I feel like I'm made of cheap glass I have no purpose, I'm not of high class And even though I'm of no use That will never make a good excuse
Pardon my outburst, I'm containing my thoughts And each one that goes can never be caught They all burst from my mind like a brilliant volcano Each one setting off a light and faint glow
I feel like I'm absolutely fake I put on a smile because if I'm happy, that's all it takes It doesn't hurt them if I'm sad, no one even cares Because when I'm sad, they just feel the need to stare
I don't pay attention to them because I know deep in my mind All of them have no idea of the things I think of, they're blind Each thought darker than the last Remembering all the bad times in the past
Each thought bubbles up and creates paranoia Each one branches out like a giant sequoia I hate each and every one for they swarm me like flies I can't explain how much it hurts, but each sharp sting of pain I despise
Circulating around our bodies. Emanating within us. Blood contains the action of life as without death becomes apparent. It's otherworldly appearance striking fear to the eye. A distance remaining as hot blood can so easily turn cold. Heartless. Temper unpredictable, no reason for its outburst. But still the desire lets itself be known. Amounting to more than your will, the crave, the hunger, the need and the unhealthy obsession. But always the danger, the lust and the calming comfortable ambience it presents with its presence.
Once, a thought went past my mind Which was to leave the past behind. I thought if it would be of any gain But all of it was in vain.
Somehow I got over it Just to find myself in an empty pit To witness the darkness all around Until in her, a light I found.
A glimpse of her Would make my heart pound As if I was a free bird flying high in the air Invisible to someone here on the ground.
Seeing her secretly all day Gave me happiness profound. They said I was deeply in love, Love, way out of bounds.
Her eyes had a pious look A look so serene Splendid as they were No less than the Irish meadows green.
I dived deep into those beautiful eyes Wondering if the secret they did hide had even been seen. They were like an unread book Seeking to be looked within. To find a picture of mine in her eyes that gleam Was the blissful moment of which I would dream.
At times, I saw her make a sad face When she felt all troubled And in my mind prayers for her happiness Was all that I mumbled.
Her beautiful smile had a touch divine So lovable that even words can’t define. I wish I could tell her what I felt for her Afraid if she would be friends ever after.
I wished to run away Wanted those feelings to disappear But by then, I already knew the way A part of my soul would be with her Always here.
I wonder if I could tell her some day That I thought of her night and day. I was so attached to her Like the cold icy winter and shades of grey.
So this happens to be my life-story, Nevertheless, there is nothing to worry. I just hope she will someday be mine Only then I would believe That up there beyond the clouds there is some power divine.