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Laura Aug 15
I don't normally dress this way
"I shouldn't be wearing this"
"express yourself and be fearless"
being perceived nowhere yet everywhere
not matching
raspberry and green
sometimes wishing ears instead of eyes
I don't have many secrets
but i know what I am
vik Aug 15
if the theatre breathes like a rancid lung
   it must exhale into the rafters;
ledger-scent and sour of iron...y,
  and hours congealed into one bleak bruise.

then it must be that only (i) inherit a vessel
as one inherits a house wrecked by fire:
   walls still too warm with other lives,
wallpaper peeled into letters that spell me.
   never (my) name.

heart-beat / heart • skip
(these syllables only ever tally debts.)

    (my) palms are tax-collectors with gloves far too soft to grasp mercy.
    (my) ribs are two little vaults where accusations slumber.
    and there are ceaseless receipts folded inside the sole of (my) shoe.

evenings most beautiful
  with rain pouring down their face,
have stopped pooling and now,

   they sediment, layer upon layer...
in the strata of one’s rues,
  as ossified bulwarks for crimes (i) never learned.

a braided tongue of smoke
   knots through (my) chest,
insisting on words (i) never even conceived,
       sighing a confession to a jury of
absent eyes.

  they led me to the scaffold
palisaded oak, blade polished to a sunless gleam,
and the (crowd), silent as those ledge
pages,
      watched
as i was sentenced for the mere act of knowing.

and even as the head fell,
       i felt the phonetics of my existence
spill like tarnished coins across the wet cobblestones,
  and the (spectators), formless and meticulous,
  gathered them as though i were (theirs).
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girlinflames Aug 20
I showed one of my poems to my best friend.
He was horrified.
Said I write poems as if I were a submissive woman.

I found it funny —
that’s not how I’d describe myself.

But if I think about it,
for a long time I tried to fit
into the mold of a Proverbs 31 woman —
the perfect keeper of the home,
the crown upon her husband’s head.

Eventually, I realized I didn’t fit there.
Not because she was flawed —
but because it was an expectation too small
for someone who is far greater.

I wear my own crown.
"Who am I? Who am I?
Every moment I ask myself:
Who am I?

My identity is lost
in moments of doubt.
Do I want to be me...
or do I prefer to belong?

In those moments
when I try to express
what I feel
and the words
can't be found,
I put on masks—
they project what's acceptable about me,
but they don't show
my vulnerabilities.

My mind and my heart
come into conflict.
Because in truth
I am a country bumpkin,
but the world requires
me to be "that girl
that overcame her circumstances."

At what point did I become so concerned
with what I thought
I should be,
that I gave up my identity
because I didn't want to be?"
Aquí estoy, con el alma partida en dos//
una mitad hecha de arena caliente y otra de concreto foráneo.

Hablo en dos lenguas, sueño en una, y a veces me pierdo entre los silencios que no se traducen.

Allá soy "la que se fue".
Aquí "la que no es de aquí"//
En todas partes pertenezco, y en ninguna del todo pertenecí.

Mis raíces me jalan como las olas a la orilla//
pero mis pasos han aprendido a caminar sin mapa fijo.
"¿Quién soy? ¿Quién soy!?
En cada momento me pregunto:
¿quién soy yo?

Mi identidad se pierde
en los minutos de duda.
Quiero ser yo...
¿o prefiero pertenecer?

En esos momentos
cuando trato de expresar
lo que siento
y las palabras
no se encuentran,
me pongo caretas—
proyectan lo aceptable de mí,
pero no muestran
mis vulnerabilidades.

Mi mente y mi corazón
entran en conflicto.
Porque en verdad
soy una jíbara,
pero el mundo requiere
que sea "that girl
that overcame her circumstances."

¿En qué momento
me preocupé tanto
por lo que creí
que debía ser,
que dejé mi identidad
perdida
por no querer ser?"
This body is an archive—  
not just of stories but of sacrifice.  
I carry ancestors in my gait, echoes of islands in my tongue,  
and a rage that simmers—quiet but volcanic.  
No passport can define my belonging.  
I am landless—but never rootless.  
Every border I cross remembers me.
Sea creatures live beneath deep oceans,
sheltered by beautiful coral reefs,
sometimes hidden in the darkness,
where the sun cannot reach.
Poor sea creatures, longing to be with the birds,
rise toward the sparkling surface,
only to learn the air was never theirs to breathe.
I just wanted to say just be yourself no need to change yourself by looking others.
The uniqueness in us makes us different from others and eventually it becomes our identities if we try changing it we might lost ourselves
anotherdream Aug 13
The waves are closing in
As I swim towards the finish line
I feel my claustrophobia settling in
My body swaying left and right

My eyes fixated on being first
Tunnel vision now my guide
I ignore everyone around me
If it means reaching solid ground

Medication's slowing down my thoughts
But I'm running out of time
How many times can I fall down
Before I cannot rise?

Before the water gives from under me
And my lungs let out a desperate cry
Screaming, "Save me Jesus!"
"These waves drag me down to die!"

"Why do you test My mighty power
When I have saved you every time?"
"Oh you of little faith
Rise up, leave your fears behind"

"Your sins have been forgiven
For I became a living sacrifice"
"Your soul has been made anew"
Jesus spoke, as He calmed the piercing tides

Now He carries my anxious burdens
When I'm losing all my might
Every day I get to know Him more
In the morning and the night

He guides me towards the narrow path
When I'm wandering from His design
He quiets my inner demons
Before I lose my mind

He reminds me of my identity
When the enemy whispers lies
He reveals His awesome power
When my doubt begins to rise

Only He can offer resolution
For these problems I face in life
He is my sole provider
Of my needs which come with time

So I urge my brothers and sisters
To call upon our mighty God!
For He will calm the stormy waters
And prove that He is Christ
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