Have you ever go through a night where everything feel so **** even Know everything is going fine. Where you feel so broken inside and just want to scream it out loud yet you can’t. Each tears that drop from your eyes is a pure pain from inside of you where you been holding it in. Right now I feel so useless and pointless I feel like I can never be good enough for anyone. I feel like I don’t belong to this world. My head spinning like my world is going to end. My heart is shaking like is going to stop beating anytime soon, my brain is hurting like thousands of people trying to step on it. I have always been positive with life yet still I have my down moment where I feel like no one could ever understand me. Maybe it’s just my loneliness feelings where I feel like I need a tight hug and someone to tell me everything going to be ok. I feel like no one actually care about my feelings people always come in and take benefits of me. I always wonder what if feel like to be love by the right one. I don’t think I ever been loved by anyone people just come in and go never stay no matter how hard I try to save them. Maybe because they think I’m too soft they can just do whatever they want to me and I will forgive them. My smile always hide my feelings I wonder what is like when someone look at me into my eyes and say I know your not ok and hug me tight.
a mess of words, hopelessly lost I’m sorry that we never got to fall in love. I’d give you my heart but someone else stole it first and broke it like a stone to a stained glass window- I’m sorry that we never got to fall in love
Feeling like I'm going to explode Can't hold emotions anymore Your interest makes me sick I'm drowing in a cup of tea So much pressure I can't breath How did I end up like this? I don't want to feel Take your attention away from me
remind me to not cry when I'm alone again, that -at least somehow- I can take it
You held me as a prisoner in my head. You held me hostage. You made me treat my friends awful so I’ve got nobody now. You dragged me around making me feel worthless.
You made my life a living hell and I assumed that if pretended everything was fine for long enough then maybe....just maybe I would begin to believe it.
But It’s getting to the point where I don't even like what I see in the mirror.
All I see is a ghost staring back at me with empty eyes. All I see is the hurt in my smile. All I see is the mess I am.
I am a problem that can’t be fixed. I am what’s wrong.
