Have you ever lost someone
Like they are died and you are left alone
Because if you haven’t
You don’t know what it feels like

It’s not something you can easily shead
This emotions are not leftovers you can easily throw away
Because if they were why would you throw them out

They are priceless treasures
Something you hold dearly to your heart
Why would you throw them out like they mean nothing
When they shape the very being you are

They are not like last night's leftovers
Something you can easily forget
Why would you try to forget them anyway
Life is not worth living if you don’t have emotions to back it up

Some would say depression is worse than this
But how would you know if you never lived through it
With depression you have someone to go to
But this the one you loved is gone
A part of your very soul, your being

If these emotions can be forgotten
Why would you forget them in the first place
All the love, sore, pain would mean nothing
And if they are connected to the one you love why would you forget

Why would you want to lose this connections to your loved one
When all you want is to hold them in your arms again
And you want to feel their warmth
To regain the part of your soul that was lost

And when you move on it’s not the same
You already lost apart of your soul that can’t be regain
And it will never be the same
No matter how hard you try

And when you are left alone with them
They will tear at you, rip you apart
Make you feel like your nothing without your loved one

So when I say you don’t know what it’s like until you lived through it
I mean it you really don’t know
And when you do live through it
You will know the pain and emotions that I have

But until that time don’t say
Don’t say this is something you can easily overcome
Because emotions are not easily thrown out and forgotten

The wind is cold
and feels right on my
skin.

It calms my heart
and I rush in with endless
exhaustion.

Tell me to believe
and I will not lash out, whispering
no.

My arms don’t belong
to me. I don’t belong to
me.

It sits on my chest
lingers in my head with its
claws.

I welcome the pain—
the sharp edges of wind feel
right.

I feel wrong.

Crack my skull,
Feeling so dull,
I was feeling so full,
But now I lost it all,
I wish you would call,
But I know that I'm feeling so small,
I feel like I'm lost while I crawl,
I know that it isn't your fault,
You make me numb and yet feel so full,
Feeling so dull,
Cracking my skulI,
I want to hold your hands so I just hope I haven't lost it all.

They’re always watching, following me
I can feel their presence everywhere I go
I tried to listen to them, I felt them calling me
So I welcomed them in and let me go

Step, ground breaking
Crack, heart shaking
Bleed, falling shards
Shatter, picking cards

Rolling dice, losing all
Flying down, slowly fall
Sinking deep, pull me under
Shouting silence, I will sunder

Sleep, mind cracking
Break, stress capping
Run, fast forward
But time, can't be bothered

Once again
Here we go
We're playing the blame game
You can't seem
To let go
So it is all the same
Conclusions
But you don't know
Which path down where it came
So, ofcourse I am blamed
The outcome never change

i'd rather lose you
knowing i loved
you wholeheartedly
than have loved you
with one foot out the
door