i - Hello Poetry

i Dec 2014

I hope I stop writing
poems about you when-
you're never gonna read them,
they are a reflection of my thoughts,
my mirror on a paper,
my unexplained feelings towards you,
and so, if you do ever stop
being the inspiration behind my poems
I will stop missing you,
longing for your touch and love,
and oh, how I hope
I‘ll stop losing myself in the
gleam in your eyes.

#love #heartbreak #sad #heart #depressed #thoughts #poems #longing #paper #done

i Dec 2014

i realized-

today I realized that
you haven't left my heart completely,
there is still so much more of
you in there,
I realized love was blind and
not even a thousands poems
will matter to you,
I realized I filled myself
with lies I didn't even believe,
I filled myself with hatred,
I realized I still give a ****
about you, I still think of you
when the night settles,
and no matter how many
playlists I make you and
no matter how many songs
will be written about you,
you will never look at me
the way I look at you,
and I'm sorry it took me
this long to realize
that I'm not worth your time,
no matter how many times
I see you in my eyes,
I realized we will never fit,
we don't match, no matter
how many times I try to
capture your attention
with my cherry lips and
emerald eyes.

i don‘t know if you're worth it,
honey.

#love #heartbreak #sad #heart #depressed #poems #nothing #worth #today #realized

i Dec 2014

it was (not) easy

it was so easy to love you,
to adore every little bit of your
youthful soul and take bites
of your cherry heart.

it was so easy to give myself to you,
my whole body, forever marked
by your rough yet tender touch.

it was so easy to kiss you,
the edge of your mouth breathing
onto my tongue, getting drunk
on your taste.

but what wasn't easy,
was forgetting you,
forgetting how you used to call
me yours, how you used to kiss
my eyelids, reassuring me that
everything is going to be okay.

it wasn't easy trying not to call you
at 3 am in the morning,
whispering how much I adore
the sound of your velvet voice.

it wasn't easy deleting you from
my poisoned mind, where you
were the only poison,
my deadly sin.

it wasn't easy giving up on you,
because I thought you mattered
more than the stars and you
proved me wrong in the worst way.

#love #heartbreak #sad #heart #depressed #betrayal #fight #poison #forget #deadly

i Dec 2014

oh darling

it‘s funny you know,

how i need other people to forget about you,

but then they leave and i'm left alone with my thoughts, once again,

and all my thoughts are about you,

so, i guess you could say it‘s just the
two of us, darling.

#love #heartbreak #heart #need #thoughts #you #only #us #just #darling

i Dec 2014

lips to lips

when you put your lips
on mine,
that feeling is something
indescribable,
delicate.

and i though i would
get used to that magical feeling.

but as soon as i experienced it,
you were gone,
forever.

and i never tasted your lips again,
or saw your face again,
or heard your voice again.
you were completely gone.

*and i was not prepared for it.

#love #heartbreak #kiss #sad #heart #lips #feeling #never #gone

i Dec 2014

red lipstick

look at her,
red lipstick smeared on her face.

she is beautiful,
looking like this.

drunk and high,
she is too young.

she messes around,
and soon she will be gone,
just like everybody else.

no point to this,

#drunk #beautiful #red #young #gone #lipstick #same #high #different #soon

i Dec 2014

here and now

do it, do it, do it, do it
she chanted to herself
as she looked down from the high cliff
her eyes focusing on the loud waves of the dark blue sea.

she took little steps
and got closer to the edge of the cliff,
her death.

she wouldn't admit it,
but she was scared.

she took in the view before her,
her blue eyes shining with joy for the last time,
as she lifted her arms and spread them.

the light breeze tickled her skin,
and blew her black hair from her face
and she took one last breath,
taking the final step off that cliff.

and for the first time,
she felt *free.
easy floating in the air,
flying.

soon enough,
her flying body
would be greeted with rocks that
will break her bones to pieces,
and she'll stay broken,
just how she wanted to.

#suicide #broken #death #scared #breath #flying #bones #free #cliff #done