Where is my mind?
It's out  in the sea.
Between
Break up
Old love's
And my first Real uncle heading downstream.
My mind is one of a gemini.
It's hard not to loss my mind
Always torn in two.

The coral Is dieing.
Just like the love inside of me.
He took care of me.
And I cant ever pay him back u see.
Because what he gave me was a family.
We agreed to be friends.
And I hope that will never end.
He is part of my trinity.
He truly was
And always will be
My knight and shining armor
Because he rescued me
I wIll love him forever
That'll never be lost out in sea
But my coral is dieing.
But he will be my forever and always.

I'm stuck in the deep
I don't know what to say
about this old flame.
It's been 10 years
And he act like nothing has changed.
Yes he makes me feel ablazzed.
But I have came along way.
I want it to be.
But first I have to see.
What my life is going to be.
So for now
I'll wait and see.
If he can catch me
Out in the sea.

The current has came.
He is on his way to a better place.
Where he will say hey.
To the ones who lost there lives
Before his time.
he is my grandpa's brother.
But never met him or my uncles.
After my mom's death we all left.
Came down to Florida.
Where we stayed with this man.
Who I called uncle soon after.
So I raise a beer.
In cheer.
For my first real uncle.
Who was there.
We all love you.
And will be here to hold your hand.
When you go.
Please say hello
To my mother
Hope the current takes you to a better place.
So you can let go.
Of all you pat pain.

This is the stuff on my gemini mind.
Breakups are hard.
Old love's are too.
And death thrown in to the mix.
Hope I find a way out before
It's to late.
I'm just a little scared.
Don't want to loss a friend.
Or a family member.
One has to go I know.
But it's hard to let go.
And to that old fling.
Don't leave me on the swing.
If it's not meant to be.
I still want u to be.
A friend who I can.
Run to.

Is it crazy to be in love?
To give your heart to someone you trust..
An old love.
Someone you gave a piece of you.
Someone you thought you would never loss.
But you do.
Till one day they come along.
And tell you
They have kept a piece of you.
Safe from harm.
Can you never loss love?
Can they be true.
And really want you.
Or are they wanting to just take another piece of your heart?

I'm getting lost in this game you play.
Acting like nothing has changed.
I have came along way.
From the old days.
But this game you play
Has my flame ablaze
One I thought I hide away.
I'm getting lost in this game you play.

I feel stupit .
For writing all this.
But it is what it is.
And I can't change it.
I thought maybe
You cared
Enough to read this.
But who was I kinding.
I can't change it.
Silly me
I thought my first would be my last.
But who am I playing.
Now that I have two kids.
Who would want me.
It's all goods I have what I need.
My family.
I just thought..
A little to much.
About something that wasn't for me.
Maybe one day you will feel me.
I know that it's not just me.
Who thinks there being played.
But baby.
It's all in for me.
If you want to play
But this game
Only plays
Before all cards are in.
And I'm hoping we both win!

Everyother day I was running away.
Met the man of my dreams.
But he was older then me.
Didnt think my mom would agree.
So we did what we did without thinking.
Living life on the streets till we had enough money.
To get our ***'s to Georgia.
Where we thought we would be free.
Well the joke is on me.
See I had todo time.
While he got to walk free.
Life is so funny.
I was only 15.
I knew how life worked on the streets.
Always on the run so the police can't catch me.
Stealing cars and breaking into hotel suites.
Now tell me have you ever walked in my shoes.
Where you would rather starve then give up the stars?

so confused.
Stuck between two.
What to do?
Breath.
It's not about you.
Take some time.
Meanwhile get on your grind.
Keep an open mind.
Can do anything you want to do.
Take care of you.
In time you willnt be as confused.
Just take some time.
Keep an open mind

Why do they care?
Why does it matter?
Why can't we be friends?
Why does it matter?
Because we where lovers?
Why is it so hard to believe?
Why can't we just be?
Why can't you under stand ?
Why should it not be that easy?
Because we have kids?
Why should we let it come between our family?

If you love me.
call me!
I'm not trying to play games.
I know your far away.
But I can't be played!
I'm going all in.
It's the last attempt.
So if you love me call
Don't play no games!

You call.
And tell me you will call back.
If this isn't a game.
Then I dont know what your playing
If I can write this.
Before my phone rings.
Then this is..
Just make believe.
If your for real.
Then tell me I'm crazy.
Because I'm falling in love.
And I don't do that much.
There have only been three.
That I was crazy.
And you where my first.
And only.
No one else knows the real me.
So please call back before.
I go crazy.