I don't want to..
You're everything that I want..
So perfect, but at the same time, not.
Am I going crazy? Please don't give up on me.
I'll do anything to show you, how much you shine..
                                             *Inside of this torn heart of mine.

Dear Victoria,
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me?
My heart has gone cold.

Dear Mindset,
Why did you come?
You tell me I'm worthless,
Useless and dumb.

Dear Victoria,
I need you back,
Without you I do things,
My soul's turning black.

Dear Mindset,
You've changed this child,
You've broke my jawline,
And stole my smile.

Dear Victoria,
Right now, I am lost,
I'm confused, worried, doubtful,
My wrists pay the cost.

Dear Mindset,
You've ruined my life,
It was you who told me,
That salvation was in the knife.
It was you who began my now grand addiction.
   Thank you so much,
   Love Victoria x

Jesus Christ came to save Born to die raised to reign , One full of grace and truth I'm so glad he loves me to, A man just like me and you tried and tempted as you and I Oh, how our Heavenly Father loves us He loves us from heaven above to earth below a gloryful glow so bright and beautiful gift given to us, God only begotten son who was beaten and nailed to a cross blood & water dripping for you an me He was wounded the precious lamb of God, The devil thought he had him beat but He died for you and I raised from the dead I'm so glad He loves me and you when no other way was possible He became our Salvation, Redeemer & Deliverer.
I'm so glad He loves me an you
My Lord & Savior today and my soon coming King I hope you know him for He loves you and me.

I love you when you don't let me get my way.
I love you when you let me feel the pain.
I love you when you let me open my veins.

I love you for letting me walk off the edge.
I love you for every message left unread.
I love you for every word you never said.

I love you for every time you gave up on me.
I love you for when you come crying to me.
I love you for the look you get when you lie to me.

I love you for when you constantly complain.
I love you for playing mind games.
*I love you for driving me insane.

It keeps creeping in
  Slowly,
Indulging in every cell
  Deep within me.

What freedom do I have now?
  When all I can ever do
Is counting
  The days down.

The throbbing
  The stinging
The tugging
  The aching

What did I ever do
  *To deserve this pain
*That’s been haunting me
  For weeks?