The May flowers from my April showers still haven't come

Im starting to drown myself with works that I've been doing for so long.
And every time I fail you're always there to remind me how stupid I am.
I only want to succeed and be the woman I've dreamt to become,
But I know in your eyes all my hardwork were and never be enough.

I want to scream as loud as I can just for me not to hear your voice anymore.
Your words that tells me what to do and your mad face I'm afraid to stare.
I want to be free from the grip of your expectations,
For I just want to live my life as strong yet carefree.

So if you're reading this I want you to hear me out,
Listen to what my hearts shouts even for once.
Give me the air that was stolen from me to breathe,
And just be happy for everybody including me.

My loving self, free me from your past.
Break the chain that keeps me in your arms.
Let me wander a different path,
For us to have a better life- away from people's expectations and wrath.

I can feel the pounds of burden,
Weighing on my chest.
It hurts more than anything,
I only want to rest.

I want to cry my heart out,
I want to scream my lungs open.
The everlasting pounds of agony,
Leaves me beat and broken.

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
The day still remains as the day continues

Agreed and accepted
Result was not as per expectation
Still the battle continues
The battle is far from over
It was just a stumble, not even a fall
So nothing to worry deeply
Nothing much of concern

Winning and losing is part of the game
Games are played for a long period of time
The final game is yet to be played
The final word is yet to be said.

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
For me the day still continues

No, not all
It’s not the ups and downs
Highs and lows
Something, which has always remained a concern
The right approach makes the real difference
Definitely approach remained a concern since long.

A change in approach will definitely make the difference
Something which will let me give my best
Something which will change the future course of time.

No, not all
Everything is not yet over
Definitely things are far from over.

For me it’s not over
It’s far from over
For me the day still continues, the day remains.

Someday soon
  Ash and bone
We will be too

11:38pm Friday night
Lost again
To your memory
The nights we spent
Blissful
Unaware of what
we could lose
Dashed upon the rocks
Bitter
Disappointed
Unsurprised.