Let us not dwell in the thought of fear
But find to what fear really is
"Fear nothing but fear itself"
Were not my words but his

They say fear controls us
Makes us do not think
So how can we stop ourselves
So we can swim not sink

They say its the world around us
She makes us fear these things
But its not her demons
But the ones at our very brink

You don't fear the world
Or the things that she has full stride
The only thing that you are scared of
Are the things you've locked inside...

I felt like I've always been in the darkness
I've never seen the light myself
I was always pushed and thrown down by others
but when I saw you
I pushed myself to become stronger
At the time I did not know why I pushed myself
to become stronger for someone
I barely knew their name
But I pushed and pushed
Until, I could shine my own light
I got out of the darkness to show you my light
to guide you on the path of happines
I know why I did it now
It was to shine that beautiful light
that was hiding in a cloud of darkness
Numbing your sense of the beautiful things in life
I did this not to be with you
but to give you happiness
and show you the light.

Lighten up, little one
Just because he can't see your beauty,
Doesn't mean you have none

Lighten up, little one
As the sun starts to set,
Keep in mind when the stars have met

Stand up and continue to dance
To the changing colors of the horizon,
To the sound of silence that's upon

Lighten up, little one
Remember what you deserve
Remember who you are

You are stronger than this
Wiser than this
You are made to be loved
Not to be dissed

You are better than this
How can you be okay with this?

You deserve nothing but understanding
You deserve hugs each time you cry
You deserve all that you're not getting
But please tell me why

You deserve light even in darkness
You deserve songs of love in the cold
You deserve all the world's happiness
Little one, now's the time to be bold

Lighten up, little one
Now's the time to fly
Go ahead little one
Stop settling with just getting by
Go ahead little one
Go and give life a try

I thought every word that you spit from your unclean lips would make me shine
I thought they’d make daisies bloom from tragedy over time
And create a masterpiece that no one had ever seen before
Something truly sublime
But instead your words proved that every doubt of mine was surely not wrong
That the time you had with me was far too long
That the time it took to love myself again was far too long
Because of your actions
And because of my silly heart
I agreed to run along
To be strung along and torn apart
The bed I made
Where I laid my head on your legs instead of your head on mine
The blanket that split our light unevenly
As well as define the line
Line
Lines leading up to what your words defined
"*****"
But no
Wait
You didn’t mean it like that
What did you mean if you didn’t mean it like that?
What else could you have meant?
After all the time we had spent
The traces of your scent left me itching
Creating dents in my once porcelain skin
Twisting our reality
And twisting your words
And molding my thoughts into birds
So that they could fly far away
From your solid ways of pulling me back in like you were gravity
My paper weight
Holding me down while holding me back from opportunity
Becoming the grounded gate that surrounded
And swallowed me whole in the end
You are no longer the black hole
That I try to comprehend
I no longer defend you while you condescend me
Like you are the sky above the sea
Thank you for showing me that I'm strong enough
To rise above and be free
Let my battle leave mementos in your mind
To remind you of the time you tried to defeat me
But failed miserably

|s.s|

I've given up on giving up
Whats the point of stopping halfway down the mile stretch
I've broken down a million times
Reconstruct me into something stronger
I've cried on a daily basis
Let this be the fuel for my future confrontations
I've wanted to end my life on so many occasions
I should stop playing God and allow myself to die naturally
I've always thought my life was full of negatives
When in reality,  every negative has a opposite
A positive. And that is worth waiting for

Ball my fists
And hunch my shoulders
Swinging wildly
Til knuckle meets boulder
Does the earth merit my blood?
Do my bones merit the mud?
My voice becomes a vessel for words reserved for sailors and such
And my belly a sloshy sloppy pocket of ***
Writhing is my skin
At the thought of him within
Alone with no means of defense
Where defense means offense
And offense brings a means to an end
But I'd rather not think on the end
As I'm only about to begin
So I make a fist
And swing
Until nerves breach the bone
And veins burst within
I've known splinters and flint
And broken glass on skin
I know what it is to go without breath
And drown in the sink
This is just another week