cause you granted her EVERYTHING I have always wishing you for

I sit here with jealousy on my mind
and envy in my heart
I yearn to know
I read their words
I wonder about their thoughts
curiosity clings on my tongue
questions unasked
and questions unanswered
Jealousy leaves a wave of guilt in the air
and breathing it makes me sick
I wonder if that's what really killed the cat

You accused me of jealousy
No, that's not me
It's just you and your insecurities
You were the first and the worst
But it seems that I have stolen your place
Wiped you out of her face
Your existence is gone forever in her heart
But who said you were even there from the start

With gentle cheeky smiles and cheery cheers,
You endeared yourself to your deary dears,
My jealousy rose up like the towering tiers,
of classic wedding cake infused with beers,
Drunk even more in love without you here,
Us becoming strangers made me shed tears,
Somehow your babbling is a delight to hear,
But you're getting far away, not even near.

don't text him right away
wait a year,
get married,
keep him guessing.

arrive fashionably late to your dates
wait an hour, or 2,
or just don't go,
keep him waiting.

flirt with other guys
kiss other guys,
**** other guys, marry them,
that'll make him jealous.

tease him
don't let him touch you,
don't let him *******,
hell get a mastectomy,
that'll drive him crazy.

don't be the first person to say I love you
don't be the second,
don't want to seem desperate.

You said that you loved me.
But how can that be?
When so soon after you are
Writing poetry with her?
You never used to let me write your poems-
I wasn't even allowed to read them.
And you refused to read mine.
So how could you have possibly loved me?
You never did.
And again I am a fool.

Surely I have no idea about jealousy
until I see her having a lovely dinner
next to my table with her mother