I told her
That she wasn't enough
If you tell a pretty kitty
That she is ****
It will start to think
That that's her name
Her name
Was in fact
Beauty
Love
Grace
Loyalty
Thoughtfulness
PERFECT
Her name was
A mix of all of these words
Named after the water
That falls from the sky
When clouds roll in
Depressing
When thunder and lightning
Strike the ground beneath you
Scary
But spelled differently
So she wasn't
Depressing
Or scary
She was the beauty
In the rain
The drops on glass windows
The sparkles in curled hair
The puddles in the streets
The colorful umbrellas
Rainboots too big for your feet
She was kisses
In the middle of the street
She was sharing an umbrella
She was the start of new love
She was love
She is Love

But does she know that?

I am childish
And foolish
To think that if I
Kept bringing her darkness
She wouldn't shy away
And turn towards anything
Anything that was brighter
I was foolish
To believe
That I could ever be
The water she needed
To grow and live
When I
Was the acid
Burning through her roots

May mga lugar tayo na mahirap sa atin ang balikan
Minsan malayo,
Minsan maulan,
Madalas walang oras.
Pero kailangan natin puntahan.

                 Ilan lang yan sa mga rason na mas gusto ko nalang isipin
                 Para madaling magdahilan.
                 Pero kapag puso ang tumawag,
                 Kalinga ang nangailangan
                 Pag unawa ang nais maging hantungan.

Iniisip ko,
Ano ba ang dahilan bakit mahirap balikan.
Binabalik ako sa katotohanang,
Wala na.

                                     Wala na ang tao sakin na madalas maghanap.
                                          Madalas mangamusta.
                                              Madalas­ magsabing magpataba ka.
      
                 Ang kahit kelan hindi ako tinuring na iba,
                 Kahit kailangan na.

                                          Marahil ito nga.

Dinadala ako sa ibang direksyon,
Sa ibang tahanan,
Sa tahananang walang ibang tao.
Sa tahanang hindi ko na maririnig ang tinig mo.
Hindi ko na mahahawakan ang malambot at mapagkalinga **** braso.
Wala na ang biro, tawa at masigla **** tinig na nagpapaingay ng paligid.

                                        Marahil ito nga,

Bumubungad sakin ang isang kahon ng alala
Na sa pag ihip na lang ng hangin ko maradarama.
At sa ganda na lang ng paglubog ng araw ko na lang makikita.

Ang mga tinago kong munting ala-ala

soft hands
against soft skin.
soft touches
draw sighs from within.

soft words
make everything okay.
soft smiles
make my entire day.

i miss you
even though it hasn't been that long
because it just doesn't feel right
when you're gone.

I don’t regret the **** I do or the choices I make. Love is over rated and you’re a down grade. I tried my best to look out for the rest but I guess it’ll be me myself and I. I pray for better days and better ways but how am I supposed to do that? When everything I do reminds me of you? Of us? Maybe one day it’ll be a better day.

Im writting to you here becuase I cant in real life,
so here ill say everything I've always wanted to say
and Ill proudly say it with regret and humiliation because I couldn't be
any stronger, and anything bigger to say it to you in person.
ill say that i still think about what we were
and that i only do at 2 am, because 2 am is the time for heartbroken people who need closure and the feeling of infatuation in their life,
ill also say that any other time, I don't think about you because there's nothing to think about,
we had something
but it ended because you decided that having nothing was better than having everything
and you were too scared of having everything
and i was too scared of having nothing .
ill also say that even though i still might love you with every inch and piece of me, i would never want you back
because having you back is like setting my house on fire while im watching from the outside, it would just **** everything inside, but i would be left with nothing.
in the midst of all this saying, i would say how i miss our talks and our jokes, and how it could be anytime of day ill still think about telling you a stupid joke i heard, hoping to hear your laugh once more
to finish off
ill confess how i want to keep you in my life, because with you, even though i still, and always will, have nothing
you gave me
everything.

Why are you the missing person in my life when you were never there at all?
The lost love, missing lyric, heart breaker.
I took one look at you and forever I was left: Hoping Dreaming Loving Begging Missing Wanting Needing you.
To touch you, hold you, have you...  Atleast one dose would have me satisfied.
But our paths diverted.
Maybe if I was braver
Maybe if you were stronger
Maybe
Maybe
Maybe
We’d be together and I’d be addicted,
but
I’d never be missing you again.

☯
Alas, i've written
to infinity before;
but he wasn't home.