I ordered a heart but it came two sizes too small. I ordered a soul but it shrunk in the wash. I ordered a body but it didn't fit right. I ordered a life but it wasn't trendy anymore. I ordered some love but I guess it hasn't arrived yet.
I watched a movie once, where this girl keeps ruining her life as she and her brother walk on a beach he asks her whats going on and she turns to him and says "Maybe I'm the faller. The one who doesnt get the boy, the one who never gets an A. The one who trips and stumbles and pulls everybody down with her. every family has one. ours must be me." i hear her say this, and i hear the pain in her voice as she says it, and i realize that i am the faller. i ***** up i cause pain to my family how can someone who never does anything right even come close to standing up straight?
I look back on those things that we said; When I told you, it was the truth: I was willing to let you mess up a million times I just wanted to be here to forgive you.
I wanted to make things work between us, and I probably would have dragged it out until we fought every day and were miserable.... I still doubt in my mind if we were right to just give up. Could we have fixed our big mistakes? =/ I was willing to. I'm sorry.