I passed you by
just like that, i just walked away
I had no idea I could pull myself to
And yet I am no longer imprisoned to stay

You looked my way
Just like that, you glanced by me
I hope you see I'm happier without you
I finally feel like I'm running safely free

I'm losing sight of what is real
Not sure what to believe

But I don't want to fall into your snare
I don't want to be all tangled up
Not in your lies
Not in my life

I didn’t think I would get to say this so soon.
I was ready to start getting my life back.
I was gonna slowly start doing stuff each week.
I was gonna start going back to my routines.
I didn’t know last week’s therapy would help.
I didn’t know it would solve this riddle of mine.
I found out what had caused me to be so tired.
I thought it was due to some physical thing.
I thought I would need more tests to be done.
I was gonna ask my doctor to do more tests.
I even said this to my therapist last Thursday.
I said this a few minutes before I got an answer.
I need to switch up these sentences to say this.
What I learned was something I didn’t expect.
The topic had switched to something different.
It has to do with something I haven’t said here.
I’ll make a different post about that a bit later.
For now, I’ll just say that this other thing, is it.
It’s the reason for my constant exhaustion.
Since we found out, I haven’t been tired!
I’ve been able to stay fully awake and alert!
My voice went back to its usual sound.
I spent the last week being cautious, to be sure.
But nothing has changed, and I can’t believe it!
I’m finally free from the exhaustion that had me!
This feels so amazing, and I love it so much!
I just felt the need to write this, as I sat at here.
I’m sitting at one of my outdoor spots today.
I’ll explain what happened in a later post.
For now, just know I intend on coming back.
And, when it comes to the tiredness, I won!

You are like an mosquito.
In the night, you keep me awake.

we run long miles
run them fast
to the point
pointless

we run north and south
wave the crowd
to show them
emptiness

we run west
believe in east
to believe in
fakeness

stop
take the peace in rest

I feel lonely
So lonely

No love
Never loved

So lonely
So cold

So loved
So warm

Yet, I hurt
Yet, I smile

What is this?
Where is this?

Lost in myself and yet completely aware of my being
Constantly lost without a problem deemed

Just lonely
Looking for love

Just lonely
Wishing that I was loved

If I go, will I be loved?
If I stay, will I find love?

So lonely
So cold

So loved
So warm

Just leave me alone
But, please, never go

Just please, leave me alone
Just please, help me
Just please, ...love me

So lonely
So warm in its embrace

So lonely
So lost without a trace

My emo moment lasting longer than expected
To people dealing with this, you are much respected

Still lonely
But a little happier

Still happy
But just a little bit lonelier :')

Good music playing, washing all my worries away
"What was I worried for anyway?"

Still lonely but still happy
Don't me today, just a bit yappy.

Don't me, just happy
Don't mind me, just a bit yappy :-D

At the end of the day,
I was meant to fall apart.
I cared for the one
who kept breaking my heart.

At the end of the night
I was meant to be awake.
I only cared for the one,
that was my only mistake.

At the end of the day
I was meant to be alone.
I cried for the one
whose heart was a stone.

At the end of the night
I was meant to die.
I believed in the truth
but the truth was a lie.  


-Paras Bajaj #PoetrybyParas
Instagram : @mr.parasbajaj