and if you see me
cruising in the depths of unknown. it's cause i was seeking for the thing that you were looking for. you tried to look unto others the uniqueness that i cannot even fathom. you've given up your smile to those people who were unworthy to see you happy. they'd replace with pain that you'd still long to keep. but, how dare i to conquer this? it's cause i was selflessly caring for you while you keep dragging yourself to the fools.
There's something in life I can't debate
It's an **** argument no one can win
I know that love won't fit in my life
When the world we must revive
is just nothing but an utter sin
August 26th, 2019
Canvass these souls
Just do anything
To get the hidden truth
Sinisterly, they all will fool you
But try not to get fooled by this junk
You are way more capable to unravel
You are the truth seeker
But, destiny hands you the unfathomable truth
Rest is on your shoulders
At 1 am
I thought about wonderful metaphors
Of us and moments we've spent
And combined them into poem
At 2 am
I read the poem solemnly
Spelling each words patiently
I collected the memories one by one
At 3 am
I got to remember each joy and sorrow
As tears were suddenly streaming down on my face
Realizing how empty I was
At 4 am
I treasured every pain and happiness
As something precious
I've got and poured in my whole life
At 5 am
I found myself not able to fathom the pain
I cried myself to sleep, trying to cope the tears
within the agony that kept gnawing
At 6 am
I felt terribly pathetic
Yelling, shouting, screaming
Till I got tired and slept.
you told me you want to write thousand sonnet about me,
but even a word you cannot fathom.
My feelings are the horizons in the sky,
I cannot fathom into words.
If so, I sing them in lyrics wherein
I could pour them out into chords.
So if you could find it in your heart,
to give a second start...
This time things won't end the same,
'coz we're never growing apart.
I can't fathom the thought of love.
the two hearts beating as one
the butterflies that flip around in sight of your partner
the little hellos that makes the blood rush to your cheeks
or the nights that you miss them terribly that you can have them there to hold just by a call
but that's the only the good part...
But what about the Cons to the Pros?
the tears that fight it's way out to see the world
the lonely nights in your bed
the fights and arguments about being unfaithful
or the 75% of breaking up because of the incompatibility between the two hearts that were to beat as one.
That's why I can't fathom the thought of love
One day it's something so beautiful
Like something as beautiful as Disneyland to a 4 year old
But then the next day, It's something so unbearable
Like losing your favorite blanket that was given to you by a passed on relative.
How could something so beautiful to the eyes be so dark and treacherous on the inside?