You can forgive
You cannot forget.
And when you cannot forget,
You rethink, you remind yourself
How it hurt you.
How it betrayed you.
How it made you believe,
That everything was okay now.

Can you really forgive
That which you cannot forget?
That which you do not allow yourself to let go of?
When you say you have forgiven,
Whose conscience are you setting free?
Why do you forgive?
Why did you forgive?
When you are reminded of your own agony
Again and again, with the same person
Walking by everyday,
Spending each day with you
In the name of family, friendship, love, marriage,
How are YOU sure that you have forgiven
So as to not allow a new rise
To that which you have forgiven
And put aside?

What is it that convinces you
That you can forgive
That you have forgiven
That you can move on from?

What is it that assures you
That once you've forgiven,
YOU will be okay,
That you are ready to move forward,
That you know will not affect you anymore?

While sin enslaves,
Jesus Christ saves,
Why carry around the burdain,
When Christ is willing to carry it for you,for your own gain?
Look,we all fall short of His glory,
We cease to become holy,
But His redemption is always available,
Getting over sins guilt is hard,but its do-able,
Wipe clean your conscience with Christs love,
Not that you'll be as innocent as a dove,
But that your soul will be at peace.
God is a great and forgiving God,He's the reason for this piece.
Jesus Christ saves.

Urge
to throw myself across the finish line
let in envelope me in arms
cold as death
let myself curl into a ball
in that dark, vast space of unconsciousness
where I will be,
undoubtedly,
forgiven.

I'm not trying to be like everyone else
Following crowds to fit in.
I don't need you to make me happy, because your happiness is a weight of lies and loss all on me that I don't want to carry anymore.
I don't need to look like you to get noticed.
I don't need to talk or dress like you to stand out.
because I really won't.
It would look just like you and that would bit the purpose of standing out.
So maybe I'm the black sheep.
Maybe I don't fit in.
Maybe you don't like me.
So what!
At least I know I'm standing out enough for you to notice me and worry about whether you like me or not.
So thank you for lifting up my spirit because now I have the energy to be where I once was.
On Top Of The World.

Holding on to your love with my life and soul.
Let the days pass by and roll into weeks,
I'll sit there and take it yes all you have to give ,
I'll leach it from you drain you dry forever more.
No more emotion I'll take it all
I'll sit there and stare,
I'll look but not see,
I'm blind to the world that's surrounded me.
I'll make my assumptions and I'll pass my judgement,
Its all wrong in your eyes and mixed up in my head through all of these feelings I might as well be dead.
It's all **** self pity, loathing and hatred,
They all belong to me.
I feel like I'm being crushed under the weight of myself.
You see those people who have misery around them it flocks to them in droves.
Well thats me in my head surrounded by smiles.
Give me love and I'll poison it I'll take it down and make it dark.
You can't get through to me because I am not myself.
You are slowly killing me
Watching me decay with those beautiful eyes.
But I want to be strong I don't want to give in,
With every step you take my heart grows weaker,
So give me others to fill the void just let me heal please don't rip the wound you made in me,
Because you up and left me at the door and now I'm trying to make my own way.
Just take me back or let me go.

You want me to HATE you?
        To yell, cuss and scream?
How could I do that to you?
             I'm living a nightmare,
      and you're my dream...

You want me to call you names?
    Say you're an *******, idiot, and worthless?
          How could I do that to you?  
    You're my only star,
           when I'm feeling hopeless

You want me to give you,
         What you think you deserve?
   Say you hurt me by being evasive, cowardly and untrue?
        How could I do that to you?
    I don't lie to or hurt the people I love...
          And you simply mean too much

       You want me to tell you a secret?
    Tell you how I'm hurt, crying and ashamed?
         How could I? It's not really true.
     You're stuck in my heart for good
And I've already forgiven you.