"Look at how tragically beautiful the sky is, it's a graveyard of stars" I said

"How can you say so?" He asked while looking at me


"For all the stars that are twinkling and glittering that paints the night sky has long been dead and empty, yet it still shines so bright, it is dead yet alive. It still gives hope and to everyone that finds the meaning of their existence. Even though they are dead they still glimmer in their darkest.
Everyone will love you if you are dead just like how they love the stars
I think every atom in my body are remnants of the universe, Iron in my blood, Nitrogen in my DNA, Calcium in my bones and Carbon in my soul is who I am, I have stuff in me as old as the universe humming with different verse.
I wish I am a star wrapped in a skin the light you are all seeking has always been within." I answered

"Now, I'm ready to become one of the stars"

I want to know why.

I want to know why she was forced to leave.

and why he had to die as not even an infant, that could get wrapped up in a white silky blanket and be buried next to strangers and not her momma and father.

and why my eyes are green and yours are brown and hers weren’t lucky enough to have been a beautiful swirl of hazel forests.

and why her nails were never painted the color of tulips.

and why your nails are ragged and ******.

and why the least expensive things in life are the ugliest and the hardest and the worst.

and why your feet smell like cheese, and your breath reeks of ******.

and why I never got to cradle my miracle.

and why I hate you

since
it was
what was best.

why do I love her, even though she doesn’t exist?

why do I cry on my birthday?

Feelings, so stern !
Desires, that burn !
Feelings, that haunt !
Desires, that hurt !

All this weight,
While i wait.
Paitently, i linger.
Loosing my paitence,
Confusion & anger.
All this weight,
While i wait.

The wait for someone,
Someone long gone,
Gone so long,
IT's TIME !!!
To move on and to choose.
To let go and to close.
The door, and
The Chapter.

If only i could, I would !
I wish !
I wish i could,
If i could,
I know i would,
IF
If only,
You'd let me.

I wish i could,
Let you let me,
Make you feel the way i feel,
Hold you, caress you, and
Show you to the world,
The world, i want us to be.
IF
If only !
You'd let me.

Every breathe, every moment,
And Everything that i own,
I'd give up !
I wish!
I wish i could,
JUST
be with you !
IF
If only,
You'd let me.

Give you everything that you deserve,
Treat you like a queen,
If only i could,
IF
If only !
You'd let me.

Love you with all i've got,
My soul, my mind, my heart.
If i could, I know i would !
IF
if only,
You'd let me.