I don't want to be the cigarette in your coat pocket
Just so you can take me out and use me
And after the high put me out and end my light -sprawled naked across my bed-just to say
"I wish we didn't do that..."

Filling me with such regret

You saw me
I saw you
You went up to see me
I smiled back too
You asked me how I’ve been
I said I’ve been great
Then your tears started to pour
You said you regretted everything..
You regretted pushing me away
When I kept on catching you
You regretted hurting me
When I was the one always saving you
You looked at  me, crying
Shaking and looking scared
“I regretted losing you when you were the only one who genuinely cared”

they say love isn't real if they don't make your heart ache at some point,
but with you, it ached as much as the sea storms into the shore and goes back out—again and again, it never ends,
it ached when you lifted your loving gaze and smiled to me from across the room full of people around us,
and we were slow dancing in a burning room.

As life threatens my very existence
I move forward like a sunrise ever constant
As I face the sound of battle
I lash out like Zeus enraged
Missing my sworn enemy’s darkened soul, choosing not to be saved
My scythed battle cries give me powered wings
As Life spews its armed anger at me
I march forth like a force of the gods before us
Victory! The call,  sweeter than any honeyed voice
The words flow from my enchanted pen like rivers of anesthesia
With the ghost of my demons in my mind ever present

Though the sun is shining
Around me it constantly rains
I wish I could walk on water
Just to float for a change
When the effort you strive to put in
Just get skewed and flayed
Do you give up
or just run from this race
a world frozen and so cold
we must icely face
fighting day in and day out
quicksand,
We still sink in this space
is this world a disgrace
since when did our moral compass
get so magnetically displaced
wish daily i could retrace
every missed step i ever took
yet that’s just a wish i can’t make
so I have to be relentless
in this journey I take
give everything, every second
and just hope I don’t break
I can’t shout loud enough
because the air I breathe is just fake
it’s not giving me life
but an losing fight that i hate

When will I realise
This life is not fair
These souls would rather slit your throat
Than show that they care
This wicked truth within my mind
Is stripped slowly bare
Sometimes I wish I could rip my chest open
Give you my heart
So you can listen to what it shares
A mirage of broken dreams
It's like being caught in a whirlwind
A merry-go-round snare
It's my living nightmare
Choking on oxygen
Do I breathe, I don't dare

Slowly it draws every last breath
every step  that we take
moves us closer to death
this truth we have to face
no matter what the evidence
it's an open shut case
live with no regrets
because your life you cant retrace
in this life we have a stake
live life to the fullest
no matter the odds or mistakes.

Run like there's no tomorrow
Cry only to alliviate sorrow
Live like our time is borrowed
lets not cower
take this life by the neck
imprint you are not a coward
the hurt makes us stronger
punch with everything you made of
even sorrow we devour
churn it in our soul
then spit out flowers
let your flamed courage bring forth the rain
let it decend
It's a metoer shower
let this winged words take you higher
soar above the chaos
i bet life will seem brighter
we are all born as fighters
its for us not give up
in this world
with all the power.