There’s two types of people in this world and some of them aren’t as confident, proud, outgoing, steadfast, and brave, the list is endless, as others. This is written for those who take the back seat for the most part and don’t always love the lime light. Don’t worry, some of us understand you.
She wakes up in the morning
and rolls Herself out of bed
She tries Her hardest and clears Her busy head.
She gets to the mirror and sees Her smile.
"Oh my word what a pile of ****...
I still have to do today
just to say that I am done"
is what She needs to tell Herself everyday
but She sadly stops at part one.
She examines herself,
takes the make up off the shelf
and puts on Her face for the day.
She thinks of all the people She needs to face
And what exactly She needs to say.
To be polite … while being precise
but without being Un-PC.
but these words evade Her
like steadiness in a seizure
so many faces that daunt Her,
past social encounters that haunt Her
and it’s only the beginning of the day.
when I see Her engage with the
bewilderment of people,
it’s an interesting sight in itself.
(as David Attenborough)
as the female puts her best foot forward, she also uses Her sceptical eye too
and Her heart, goes back in its shell.
it’s not that She doesn’t trust the other humans in the species, and it’s not that you aren’t to be liked,
but She needs to tell if the friendship is for one second or for life.
I watch Her and notice how She holds a conversation like I want Her to hold my
....... heart. Anxiously, yet tentatively and caringly too.
But it’s lunch time now and for Her that relief,
to sit, not eat, and have a self-debrief.
“you’re done with half of things in your way for today, and it’s all smooth sailing from here!”
is what She needs to tell Herself right now
but there’s a slight change added in Her schedule,
its panic and ******.
“WHAT EVER SHALL I DO?”.
then the soothing voice,
of Her chubby Adonis,
has to tell her what to do:
“EK SE FOKKEN WOAH!
don’t you worry,
don’t you fret,
together we’ll see this through.
You’re already half way done and you’ve climbed small mountains, give yourself credit where it is due!”
but in her mind, it sounds, otherwise
it sounds like there’s still mountains ahead
and only molehills achieved.
and the energy levels are depleted.
and baby now you’re halfway.
So it’s something to ponder how someone can wonder and stress and dwell and plea.
on social situations that you may take for granted as something to face on the daily.
so, don’t be impatient, but for once just stand in Her shoes and find some other ways to wipe away and not give them their blues.
A spoken word piece I did based on my Fiance and her general daily anxieties
