So broken I well always be

My mind is at a disarray
Why is it a gloomy day
I need  to ask you a question is I may
What part in this life do I play

My heart is crushed
My time feels rushed
My hair has not been brushed
And my hat made my hair smushed

My eyes are getting blurry
My emotion is that of fury
And I am in no hurry
I am craving a McFlurry

Riddle me this riddle me that
What's going on with my body fat
It annoys me like swatting a gnat
That eventually went splat

My mind is in a disarray
And this is all I got to say
I don't want anything getting in the way
I guess this is how I will end the day

In search of search is a search, which once when started was with regards to what else is still there in an uncertain future.

A lot of things changed since then, many new things happened along the way.
The past is left far behind, as of now it’s the present moment in time.

In the present the same search,
if it reaches to a desired conclusion,
then it will enhance the scope of future.

There are moments in life when it’s easy to start with something,
care must be taken that you end up with the same thing, which you had initially started.

There are moments in life when it’s easy to give up,
but then the same thing,
if continued further would have definitely fetched good results is realized and learnt later.

Life is strange
Strange are the ways of life
Life is uncertain
Uncertainties and worries continue to remain as an essential and integral part of life and still it's life.
Life continues with all the complexities involved and included in it.

Make the most of the present moment in time,
opportunities and possibilities are different from each other,
both have the ability to find, define and enhance the scope of future with regards to the present moment in time.

Intentions play a major role in deciding the right line of action,
clean, clear and good intentions yield the desired results rather than having something going on at the back of mind.

Definitely the right thing when it's done at the right point in time gives the desired results.

The dust once settled,
needs to be shaken again,
which was trapped and bottled,
has to fly out to douse the flame

A long time passed, few friends I have earned
in this work of black and white, few shades I have burned

I lost my pace in the layout of this maze
got knocked out, now just the sky I can gaze

I am no stone, but I know to roll
I can play more, but I choose to fold

I have new horizons to reach
the rocky roads are always there to teach.
The dust wont deter me now with pain,
for I know, I will rise up again.

Would anyone really care,
If I vanished without a trace?
If my screams echoed the hallways,
If briny tears stained my face?

Everyone is bonded so strongly,
How can I join these ties?
Will I always be an outsider,
Seen as nothing more than a fly?

What am I doing wrong?
Can you help me understand?
Do I not deserve your kinships,
What’s wrong with who I am?

*I want for someone to care,
To catch me if I fall.
Because if no one cares about you,
Do you exist at all?

When estimates are made, then they are not just estimates,
it’s a way of ascertaining an uncertain future.

An uncertain future gets a glimpse of what seems to be possible in the present at the present moment in time when the estimate is being made.

Scope with regards to future varies in the present and also over a period of time along the future.
Each and everything comes into focus when an estimate is ready and needs to be followed in the present at the present moment in time.
Following a proper line of action comes later, much later.

Initially when everything related to making an estimate comes to mind it's important to take the right steps at the right moment in time.
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Initially everything starts with particular line of thinking.
Initially in the present the thought process is very well defined,
so well defined that everything needs to be done keeping in mind the right moment in time.

Over a period of time things change and everything starts taking the right shape.
Now comes the moment in time to make an estimate since everything that is going on in mind gets sorted out and becomes clear.
Now the only thing that comes to mind is that time is going to be important.

Along with time comes an experience when efforts are been made
Along with experience comes accuracy in making an estimate
So never give up in life.

Give your best and always make efforts
A time will come when the importance of time will not only be understood, realized, agreed and accepted, but also it will be kept in mind.
An estimate will then be required keeping in mind the future.

So, there is nothing wrong in making an estimate
After all it takes only a small space of the entire page when making an estimate
So always see to it that you have your estimate ready for the plan that you have made in your mind and then only move towards taking the line of action.