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I’ll be honest,
I miss staring into your eyes, my hand on your cheek, giggling because each word from your mouth was new and lovely.
I miss how every touch was a lightning storm with colors I'd never seen before.
Staying up until 2am because we just couldn’t help it
Asking questions we didn’t know the answers to
Talking long walks and finding “our spot”

Now there are less butterflies,
but that’s only because we’ve caught them.

They’ve settled down a bit and only take off when the weather’s right, but we’ve gained some things in their stead:
Trust that we can say and do anything and it will be met with understanding not judgement
Knowledge of the other's needs and wants and quirks
The desire to work together toward something bigger than ourselves
Security that we have chosen each other over and over again

And I’ll be honest again,
I don’t feel in love with you anymore.
Because being in love to me used to mean  I couldn't hold back from kissing you and that the "I love you's" had to be grander and deeper each time.
But now I do hold back for the sake of our souls
and now I say “I love you”, but you already know.
The roller coaster has stopped and we’re going back home.

I am in love with you, but I’m adjusting to a new definition.
A love that isn’t butterflies crashing around in my belly until three in the morning.
It’s a love that is going to bed at 11 so we can go to church, a love that is cleaning the kitchen together, keeping up with each other’s families, listening and reminding each other of truth when it’s been a hard day, and knowing that our arguments won’t last.
I know the feelings are fleeting but the fact is we are always there for each other and we never get tired of being in each other's presence and that is all I need.
cozyjune Aug 2019
I need to find the strength to get over you.
It’s becoming hard to breathe.
My hands are trembling, my legs are quivering
You’ve got me down on both knees
I am searching for you in every forced kiss
Every time I called him baby
I had to close my eyes
Because only in darkness do I see the light anymore
Only when the sun goes down
Does the flickering candlelight
Take the shape of your burning hot lips
Wax dripping down the side like the tip of your finger dragging down my spine
Or the tears crawling down my cheeks
And only when I blow it out does the smoke find the form of every ‘I love you’
Trailing off at the end
Dancing into the air, never quite reaching its destination
The pattern on my ceiling is starting to look more and more like the scratches on my back
I look at the clock and all I see is every second passing by that you have not called
Every minute I spent wondering why I was never enough
Every hour, why you did not think you deserved my love?
Every day, well every day could never amount to the time I spent running out of chances and running into the arms of anyone who was willing to say the words that never dare spilled out of your careless mouth
Broken hands, drenched in blood, reach out to me in my dreams
Broken by promises, drenched in insecurity
There was never a difference to me
Scraps of sentences I never finished are choking me
And regrets are lodged in between my teeth
When will the strength find me?
an old poem i found clearing storage on my laptop
Pyrrha Aug 2019
I don't have butterflies in my stomach
They are more like moths
Eating me alive from within

I kind of like the way they tickle
Anastasia Jul 2019
she was
shadow cast
born of dark
eyes like jewels
and a starry night sky
night dew as her tears
moon dust in her lungs
the moths were her butterflies
fireflies, her halo
she was
shadow cast
ALesiach Jul 2019
Today a butterfly
fluttered through the sky.

Swooping, drawing near,
floating close enough to hear,

the wish whispered softly,
through teardrops a little salty.

It landed on the little nose
and heard the giggle as it goes.

To the heavens it soared up high,
releasing the wish on a little sigh.

ALesiach © 02/16/2015
ALesiach Jul 2019
Under the humid air
I sit, on my lofty rock and stare
as warm summer heat rises
I look toward the burning horizon

Butterflies dance by together,
enjoying the sultry August weather.
While nearby sprinklers twirl
and pinwheels whirl.

A breeze gently wisps across my skin
as birds fly by, weaving out and in.
Settling on a limb to rest and sing
before ruffling feathers and taking wing.

Bright with summer's flowers
Adorn my garden bower
with intoxicating smells
of magnolia, wisteria and bluebells

Some of August's simple treasures
brings the most delightful pleasures.


ALesiach © 07/26/2019
Anastasia Jul 2019
There's something about the way you smile
That lights my heart on fire
With a flame that shines through my eyes
The way you laugh
Fills my soul with content
A lazy smile
Stretches across my face
When you look at me
I can't help but feel
Worth it
Like I could be
The love of your life
You give me butterflies
When you say my name
And I feel
Real
Emotion
And I know
That I'm in love with you
C
Renée Jul 2019
tanned thighs
perfect music and perfect laughs
your house sits on the hill where the bay lies
grassy and stretching down to where the water runs like a marathon medalist or a
tidal pool circling around to reach its tail
you tail me too, when we chase each other on these fine white sands
tail me, I dare you,
get me, adore me
like you do at 3 in the morning when you have me on the counter to sing to and look at me
fanned nights, palms in the sticky air of a summer evening
spread like cards on the low table
heat simmering like breakfast at 4, which we take with us
to have on cracking shells and blacked feathers along the shore
I see your skin, soft, pulling sand—your fingers—sifting beaches, straining them easily
warmer than the sun—your eyes
august nights that bring the fight into you
you’re talking nonsense, but it makes perfect sense because it’s you
rosy cloud matter hangs above ‘till I’m under glass surfacetops, at the bottom of the sea
but I wake up just above it
to be a floater—streaming boater girl, always
really, just watching you, down with another, passion firing your eyes, unlocked
I watch as I do butterflies
wild and free to fly
it’s okay, I told you
you’re suntanned and you’re mad
you’re talking, like you do
but it’s okay
because you’re free
Anastasia Jul 2019
You
Sometimes I run out of words
And I wanna walk somewhere
So I put on my hoodie
And smell my perfume
It smells like you
A sleepy musk
I walk to your place
And words flow through my head
And I can't help but smile
A real smile
Unlike the ones I've had for a while
And I tell myself
It won't hurt
If you only love him for a while
Just enough to get through
But
I messed up
And I loved you too much
When I get to your house
I hesitate
Should I go home?
But then I see you smile at me
At my fears fly away
But the butterflies in my stomach
Stay
And I hope you will too
I don't know. Just my thoughts ❤
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