my tears look prettier
falling for you.

Tonight
my heart is full of ache

I am slow to learn
and quick to mistake

All the progress
that I manage to make
One grave error
and it all seems fake

Years are running out
and much is at stake

Tonight
my heart is full of ache

Finally
remembering
how
to
forget.

I broke your heart.

You came crawling back to me,
saying it was all your fault
(even though you thought it was mine),
just so you could speak to me again.

So, I let you back in my life.
But then you said you couldn't handle it,
couldn't handle thinking about
what had happened between us,
about how badly it hurt you,
because you still loved me
and knew I didn't love you back.

So you said goodbye,
that you might be back
sometime.

You had given me a second chance
when I broke your heart.
But I don't think
I'll ever be able to give you one
after you broke mine.

So when you did come back,
I had to say goodbye.

You touched my soul
You said goodbye
You left me wondering why?

Do you know how hurt I am
I gave you everything I can
But you are only half a man

How could I be so dumb
Loving a man who is so numb
Feeding off the crumbs you give
Now all I can do is watch you leave

Stupid stupid girl
You have your head in a whirl
Get out of this delusional state
Fill your heart with anger and hate

Now every text I get I wish was you
And I’m sure one day it’ll be true
But by then it’ll be too late
I’ll move on and that’ll be my fate

Please don’t light my spark again
You are a memory I don’t want to regain
Sure you showed me what my heart could do
But no-one else will ever compare to you

my mother shoved words into my mouth
she fed me whenever i cried
and as the obedient kid that i was,
i learned to nibble on every word
and swallowed them as i should.
now that i'm older,
my stomach has ran acid
ーit burns my chest and i would still feel them
foam inside my mouth as if
every word were told just yesterday.
how can i truly love my mother
if she couldn't feed me
when i was hungry for something else?
i cried again with my heart wide open
as my knees wobble in fear
of how exposed i was in front of her.
but this time,
i guess she couldn't hear me enough.
it was silentーshe couldn't feed me anything,
for not a single word left her mouth.
she watched me intently
as i detach the cord from both of our bodies.
     i wasn't the daughter she loved anymore,
     but she was still the mother i loved.

love is a scam
I think we all know it
only takes, never gives
demands your whole life
without even a blink

we both know
we loved each other
and yet
you let fear take over
so we never were

you heart broke me
crying tears for you
that never should be

now I need to forget
you and all the memories
how long will it take this time
only the future knows