Life ain't so funny when you ain't got
that honey feeling deep inside
You had it once when you were very
young (when you were little)
When you were close to the Source
Close to your god and your Mom
That lovely sweet ambrosia feeling
It used waft through your being
Its various colours lighting you up
inside
Like a veritable Christmas tree
Made you feel real special, made you
feel so alive
Made you feel that Life was
something amazing
An incredible ride.
But that was then, and this... this is
now
Seems almost like a lifetime ago
Like some myth or legend
Lost way in the mists of Time,
Been so long since I had that feeling,
You begin to wonder was there ever
such a place
Did it ever really exist at all.
The World it offers you sweets and
chocolate
Their nice but they don't last, their
over too fast
And they only remind you of what
you've lost
(And yea, you can eat that sugar but
it'll only **** you brother
It ain't the same and it ain't what
you're looking for).
Inside there's just this great big hole
That you try and fill with anything
Eating too much, drinking too much
(You don't know when to stop, and
even then, it's never enough)
Working as well... too much! staring,
Staring at the TV (the almighty TV),
And pretending...yea, pretending your
whole
If only they knew these smiles of
mine, their not true
And these words, their all hollow too,
There's nothing here in me, I... I'm
empty.
Each day is just another desert to
cross,
Another desert to roam
Lying sprawled out on the sofa in
front of the TV, stupified and
zombified
You think to yourself, "there was a sweetness once, wherever did it go".
A bit gloomy this but there it is. I don't know if this will register with anyone. I'm working on an antidote poem LOL.
