It's ok if you want to believe in God,
I won't stop you, all I want is a second
of your "ever-knowing time," to explain to me
how you figured out that we're all supposed
to know where we came from because of some
superstitious statement and some written signs.

The universe is trying
To tell me something
Leaving clues for me to find
Hinting something
But I haven't solved the puzzle yet.

4/18/16

All you ever had was just beautiful words to say
But in the end they where all lies anyway

I see signs around me all the time
They always speak of the bad, a crime
But I never know what they mean
Until the time is seen

I should of paid more attention to that vulture on that pole
Just sitting there four days in a row
Like it had no where to go
I didn't understand
But the answer was in my hand

It took you four months to picked my heart clean
Like a vulture, what you did was obscene
And just like the vulture, one day away you flew
Leaving me wondering, now what am I to do

I don't know why I see signs of whats to come
Wraped in a riddle, never knowing till it comes undone
I guess it's to prepare me in some way
But the meaning is always shadowed gray

So that vulture on that pole I knew it wasn't good
Now I know it was about my heart, and protected it I should
But thats the problems with the signs that I see
I never know if they are ment for me

Geminis are supposedly devious, superficial and devicing in relationships 
But I won't crash this ship 
I don't care about putting on a show 
Just so you know 
I won't decieve you 
I won't sneak around your feelings 
That's not who I am. 
I once liked the same girl for three years 
And I'm two faced like the experts say i am 
I don't stab people in the back 
I don't intend to lie to people
I do have flaws and I'm not perfect and never will be 
But darling, you will be okay with me 
I'm not going to cheat 
I'm not going to use you 
I'm not going to lie to you without remorse 
Because sometimes I battle myself on that 
But at least I have identified the problem 
I will try to improve 
And try to prove 
My passion for you. 
Despite the negatives, there are also positives
Geminis are great at satisfying their partner and like to try new things 
And I promise you I got that covered 
Making people happy is what I want 
Not having that makes my soul gaunt 
I want to be the one that taunts the Devil
Because I do not play for his team.

You're hearing, but that does not mean you are listening.
You're seeing, but that does not mean you are watching.
You're smiling, but that does not mean you are happy.
You're nodding, but that does not mean you are agreeing.
I hang on every word as it drips from the upturned corners of your dark pink lips. I drink them in as if they were a necessity to my existence. My eyes follow your every move in front of me, from the porcupine spikes on your freshly cut hair to the dress shoes you don't like to wear. I know the placement of every freckle on your arms because I've counted the abundance of constellations on your skin a thousand times with my boring brown eyes. The biggest grin comes across my face when I even think of you and the purest form of happiness shines off of my almost white teeth. Every corner, every crevice of my smile bubbles over with gratitude for somehow ending up living in the same world as you, getting to see you every day in my passions and in my mind, having the privilege to know you. I have held my own thoughts but changed their appearance in every way to get an ounce of approval, the slightest hint at a possibility that I might be doing something right while I stand in the chaotic storm that your life is sometimes. And you taught me about perspectives, we've spent weeks on the lesson, yet you still can't see that my everything reflects what's best for you. You still don't understand that I love you.
You're flirting, but that does not mean you love me, too.