The melody of your heart, my laughters
Source,
But now, I see through your ruse.
You exploit my joy, you have no care,
Only self serving games, I swear.
Foolish me, to believe in your tune,
Naive a puppet, hanging on your cue.
You'd exploit laughter, leave me with none,
My heart you've used, but now I'm done.
Careless and cold- love fairness missed,
I've longed for you,
Felt deeply,
In my chest.
No requited affection in sight,
Just your acts, your games,
Your plays and spite.
Used as a toy, just a game you play,
Never the object of your tenderness-
Or sway.
You've hidden behind scorn,
Fearing vulnerabilities touch,
An addiction grows, belittling,
Demeaning you, so so much.
Is your heart torn by the truth of your own feelings,
Or is it that anger masks the only shield you're wielding?
Have you forgotten what it's like to feel any other way,
Lost in the shadows your anger casts-
Each day?
You've played your part, just as i've played mine,
Caught in this dance, again-
And again, I find.
I question truth, I settle for the lies,
I tell myself I’m stronger, but still, I disguise.
Your melody lures me, a song I once knew,
A tune that onced soothed, now made untrue.
I’ve begged for silence, a break from the noise,
But I'm lost in a world where you're always the voice.
I’m stuck in webs, to tangled to see,
The chains you've woven-
they still cling to me.
Your laughter and lies, they still pull me near,
A puppet, a fool, caught in the fear,
And so it continues, the endless refrain,
I’ll scream, I’ll cry, yet still I remain-
Waiting for you, waiting for change.
