I'm afraid I won't feel you
I'm afraid  I won't  touch you
I'm afraid I wont  look at myself
through your  eyes ,
in your eyes
clear blue peaceful mirrors
I'm afraid I won't be there no more
I'm afraid us is no more
Deep inside no more
Wondering eyes no more
Just pain indescribable pain...
Your eyes will turn to memory
I will be just a memory
And this life will be no more

i thought of how it's going to be my final year in high school,
senior year,
year 12,
fourth year in high school,
the final year.

and i begin to remember how every time you came home after school and cried on the porch outside.
i heard your cries from the living room.
i remember you telling me everything that happened,
good and bad,
mostly bad.

it made me afraid of high school.
it made me afraid of my senior year.
i don't really remember your smile during that year when it came to school.
i don't want to fill your shoes.
i'm already an anxious person already,
i don't want to be afraid of the year that scares me the most.

Alone...
The night creeps upon you,
you shiver and try to hide,
but it closes in from all sides.

Alone...
Fear rushes through your body,
afraid of what the night conceals
or -- of what it can reveal.

Alone...
Eyes wide open,
shadows begin to take shape,
on the walls and on drapes.

Alone...
The darkness poisons your sleep,
even as it caresses your skin,
your heart beating fast within.

Alone...
Darkness wraps you in its cold arms.
Paralyzed, a single tear drops
and you scream for it to stop

Alone...

ALesiach © 01/30/2015

We come alive,
To start the Journey of life,
Destined to face many a strife,
Meant to die and go to the afterlife.

Time is my master they say,
It's what brings old age,
And dictates all change,
To race with it is both unwise and strange.

Yet if I were to choose,
I'd take the chance to get loose,
Escape from time's grasps,
And exist for as long as freedom lasts.

Time will stop for me,
And I wont have to watch my parents grow old,
Or my little dog grow weak.
Ain't it nice, no more worries.

Yet time stops for no one,
It's a fairy tale dream i know,
Yet still a noble dream to dream.
So I'll hold on cause I'm afraid,

And I wish time would stop for me...

You were born with fear of the unknown
Afraid of the dark
Of being alone
You were born with fear
It lit up your eyes
and set your brain on fire
And I wanted to protect you

~

One day that fire was quenched
Your love washed over me
And drowned it out
I stay in the dark
In between your arms
And you protected me
I was born with fear of the unknown
And I lived with the love of you