Don’t leave me alone
I can’t even feel my heartbeat anymore.
I see it in your eyes, the hesitation,
But please, don’t go. I’m slipping, panicking.
I know you need something I can’t give,
Something buried too deep to reach.
You turn away, reluctant to look,
Afraid of what you’ll see in me.
I sink to my knees, too tired to fight,
Sleep won’t come, but death is near.
He stands at my door, key in hand,
Waiting. patient. certain.
Fear wraps me in riddles,
But I know I’m still here,
Still grasping for one last moment
Just for tonight, will you hold my hand?
One last time, whisper your goodbyes.
I've let go of a lot of family over there years. I was so afraid to visit each and everyone them. I couldn't grasp the thought of having to say goodbye, so I lived in willful ignorance. Living in a world where the rule "out of sight, out of mind" was created. I was fullest, and I wished I would have said goodbye to them.
This poem is dedicated to the father that raised me better than my biological father, the grandmother who made the world feel at peace, the grandfather who taught me how to survive, and the cat that gave me hope that I could become better. I love you all so much, and there's isn't a day I don't think about you all.