I've digressed to a point where I can't appreciate
making every decision with logic, without fail;
That's something I could never imagine I'd hate.

There was a time when my anger had a point to illustrate;
Now I curse and condemn and convey to no avail.
I've digressed to a point where I can't appreciate.

There was a time when my anger would not abate;
Now my cool and calm demeanor has learned to prevail.
That's something I could never imagine I'd hate.

There was a time when his endless curiosity, I'd sate;
Now his tirade of questions is aimed at another male.
I've digressed to a point where I can't appreciate.

There was a time when his mere image would aggravate;
Now my spirit holds not the anger his proximity should entail.
That's something I could never imagine I'd hate.

There was a time when I could be near and not disintegrate;
Now at the very sight of these two men, needs must I quail.
I've digressed to a point where I can't appreciate,
And that's something I could never imagine I would hate.

You play him
You lead him on
But I know you feel threatened by me
For uttering a rude comment about me
When I walk by
It only makes me smile
Because I know you know
I never made him cry
I only made him smile
And I have never broken him
The way you did so many times
He came to me and said "I want to die"
Three minutes later he was laughing
I made him forget how you hurt him
Because I am the band aid to his pain
And if I can never be more than that
I will be content with healing the wounds you inflict
For as long as he'll have me but I know
You are threatened because I am the better choice
I am honest and trustworthy and I would never hurt him
And though he cannot see
How good to him I'd be
Because your hands are holding his face
In fear he'll turn around and see me
I swear I will stand here for as long as needed
Until your hands get cramps
And your face crumbles to reveal the person you are
Your fingers will fall and he'll turn around
I will be here to see him move away from you
And closer to me

You are not lying to her
As much as you are lying to me

I adore you with no guarantees
I hear promises that have not been said
I hear your words said in my head
Yet you say “only you”
Only me
And her

Only You & Her

Never Us

Never were

Never will

Just this far will do down the road of pride-filled infatuation
With its ill-lit way
It goes in no direction
We either run into each other
Or run away.

My heart, it can't take much more
Knowing your secrets, your core
Does she touch you the way I do?
Does she love you like I want to?
Tell me, when you're awake at night
Shadowed by her hair and the moonlight
Do you think of me?
This is a game of run and chase
I'm the mouse, and she's the snake
I could prove myself to you but what good would it do
If you stay by her side until death turns you blue?
I see the way you fight and the fire in her eyes
She'd rather make you miserable than admit her lies
How can you stay?
I envision us woven together,
You and me bound by a tether
Discovering crevices and dips and grooves
The way your shoulders feel so smooth
My dreams are of you doing better, for you
My hope is that you will add me in, too
She'll call me a home wrecker, it may be fact
But don't let our chance slip through the cracks

She is perfect.
Flawless.
Not like me.
She's able to give you the world.
Every bit of it.
I'm sorry I can't.
I can, however, give you every piece of me.
I'll let you break every inch of my heart.
Over and over again.
She would never annoy you.
She is everything you need.
She has the time.
So do I.
But you can't see that.
God. She's so perfect.
And I'm just.....
Well I'm just a girl.
Caught up in the idea of us.

I would part the seas
just so you don't get wet
but you would rather they did it.

I would fight every monster in Tartarus
just to keep you safe
but you don't care.

I would go to Hell and back
just cause you asked me to
but it doesn't matter, does it.

I was there by your side
when you were crying
but it's them you have your eyes on.

I love you
no matter what you say
but you love someone else.

Is she still your reflection?
Because I look in the mirror and only see decay
I see her dancing in your eyes
I know her figure is projected onto your eyelids while you sleep
An hourglass full of grains of 'yesterdays'
That you shatter just to fall asleep
Changing behind screens as to not expose your secrets
By tomorrow I will be nothing but an outline in the sand
Left by children too young to know better or understand
Too naïve to have seen the storm clouds rolling their way
I might have been looking for a needle in a stack of hay
And like a magpie you found it and hid it in your back pocket
Taking my hand, distracting it from what it yearned for
Using the other to pull my heart out
Only now am I starting to mind the bleeding
I frantically smear my insides on to my chest
In the hope that I have a chance of saving myself
You can try your hardest to forget me
But I wont let you do so
Easily
I'll plague you when I finally fall in love again
I'll haunt you when you stay round her house, my friend
Your soup will taste like my mouth
And I swear it will defeat you like poison
Your skin eaten away like cotton by a moth
You'll find me hidden in graveyards
A twisted reminder of what we once had
I am not quite driftwood yet but when I am
I hope to float your way