I want to
lay next to you.

I want to
feel our hearts
beat as one.

I want to
feel your chest
rise and fall
as you breathe
me in.

I want to
feel safe
in your arms.

But I can't...
It's what I want,
not what you need.

(-DF-08/03/16-)

When did everyone grow up?
These people act like they know the secrets of the universe,
but my question is...
When did I stop knowing?

Every morning
I pretend that I'm awake,
That everything is okay.

The truth is, I no longer feel alive.

And so I thought everyone felt this way...
But they don't.
They look forward to talking to their friends.
To going on vacation.
To living their everyday.

And I?
I look forward to closing my eyes.
To hoping that today will be different.
That maybe when I wake up in the morning I'll actually be awake.

When will this unnerving sadness end?
When will I feel alive?
When?

(-DF-08/24/16-)

I'm surrounded by strangers.
Walking is so hard, everything is so slow.
When did time stop?
The chains are so
heavy...
My heart is aching,
my soul is shaking,
and my mind is breaking.
When did dreaming become a job?
I'm bounded by the unknown...
The question always lingering, like a bee hive that never sleeps.
There are silent tears that escape my soul.
When will this nightmare end?
And then morning comes,
and as I open my eyes, I become aware
that the nightmare
has only begun...

(-DF-06/21/16-)

Do you want to know what hurts?
It hurts that you're doing well without me,
While I'm paralyzed by your absence.

You've always been the strong one.
The one that lifted me up when I tumbled.
You were the one that helped me...

Yet it seems I was the one that held you back.
I was the one that slowed you down.

And trust me, I'm sorry, but
I'm also forever grateful for your time and patience with me.

I never meant to let you down.
I guess it's time I became the strong one.

(-DF-08/08/16-)

Why can't
I stop
loving
you
the way
you
stopped
loving me?

(-DF-07/31/16-)

You were
the brightest
of them all,

but you left me
darker than the
rest.

(-DF-07/31/16-)

You were
the last
person I thought
would leave...

But you've closed
the door behind
you.

And I'm left holding the key.

(-DF-07/31/16-)