Know you'd be better without me here
Make it harder for you to adhere
To goals, one thing is clear
The "us" we are sober is what we fear
Hold you dear, love who you are
Treat you bad, keep you far
Further than the most distant star
Scared to hurt you and leave a scar
Hurt you and I don't know why
It doesn't matter how hard I try
Only make things worse for you and I
When will you call it quits and say goodbye?

HOOK:
Try to make it right but I always do you wrong
Say I will change but taking far too long
You're sick of hearing me sing the same song
Can we turn this back around, or are you already gone?

Most of the time wish I was someone else
Try my best to be happy, it never seems to help
You always tell me to be myself
I'm not good enough, that is easy to tell
I will never understand what you see in me
You think I am amazing, I disagree
I am drowning, dragging you into my sea
My life a mess dark and ugly
Two words I shout sometimes "Go away!"
Off-guard, you can't find the right words to say
The same day, ask you please stay
Must be hard to love a girl who never is okay
When this ends will you miss me like you said?
Travel across oceans to be by my side again?
I touch you in all the right spots in my bed
But could never let you see inside my head

HOOK

Your soul is inspiring, balanced, real
I left old pain behind, wanted to heal
Your trembling hands decided to steal
Aching thoughts and unease I no longer feel
Just like a magician you put my pieces back into place
Anticipation filling the gaps and leftover space
I am starting to think I'll win this race
Is this only a dream? Will I wake with no trace?
If we are really here right now let me know
Leave me with a reminder to hold when you go
Lately my mind likes to bounce to and fro
One second feeling high, the next feeling low

HOOK

A new low.


Depression is in session in the black hole of my head;
It drags the misery deep inside me and I wish I was dead.
I no longer want to live in a world so cold;
I shiver.
I never forget the emptiness within my heart
And the solitary of my soul.


Love no longer lives here, for I now live alone;
Oh my God how I do detest the silence of my phone.
No more calls of happiness are made;
A new low to be found.


Just sadness and hurt are all I can see,
In the mirror reflecting my face,
Because you are no longer around.


It’s a new kind of low I’m experiencing now,
But it’s a low I like living in, for it can no longer bring me down.
I have hit rock bottom and I live here alone;
But I am happy in the darkness, it has become my home.


A life without love is hard but it is manageable;
I no longer need the light of loves burning candle,
To keep me alive; I find solace in solitude.
My only desire is to see her ****.


But when you look up at every one, who you think you are below,
You find comfort in your misery, because you have hit a new low.
It’s a new low to cherish because it’s a new low I have
And this new low is mine to manage, so I will struggle on with the show.


Another human being stands in front of me smiling
And all I can think about is how I am still dying.
Their happiness makes me laugh because soon they will fall
And I shall have to feel absolutely nothing at all.


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What do you mean,
you're low on space?
Your want me to
delete some of the thing
on your memory
and intentionally give you
technological amnesia?

Love
the drug
i wish i was immune to it
No, I don't...
- want to live above the influence
So high...
i wont need a hit..
So low..
i want to OD on it..